Recap:

Is he bored and fed up with me?

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I shrug my thoughts and walk to the shelves, not sparing a glance at his figure. I climb the small stool near the shelves. Of course, I am short and can't reach the upper row. Also, I don't want him to come from behind and help me without me knowing... I should stop watching dramas.

I sigh and focus on choosing the books rather than daydreaming. My eyes look around the row and pick a few books. My eyes shift to the direction where Jungkook is because he stands up, making a clear and loud sound of moving chair.

He walks towards the shelves near me. I start to feel nervous as he stands next to me. My guts clenched. I have Goosebumps because of nervousness. "Do you need help?" He notices me standing on the stool, still holding some books. I move my head in his direction and already feel my heart racing.

"Huh... Uhm... Uh, no thanks," I am flustered by his sudden offer. I move and feel my knees getting numb with my hands getting colder. I stumble on the stool and shut my eyes as a sign of my reflexes. I swear if I'm in Jungkook's hands, then I will kill myself. Please, god, for once, let me fall on the ground. It would be less awkward.

I open my eyes slowly, hoping he isn't carrying me, but me, my life, and god sit very far away from each other. He is looking down into my eyes while carrying me. "Are you okay?" He asks with a worried expression.

I immediately get away from his grip and straighten myself. "Yeah," I stutter it out. I look at him, who is looking down at me with soft eyes making my heart go crazy. "Uhm, is the deal still on? Or can I leave?" His eyes' shape from natural changed to a little wide. He is shocked at my question, but I can't handle the silence anymore. It is peaceful but too peaceful. "Is it?" I ask for the last time, and he just nods while looking away. I keep the books in the empty space and stand near his figure.

I hesitate a little but grab his shoulder. His head turns to me, and I pull myself up to connect our lips together. He is startled a bit but eventually holds my waist to pull me closer, deepening the kiss. I feel a rush of the adrenal gland, and there is excitement in my body heating it up. His lips are softly against mine as he tilts his head to trap my lips between his. I have my arms around his neck firmly, trying to be obvious and pulling him in.

Finally, we pull away with our forehead attached, breathing heavily to catch up with the normal rhythm. I move back. "Can I leave after my exams are over?" Please, say no and kiss me. Please. He just nods and walks away without saying anything. He did not even try to stop me. I hate him for making me fall in love with him.

I just walk back to the room where I was studying to continue my work. Exams are more important than these stupid and useless feelings. But how hard I try, I could only feel hurt and empty. He is letting me go, shouldn't I be happy? But I love him, I admit it.

A few weeks later

"Pens down," I did what the invigilator commands. Finally, my exams are over, and I am free from all those panic attacks a few minutes before sitting down for the exams. "You all may leave," I stand up with cold hands. I was really nervous about my exams.

"Hey, wait up," I look back and see Minjun running to catch up with me. "How was the exam?"

"I don't care right now. Those are done and gone," I chuckle with him and walked to the exit. "Jinsu?" I ask as we didn't meet up even after reaching the exit.

"Ditched me," He rolls his eyes while talking about it. "She went on a date right after the exam. She could have met me before leaving," He nags while I just laugh at his childish behavior.

"So sad, huh?" He nods and pouts. "Aww, she ditched a cutie," He straightens up like he was offended by it.

"No, not cutie," He moves his finger from left to right. "Handsome will work," We both break into laughter. "By the way, you going to the party?" I frown at his question. "Oh come one, exams are over, all tension is gone. So party at Sungchan's?" He cheers up, and I nod but suddenly stop. Today I will leave Jungkook, the day I waited for a long initially, but I didn't want it to come this early. "What happened?"

"Uhm, I'm sorry, I need to go somewhere really important," I run off without listening to anything from him. I don't know if this is the correct approach, but I will take a chance. "Sorry, Joon, gonna take her for a while," I breathe out and pull Hyuna somewhere empty.

"Hana, what happened?" We finally stop and pant because of the run. "Hana?"

"Okay, listen to me closely without saying anything in between. Also, please help me rather than screaming at me," Hyuna frowns, and I start my tale of "Jungkook and Hana" from the day of the contract. I told her everything, not leaving a single detail. "And today, I will be leaving. What should I do?"

She is staring at me with wide eyes and a gaping mouth, not saying anything. I move her figure a bit, and she starts to scream, "YOU ARE TELLING ME THIS NOW?"

"I am sorry, I must be out of my mind," I confess and join my hand in front of her to ask for some help. "Don't be silent now," I whine a little and approach her.

"You love him?" She asks, trying to signal me to say no, but I nod. "He loves you too," She states.

"No, he doesn't."

"I am telling you," I bite my lip and focusing on her. "Jungkook could have forced you but didn't. He has a soft spot for you Hana, he may deny that he doesn't, but he has, or else he would've thrown you out the next moment you kissed him. Also, why the fuck you kissed him knowing you will leave him."

"Because I can't live with him avoiding me," I sigh, feeling irritated by everything now. "I thought maybe... Just maybe he will stop me and kiss me back," It will be better if we stay away from each other. He will live his life without caring about me.

"I should leave. I will move on, right?"

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Mother said:

I am speechless.

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