little angsty (not little)

overthinker robin

-sh mentions

-modern au

sorry for bad updating :(

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robins pov

"finney" i say over the phone

"robin" he replies.

"i think i'm ready to be your boyfriend."

"like not just "we are talking"." i mumbled a bit, but it must have been loud enough.

"robin, are you joking?" i here him say in a worrying tone.

"no no what, why would i joke about that finney"

"robin i-"

"you don't have to say, i understand" i say quickly , then laying flat on my back.

i can hear his breathing through my speaker.

* beep beep *

he hung up , i repeat in my mind.

he must hate me now

finney doesn't like me

accept it.

my mind felt like a whirl wind.

why did i do that. why the fuck would i do that.

when finney called me i felt happiness , when he called me i wanted him, when he called me baby i fell more for him.

was he playing with my emotions?

that made me think about all the past moments i had with him.

i knew something was off. maybe he was seeing someone else? was he just not ready for that step ?

JESUS.

my thoughts wouldn't stop.

i haven't had my head this full since my sh relapse.

the unscrewed blade for the blue see through pencil sharpener , the red to light red ,white to red.

my mom yelling as she saw my thighs red.

the blue gown.

fuck. finney to hospital ?

an

sorry i'm so lazzyyxzyzyzyy part 2 tmr💆🏻‍♀️