I heard a knock on the door.

I froze. I couldn't move nor say anything.

It was most likely my dad. My mom wouldn't have the balls to talk to me. He was probably going to tell me that i a disappointment and that I should take back everything I said.

The knocking went on for a while until the doorknob started moving. I knew my door was locked, but i still felt my heart beating faster than ever. Eventually I would have to open the door. I couldn't stay in my room the rest of my life.

"Felix" I heard coming from outside my door.

It was indeed my dads voice. I didn't answer him or get up from my bed.

"Felix, Please open the door." He said calmly

Is he just pretending to be calm? Or is he actually being nice. Maybe he was accepting me..?

I got up from bed and looked over at the key. My hand went towards it, and I slowly unlocked the door.

I quickly walked back to my bed before my dad could open it. I was scared to look him in the eyes. I laid down and covered myself with my blanket. I was so scared I could probably piss myself any moment.

I was a dumb, scared boy who hid from his dad, covering himself with a stupid little blanket.

I always hid under my blanket when I was a child. Right now I feel like little Felix again. I couldn't help but cringe over myself.

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"Hey Felix, let's talk about what happened downstairs." My dad said as he took a seat on the other side of my bed.

"What"

"I have to ask you one thing first. Are you sure- He paused mid scentence.

-about what you said?"

"Mhm" I mumbled

He sighed

"Me and your mother had a talk downstairs about what we should do"

He sounded weirdly calm

-and we agreed on sending you to a Christian bible camp"

"What?"

"Your mother and i cannot have a gay son in our household. We will be sending you to a bible camp where you'll learn how to truly love god. You will be sent off in two days." My dad said.

I had so many thoughts rumbling inside my head. Bible camp? In only two days? Are there other people like me there?

Though I didn't believe that I could change my sexuality, it was worth a shot right? I loved my parents more than anything, and i wanted to be their perfect angel boy. What if I actually managed to turn straight.

«Ok» I replied

He sat still for a couple seconds until he finally stood up. I looked at him with my puffy, red face waiting for him to leave. He said one last thing before he left;

«It's important that you don't tell anyone, and I mean ANYONE about why you went there. If somebody asks you, tell them you're there only to get closer to god."

I nodded, and he left.

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Are gay people not allowed in the camp? How long do I have to stay there? Will I successfully turn straight? I needed more information. Where even was this camp at..

I called Jisung.

"Dad told me he's sending me off to a 'Christian bible camp' in two days" I explained

"What? Why?"

"He believes that sending me there will turn me straight."

"Bullshit"

"It's worth a try tho"

The rest of the day I stayed in my room playing minecraft. I didn't come for dinner, and I didn't talk to either of my parents. All I ate was an old snickers bar that had been in my drawer for god knows how long.

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I woke up at 9am. I was kinda scared to get up from bed. I heard my parents making breakfast. I wonder if they're making enough for me too. Do they expect me to eat with them? My mom is probably not over what happened yesterday.

I got dressed and started walking down the stairs. I went slowly and carefully, not making much noise.

I heard them whisper-talking about something.

"What if it doesn't work.."

"He will learn his lesson, and come home as a normal, straight man"

"I can't believe we had a gay son in our house for that long"

"he can't be gay right? No.. that's so wrong.."

The talking went on for a while until I cleared my throat loud enough for them to hear.

Both of them turned their heads towards me quickly. They didn't smile, but they didn't look exactly mad either.

I walked towards the table

"Can I sit?" I asked them

They looked at eachother

"Yes, sit down." My dad replied

"We need to talk about the camp you're attending tomorrow"