TW for; talk of depression, suicide, and meds. I'm sorry, but Finn's mental health needs to be more talked about. 

Hi!!!

ios needs an anti-gay flag istg

Ik, i cannot keep doing this.

>:(

eleven eleven make a wish!!1!1!!

kys

:o

I love going to college on a cross-country scholarship

You play cross country??

Me and Robin literally met at the gym'

Oh. That makes sense tbh, you do have some muscle

I thought it was from carrying the weight of being the stereo-typical gay friend

Literally burn-in hell

Finn sometimes wonders if Robins only there because of pity, or because Finn's desired amongst their prior peers. Or even just because of the little intercourse they have. Finn would do anything to make Robin happy, and vice verse.

And Robin even makes sure Finn always gets what he wants, which in hind sight should've been a hint at what Finn would ask for. The five simple words spoken are proof that Robin should've paid more attention.

"I don't wanna exist anymore." softly spoken, into the quiet air. By none other than Finney Blake, who always was littered with bruises and cuts, assumed to be done by bullies but came from his own home. By someone he used to love.

Robin should've taken up on it when Finn started giving Griffin and Donna his old clothes, but he just didn't. And that isn't even his fault, Finn apparently hadn't been going to his court-ordered therapy sessions. Just disappeared when the session were supposedly happening, and he was none-the-wiser to Finn's depleting mental health.

And they were moving to California in august so it's a little late to start getting him on meds and back in therapy. He knows they at least have to find medicines that'll work for Finn, and he's happy to help. His main concern is Finn not being able to corporate.

"I promise I'll be there, every step of the way." Robin promises, not sure if Finn hears him till Finn starts crying. "I'm scared I'll run out of steps." Finn states, to anyone around them he's sure he'd look crazy but to Robin he gets it. Not in every form of the word, but as much as he could.

"Finn, I wanna say I get it, but I don't. And I'll help as much as I can, but you have to at least tell me you'll try." Robin says, grabbing ahold of Finn's hand and rubbing his thumb absentmindly. Finn wants to protest, say he can't say that, but he agrees through a raspy voice from crying and burning eyes.

Robin knows it's barely even a half-truth, but he'll take it. He knows it's at least a little selfish to ask Finn to stay through his misery, but Finn wanting to cease his own existence is a permanent solution to a temporary issue.

Robin can deal with being selfish. He wouldn't be able to deal with Finn being buried somewhere or finding his body. Just the idea makes his eyes burn with tears that he won't let fall.

"Wanna head home?" Robin asks, steadying his own voice. "Yeah." Finn replies, offering a small smile as Robin helps him stand.

"I'm sorry." Finn says when Robin's unlocking the door. "What, why?" "Jus-just I'm sorry I stopped taking my meds and stopped going to therapy. I just felt so- like- like I was the common denominator in all of my problems." Finn admits, sighing afterward. His plan was to start running after saying I'm sorry while Robin has his key in the lock, giving him at least four seconds as a head start, but Robin ran track in freshman and sophomore year so it'd probably end up being useless.

If he was actually going to do any damage to himself, he wouldn't of told Robin. And let him have that on his conscious, but he wants help. He wants to reach out and get help, he just had to take that step. It's stupid, but just Robin telling him he'd be there for every step of the way made the negative thoughts stop for less than half a second.

And now that he got that, he wants more, he wants to feel like that as much as he can. He loves Robin deeply, if he didn't he wouldn't of told him, and Robin knows that. He may not understand why Robin's staying with him, but he guesses he can stay too if it means Robin will.

Robin didn't sleep that night, opting for sitting in his desk chair and searching for the first office that opens tomorrow to get Finn's prescription updated. He meant it when he said he'd be there every step of the way. He won't be leaving Finn's side unless he has to, he's worried Finn'll think he's selfish for 'making' Robin always be with him. But Robin really doesn't care right now, he just wants Finn to be okay and at least content with life.

Even if it wouldn't be with him. He knows Finn always gets what he wants in this stage of his life, but if what he wanted was to die? Then he wouldn't be getting it. And it's selfish, Robin knows that.

Bro I fucking hate waking up early its summer why we up

You mentally ill or smth?

Yeah bro anxiety

Aw :( I'm sorry, I hope you get good meds this time that help well!!

Bro me too

"Do I have to eat these?" Finn asks in the car once he got his prescription. "Uh, yeah?" Robin replies, starting the car back up. "But like they don't look very good," Finn says, looking at the little orange bottle that holds a month's worth of medicine. "I don't think the point of them is to taste good," Robin says, starting to pull out of the parking lot. 

This was written for Don't say it, but is not very fitting for the direction the book has taken, so.