Hyunjin's POV

"hyunjin?" he whispered as I buried my face in both mine and his arms.

What was i doing? Have I gone crazy?

I shed multiple tears. One after another. I was trying my best to keep quiet, but my mind was at chaos.

The freezing breeze hit me, causing me to shake from the coldness.

I leaned even closer to Lix, and clung my arms around him. I was a sobbing mess.

He held his arms around me all confused.

"hyunjin, are you ok?" He asked me

I couldn't use my voice even if I tried.

"hyunjin, calm down" he said, lifting my head up with his hand.

-"Listen. Take a deep breath ok?" Felix said, stroking my shoulders.

I did as he said, but my breaths were all chopped and laggy.

He held me even closer to him.

"Tell me what's wrong" he said softly

I finally managed to push out a couple words.

"W-what's going on?" I muttered

"What do you mean?" He asked me

"I-I'm not.. this is not.." I struggled wording out my thoughts. -"this isn't me" I finished

Felix went quiet for a couple seconds, trying to understand me. He kept gently stroking my shoulders and back.

My eyesight was super blurry. And my face was all wet and sticky from being smothered in tears and snot. Felix's shirt was soaked as well.

"You don't have to do anything you don't want to" he said

"It's not that" I explained -"it's just.. I don't know why I feel like this"

"Feel like what?" He questioned

"For you" I mumbled

"Huh?"

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I was in love. One hundred percent in love with him. I never thought something like this would happen. I liked him so much. Part of me actually regretted dodging the kiss, but something just clicked in my head at the moment.

The feeling of Felix holding me in his arms, and even going in for a kiss was amazing. My heart was going crazy, but my brain was stopping me.

"Please tell me what's going on Hyunjin" Felix begged

I took a couple more breaths, and looked up at him. His face was full of worries and unanswered questions.

"I don't know how to tell you" I said

"Try your best. I'm listening" he said before grabbing my hand, and locking his together with mine.

I looked him straight in the eyes

"I like you" I said

His eyes widened. I couldn't keep eye contact with him, so I figured it would be better to keep my head down.

"What?" He said quietly

I nodded.

"You do?" He asked me

I nodded once again, trying my hardest to keep my tears in. "Yeah"

We both went completely silent. His hand kept stroking me.

Maybe I shouldn't have said it, but nonetheless, it felt great letting it out.

"You like me?" Felix repeated

"I think so" I said -"but I'm not gay"

He stopped stroking me, and let go of my touch.

"You're not?" He asked me lifting one of his brows.

"Look at me" he said In addition of me not replying.

I looked at him through my sore eyes.

"I can't be gay" I said

He sighed.

"But you like me?"

"Yeah"

"You're aware that I'm a guy right?" Felix said smiling, probably trying to lighted the mood.

"Well, yeah" I said, shooting a little smile back at him.

"I know how you feel" he comforted me.

His tone was so serious, yet nice. I knew that i could trust him. Of course he knew how I feel, he's probably gone through the same thing. It made me feel much more relieved and safe knowing that he understands.

"But.. you're so cute" I complained, not noticing how I just accidentally gave him a compliment.

He smiled "You think so?" He said embarrassed.

"Yeah" I giggled

"Wow"

We looked at each other smiling. Weird how my mood could change so quickly. All I could think about was him.

And how bad I wanted to rewind the moment we almost kissed.

Felix laid back down, dragging me with him. This time we were closer than ever.

"I lied about finding the Big Dipper" I said

He chuckled "I figured"

"Help me find it again, I wanna see it" I said

He lifted my arm and came very close to my face, trying to see my point of view.

He rolled out my finger and pointed it to where the Big Dipper was.

"Here" he softly said

"I see it!" I said excitedly

"You're not lying right?" He mocked

"No" I smiled

I turned my head to face him, and he did the same. Our faces were once again dangerously close to each other.