Backstory

Felix grew up in a Christian household. His parents were always true to god, and they could never imagine having an atheist son. Felix had always been their little angel-boy who never did anything wrong. He came home with top grades, and prayed to god every single morning.

He always did as his parents told him to, and developed a great relationship with them. You could say they were a perfectly healthy family.

-Though, one day, his parents caught him smoking with some of his friends. They felt absolutely heartbroken from the sight, and poor Felix promised to never do such things again.

But his grades became worse. He came home smelling like weed every other day, and one time he was caught making weed-infused brownies for his friend Wooyoung.

His parents felt like they had raised a sinner. Their biggest nightmare was now real life.

Felix kept contributing in these 'small sins' until his parents finally told him that they've had enough. They homeschooled him, and practically forced him to read the Bible every single day.

He was allowed a phone, and a gaming setup. That was it.

If he wasn't reading the Bible or doing chores he would usually be playing minecraft with his old schoolmate Han jisung. He was Felix's only close friend, and the one person who knew his big secret.

-That he was gay

Homosexuality was considered a big

no-no in the Lee family. Even though they didn't talk about the subject very often, Felix knew that if he told his parents they'd be super disappointed in him. And so he kept it a secret from them as long as he could.

He went on day by day reading the bible, doing chores, and playing Minecraft. His life turned into some kind of loop. Him and Jisung called eachother on discord every day only to talk about the most random stuff. Everything from why bananas tasted better with the skin, to how much butter you should use when making pancakes. They never took anything serious, and they hadn't had one serious talk since the whole "weed brownie" situation.

They've been friends since first grade, and had a brother like relationship between them.

One day, after a generous amount of thinking, Felix decided to ask his good friend about something he'd been considering for a while. The big question. -If he should tell his parents about his sexuality or not

He had contemplated it for a long time, and he always came to the conclusion that he shouldn't tell them. Come on, it'd ruin their relationship even more. What if he was kicked out? So many things could go wrong.

But he kept on thinking about it.

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Felix turned his pc on and logged onto discord to call Jisung.

"Yoo, that's going to get you kicked out for life bro" Jisung said after hearing about Felix's idea.

"Yeah I know, but I can't keep hiding it from them man. What if I end up dating, or even marrying a dude." Felix replied

"Listen, it's up to you if you want to tell them or not. I'll be here for you whatever happens. Just be careful." Jisung said

"Thanks man, I'm gonna think about it."

"You know what they say, sinners are winners"

"Who tf said that?"

"Freestyled it"

Felix let out a little giggle. He knew he had Jisung by his side no matter what. Jisung's parents were cool too.

"You know what, fuck it. I'm telling them tomorrow" He said before ending the call.

Felix's POV:

I woke up feeling exhausted. I had stayed up pretty much the whole night thinking about how I should confess. I knew today was the day.

I got up from bed and started stretching my body. I could smell breakfast coming from downstairs. I recognized what it was immediately. Pancakes with eggs and bacon.

I loved waking up to the smell of bacon. It always gave me a little boost of motivation for the day.

I jumped out of bed and walked to the bathroom. I turned the shower on, and let it run till it reached just the perfect temperature.

I got my waterproof earbuds that I always used when showering, and turned the song on. 'Why'd you only call me when your high' by Arctic Monkeys. -in hopes for a little confidence boost of course. That's what I needed.

Sadly, I couldn't really control my thoughts when showering. Even with such an amazing and sexy song playing, all I could think about was how my parents would react.

I had a feeling that they might've had some suspicion about it after I started wearing makeup.

You know, most guys my age wore

makeup when going out. It was a normal thing where I lived. The thing is, I had a more feminine looking makeup style. I wore lip tint, eyeliner and eyeshadow which most boys my age didn't.

The thought of my parents already knowing somehow made me feel more confident with telling them. If they already knew, they wouldn't be mad right? Or at least, not as mad.

I slung on a hoodie and a pair of jeans. I skipped the makeup part, and ended up just brushing my hair instead. I picked my phone up, and started texting Jisung.

Thick._.boy._.Felix

Sent 10:23

Quokka.swag.jisung

Sent 10:25

Thick._.boy._.Felix

Sent 10:25

Quakka.swag.jisung

💀

Sent 10:25

Thick._.boy._.Felix

Sent 10:26

Quakka.swag.jisung

Sent 10:26

Thick._.boy._.Felix

Sent 10:28

I threw my phone back onto the bed, and started my walk downstairs. My heart was beating unbelievably fast.

"Felix! Good morning sunshine!" My dad exclaimed with a huge smile on his face.

I smiled back.

"Good morning father, and good morning mother." I said, making sure to lift the mood up a little.

"Have a seat, the pancakes are still hot." My mother said.

I sat down next to them and started buttering up my pancake. My hands were shaking.

"Why are you shaking Felix? Are you sick?" My mom asked me all concerned.

I looked at her and dad. Seeing how they cared for me made me feel sad. The thought that I was going to ruin their smiles in a couple minutes hurt really bad. My heart was pounding, but I had to do it. Now or never.

"We need to have a serious talk" i said