We were finally outside. It was pretty cold, but that didn't seem to bother Lix. We were standing right outside the door. I wasn't sure how long until Felix wanted to go inside again, but I'd be willing to stay here a long time.

"Are you sure you don't want me to get someone? You look pretty sick" I asked Felix.

He shook his head.

"I'm ok"

I looked down at him. "How long do you want to stay here?" I asked him

"Can we go for a walk?" He requested

"Of course"

We slowly started walking towards the forest, and it was getting darker by the second.

I came to remember the spot that me and the boys found. The view was amazing from there, and I kinda wanted Felix to see it. The only problem is that it's a long walk. I'm not sure if Felix would want to go all the way.

"There's a place I found" I said -"in the forest"

Felix was listening.

-"It's pretty far tho, and I'm not sure if you'd want to go there, but.."

"Sure" He cut me off

I smiled.

"It'll take about 40 minutes to get there. It's up to you tho. You know, it's getting pretty dark outside" I said

"Show me the place" he said

He was already starting to look better. We were also walking faster every minute.

"Are you feeling better?" I asked him

"Yeah, I am" he said

We were quiet for most of the time, probably trying not to trip since we could barely see where we walked.

I couldn't keep my eyes off him. Something about the way he had his head down, but I could still see his smile. Something about how close he was to me when we were walking.

My thoughts were filled with lust, excitement and guilt. Fuck, I hated it. It's not supposed to be like this.

We're just friends. And I shouldn't look at him in any other way.

But I couldn't help it.

"Do you think we'll get in trouble for this?" Felix asked me

"I don't know. As long as nobody finds out, we're ok" I replied

We knew we weren't allowed to be outside after 21:30. It was way past that now. We'd probably be super tired tomorrow, but honestly it was worth it. I wanted to spend time with him, and this was great. We were actually somewhere else than our room for once.

"Thank you for being so nice to me" Felix said

I looked down trying to hide my blushing.

"No worries" I said

"Are we near the place?" He asked me

"Yeah, It's right behind those trees!" I pointed

We started walking a bit faster, almost parkouring around. My heart was racing. Hopefully he wouldn't be disappointed. I was nervous. What were we going to talk about? I'd probably end up making everything awkward..

When we finally passed the trees and got to the little cliff, we sat down

"Wow" he said as he looked around

"It's not much, I just figured If we were taking a walk we might as well end up somewhere decent" I said

I sat down pretty close to him. We weren't sitting exactly at the edge, but close enough. I would try to hide my blushing, but it was dark enough to be hidden already.

"Look up" Felix said with his head facing towards the sky.

Wow

The sky was filled with stars.

It was beautiful, and our view was perfect. I was cold as fuck, but that didn't bother me, cause wow.

I looked over at Felix, and he looked back at me. We both looked away quickly.

He lied down on his back, looking up so he could watch the stars.

I hesitated if I should do the same, but I did. I lied down as well. I didn't notice how close we were laying until I turned my head, but I decided to stay cause I'd look dumb scooching away from him.

We both looked up at the stars. I kept wondering if he still had feelings for me. Just imagining it made me feel all bubbly. Sure, he's been pretty mad at me, but I think he's over it. Hopefully there are still some feelings there.

"Do you see those three stars in a line?" Felix pointed -"that's Orion's Belt"

"I see it" I said

"And that one over there" he pointed -thats the Big Dipper"

I tried looking for it, but I couldn't find it.

"I can't find it" I said

"Over there!" Felix said, pointing once again.

"Huh?" I mumbled

That's when he came even closer to me, and lifted my hand. Pointing it in the right direction. My breath stopped.

"Look" he said, desperately trying to get me to find it.

No part of me was focusing on the stars.

He was laying so close to me that I could feel the warmth of his body touching me. His hand just lifting mine. I probably looked like an idiot all flustered.

"You see it right?" He said

"I- yeah" I muttered

He let go of my hand, but didn't move away from me.

We stayed looking up at the stars a short while. All I could think about was him, and the setting we were in at the moment.

Friends don't normally lay this close, looking up at the stars right? That's the type of shit I read in romantic books..

"What's the time?" I asked him

He looked at his watch. "It's 11:50 pm"