I'd always liked Vance but I was never his type. He liked girls that were way better than me. Hot.

He always had a girl in his arms, kissing him or blowing him. I would know, I walked in on it once, literally traumatised

Today though... today I saw something unexplainable. I saw Vance hopper, vulnerable. He always has this guard up, no one ever saw past it. Not even his girlfriends

I was sent to look for him after he skipped chemistry

Y/n- Vance?

I walked into the gym. He sat there on one of the benches. Tears very clearly steaming down his cheeks. I thought about running out.

As I walked back to the door he called out my name

Vance- y/n?

I didn't even think he knew my name

Y/n- eh yeah, ms power is looking for you

Vance- fuck her

Y/n- I'll just tell her I couldn't find you

Vance- stay

Y/n- are you sure? You look like you want to be alone right now?

Vance- don't fucking tell me what I want

Y/n- sorry

What did he want? I walked up to him, sitting next to him making sure to keep a distance

Vance- I'm not gonna bite, you can come closer

Y/n- yeah, right sorry

I moved closer, scared

Vance- how come I've never seen you

Y/n- we have chemistry together, we're partners

Vance- no not literally see you dipshit, I mean why have I never seen you out, at parties and stuff

Y/n- im not into that stuff, plus I have to tutor robin arellano most nights, if he fails math one more time he's out

His jaw clenched when robins name rolled off my tongue

Vance- right, your a nerd then?

Y/n- that's one way to put it

Vance- you want to tutor me?

Y/n- don't tell me what I want

Vance - oh good, your catching on quick

I smiled

Vance- how about you help me with school and I'll help you with being popular

Y/n- so you tutor me in social skills?

Vance- yeah

Y/n- em I don't know

Vance- come on, you could use it

He was right. I wrote down my address for him

Y/n- swing by tonight, late though

At 11pm vance finally arrived. We spent an hour doing English homework

Vance- ok now you've done your but, I'll do mine. Do you know how to blow someone

Y/n- what!? I thought we were doing social skills?

Vance- we are, you need to practice

I got scared. Practice on what? Him?

Vance- do you have like bananas or something

Y/n- yeah

I grabbed a banana from the kitchen and then went back to him

Y/n- what's this for

Vance- to practice

I let a sigh of relief but I was also still scared

Vance- you really thought I'd let some girl I just met blow me? Maybe after we see how good you are

Y/n- or maybe never

Vance- you know you want to

Y/n- no, I don't want to do this anymore, just leave

Vance- will you still tutor me

Y/n- yes but just go

Vance- sorry, I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable

Y/n- no it's not you, I mean it is but- oh god just go

Vance- see ya round hot stuff

With that he left. I climbed into bed. My heart pounding. What just happened. That was the most awkward experience of my life. Maybe some day I'd do it but definitely not today and definitely not with Vance hopper