I regret it.

I regret what I told her lastly 'cause maybe life was finally going good for her after all and I had to be the selfish bitch and ruin it. She might be feeling anguished or is she blaming herself?

"Damien?" I whispered softly to see whether he is asleep or not.

"Hmm" he mumbles against my shoulder and his hold around my waist tighten. I let out a sigh and lied flat on the bed, causing him to move. Damien jerks his head up and steadied himself on his elbow, looking down at me in confusion.

"What's wrong?" he asked, tucking a strand of my hair behind my ear. The moonlight was the only glow in the darkroom, which gave me a clear view of his face. A sleepy face may I add with his messy bed hair.

"I said something to my mom, which probably made her hurt," I tell him hoping that he would not ask what it was and surprisingly he did not.

"But I swear I didn't mean to" I explain the guilt I am feeling.

"Maybe she deserves to feel an ounce of hurt she put you through," he says and I shook my head disagreeing. "No one deserves to go through such pain" I speak the truth.

"You are way too selfless for your own good, Lia," he says and plants a kiss on my forehead before lifting my T-shirt up to the end of my breasts, revealing my toned stomach. He places his head on top of my tummy and a soft laugh escaped my mouth.

"You're sleepy arent you?" I asked burying my fingers in his dark hair.

"Nope," he says giving a gentle kiss on my stomach.

"Are you okay?" Damien asked lifting his head. I nod my head with a small smile.

"Can't sleep but I will be okay as long as you lie down like that," I tell and a smile flashed on his face. Talk about lovesick teenagers.

"Oh yeah?"

"Yeah." He smirks and rested his head back down and I close my eyes, waiting for sleep to take over. But, my eyes shot back open when his fingers twirled around the string of my shorts, way too close to my aching pussy. I sure as hell won't fall asleep with this sudden urge of horniness.

"Damien, what are you doing?"

"Shh close your eyes" he whispered and I sink back down on the bed closing my eyes. I couldn't keep my thoughts in place when his thumb brushed over my belly button and his hand slipping under the waistband of my shorts. I suck in a breath when he caressed my clit and my legs automatically part. His fingers rubbed up and down my folds and I bit my lip holding back a moan. I tug his hair, my fingers digging into his scalp as he slides two fingers into my core. My chest heaves up and down when he pumps his fingers in and out and his thumb massaging my clit, heightening the pleasure.

"Damien" I moaned and he lets out a grunt. He places kisses on my stomach, lifting his body from the bed and kneeling in between my bent knees. My hands flew to grip the bed frame as my chest pounds against my rib cage, reaching closer and closer to my climax.

"Don't cum" he says, removing his fingers out of me, making me feel empty. Damien slides my shorts off my body, revealing my naked pussy.

"Fucking beautiful" he whispered against my lower abdomen and leaving chaste kisses down to my core. His tongue slides up the slit, licking off the wetness and his teeth softly bite into my bundle of nerves and gasp escapes. He sucks my clit as his fingers re-enter into my core. Ecstacy filled my veins as his tongue and fingers work my pussy. I curled my toes and threw my head back as he grips my thigh flinging my legs over his shoulder. Damien's tongue strokes in and out of my pussy and my chest heaves up, my nipples perking under the cotton T-shirt. Sweat beads down the side of my temple.

I was so close to my orgasm and my body aching for release. He moans against my pussy and good lord for that I cum undone, my fluid spilling into his mouth and licks off all my cum hungrily. I unhook my legs around his neck and they dropped limply to the bed. Damien lifts his head from in between my legs, cum smothered on his lips. I pulled him down and placed my lips on his, tasting the residues of my own cum in his mouth.

"Hope that will make you fall asleep" he whispered against my mouth.

"It sure will. What about you?" I asked and he smirked down at me before bringing the duvet over us and his hands slide my T-shirt over my head, revealing my bare breasts. He nuzzled his head over my chest and his hand wrap around my torso. His naked chest pressed against mine.

"Good night, gorgeous" he mumbled with a small kiss on my chest.

"Good night," I tell, closing my eyes and darkness took over.

***

"Students please complete your assignments by next week," Mrs Bloom said concluding the class just as the bell rang. I swear this woman has a third sense or something. Surprisingly I did concentrate on the full lesson today despite the taunting gaze at the side of my face by some grey-eyed boy. I tried not to look at him at all because if I did that is all I would do, just mesmerize his face. Damien dropped some random notes at my table to cut me out of my concentration but terribly failed, no matter what the note read. 'You look very fuckable right now,' being one and 'I bet Mrs Bloom wouldn't mind me bending you over that little desk and show the whole class how I fuck you to oblivion,' note which made my eyes bulge and choke on my own spit.

I put all the notes in my bag along with the textbooks and stand up from my seat while other students storm out of the classroom.

"Baby you are no fun," Damien said standing in front of me and I ran my eyes over his usual attire but man it gets hotter each and every day. His crisp white T-shirt hugged his well-defined body in all the right places, showing a few of his tattoos. A black denim Jacket covering his arms and black ripped jeans which did no help in covering the erection causing inside his boxers as my eyes lingers over his body. I let out a small laugh at his irritation and hung the strap of the back over my shoulder.

I give a small kiss on his cheek and walked out of the class with a smirk on my lips.

"Fuck you!" he yelled just as I reached the door. "You already did, baby," I said turning around my heel and walked out of the class until I felt a presence beside me.

"Oh hey Luke" I tell him and drew my eyebrows together as he gave me a wide toothy smile.

"What do you want?" I ask him and his wide smile drops to a pout.

"Nothing,I just missed you," he said keeping up with my pace, walking towards the school doors.

"We were never friends Luke," I tell him truthfully, kind of harsh I know but I never established friendship with him or anyone in that case. Of course excluding Em and Jennifer, yet again with both of them I don't feel like we just newly became friends instead it's like we were to be friends all along. That's a power of true friendship. I know I would've bolt at the sight of 'new friends' few months ago and I still stand by it but some things and some people are meant to happen and you have to accept it until eventually you grow with it and start loving them. Then you realise that's the best thing that had ever happened to you.

"Wow" he scoffed. "So suddenly you get a boyfriend and turn to a bitch?" He asked and I stopped in my tracks, turning towards him whilst cocking an eye brow at his statement.

"Well, news flash! Luke I was always a bitch" I snapped which made him mutter some in coherent words under his breath and I couldn't care less so I continue the journey towards my car.

"Oh, and don't let such light things get to your heart. The world is way more cruel, you wouldn't stand a day" I tell him as he caught up right beside me again. Teenage boys like him always want something and what could I possibly have to offer?

"Whatever. I just wanted to tell you that there's a party at my place. You'd want to come?"

"No I don't think so" my words spilt right through except it wasn't me who was speaking. I turn my head around to see Damien leaning against my car, arms and legs crossed. His black RayBan sunglasses resting on top of the bridge of his nose. Sometimes I wish he could be a little less attractive because of the bitches gawking and drooling over my man. Right now is the best example so I simply point my middle finger at them which they abruptly turn away. Yeah bitch, there's nothing to see out here.

"I'm not making conversations with him" Luke muttered for no one in particular and stormed away.

"Pussy" Damien hissed looking at Luke's departing figure.

"What are- " I stop my sentence as he pointed my car keys and I internally palm my face realising that I actually came to my car without getting the car keys. Stupid me.

"Yeah stupid you" he spoke my thoughts and at this point I am used to him conversing exactly what's going on in my head. Kind of creepy, I know.

"You should stop being so hot" I lean my head against his chest as he lifts his body from the car and place an arm over my shoulder.

"What do you want me to do? Smack my face with a shovel?" he asked and I lift my head looking up at him.

"Ha! That's a great idea" I joked and he brushed his knuckles over my cheek softly and I lean into the comforting touch. His touch.

"Drive safe" he spoke. Our mouths inches away and I crave his lips against mine.

"Like a turtle" I tell giving him his reassurance and my craving gratifies as his lips linger on mine. Devouring each other, his tongue slides against mine. My body was thrusted closer from his hand around my hip. I muffle a soft moan against our kiss as he bit my lower lip and let go to grasp some air.

"Good girl" Damien whispered before placing a kiss on my forehead and and opening my car door for me. I take the keys from his hand and get into the drivers seat.

"Call me when you get home?" I tell him and taking his nod as my answer I closed the door shut and actuated the car, driving towards my mom's house to meet up with Jerad.

I parked on the lawn and honked twice to let him know that I am here.

"You are awfully early," he addressed just as getting into the passenger seat and buckling his seat belt.

"No, you are awfully late my brother," I tell driving off.

"Well, you can't complain," he muttered. "What do you mean?"

"It's just- Nothing that concerns you," he said and increased the volume of the radio. Not likely little brother. I decrease back the volume and parked the car right at the side of the road, near the forest that leads to the lake. I motion for him to get out and switched off the engine, stepping outside. We walked through the forest, me leading the way towards the deck.

"This place it's- " he looked at the surrounding awestruck. Jared and I were always people of nature. We found peace in flowing water, beauty in blooming flowers and hope during dusk and dawn. This is one of the few things that we find common in each other, heightening our bond in the presence of nature. "Beautiful," I finished for him.

We take a seat at the edge of the deck, the cold breeze blowing my hair around, I grab the hair tie around my wrist and looped my hair in a low bun. "Everything about you concerns me Jare," I tell grabbing his attention which was presumably lost in the deep waters. He scoffed, "It's hard to believe that Rhea." I drop my head knowing exactly what he's upto.

"Trust me, aunt Riley gave you a better home there than me and mom ever could" he shook his head in disbelief. How could I possibly make him understand when I myself is trying to shove it all in the back of my head?

"I don't get why I can't just stay happy with my own family?"

"You don't want to know what life back here was" I tell him. If I were him, I'd want to know too but the burden of it, is way too much and later on you'd regret knowing. I don't want that for my little brother.

"How can you say that! It sucks not knowing and Iife back there wasn't all rainbows either," he snapped and I turned my head around to face him. "W- what do you mean?"

"I never belonged there" he admitted and it was my turn to shook my head in disbelief. "Bullshit!"

"Yes school was good and so was football but whenever I got home I couldn't help but wish that I was coming home to my actual family, you and mom," my heart ache at his statement and this is a moment where I utterly feel helpless. How can I convince him that coming to no family is way better than a shitty fucked up one? He should not see that darkside of mom. My brother will always know his mother as the sweet, caring wonder woman she was,

Period

"I'm so sorry Jare," I tell him. My heart skips a beat when he pushed me away, playfully and I grip the edge from falling to the freezing water. I was inches away from pushing him into the water but I was too busy at the homely feeling indulged in my heart when his laughter erupted and I couldn't help but laugh along. "I hate it when we get so soppy" he admits controlling his hysterical laughter and I agree. I lift my arms, embracing him in a hug and placing a kiss on his cheek and of course brother's been brother's, Jared wiggle himself away from my hold. "You stink."

"I do not!" I said and sniffed my hoodie, the comforting and heavenly smell pervaded through my nose and ecstacy filled my veins. I still can not grasp the fact that I will wake up and go to bed with this smell roaming around. The thought itself makes me squeal.

"You smell like a guy"

"So?" I questioned cocking an eyebrow at him. I was expecting a testive comment but instead a serious look shielded his face. "You really like him, don't you?" he asked and I myself couldn't decipher how much.

"I really really love him," I tell and his mien softened, nodding his head for himself and looked ahead at the dark trees we are surrounded by.

"He talked to me," Jared spoke after a moment of silence. "Yeah?"

"Yeah." I wanted to ask what they talked about considering Damien never mentioned about it at all. But I choose to stay put.

"You want to know?" He asked knowing me damn well. And I mutter a "Yes."

I walk out of the house right after mom came back in. I halt when I see Damien fucking Jones pulling up to our drive way and stepping out of his car. I hesitantly walk towards him when he acknowledged me. He had never done anything wrong towards me but because of him, my sister had gone through hell of pain. And that itself is enough for me to dislike him. I know I was small when it happened but the fear and the despair I felt towards my sister is fresh as the rising day.

And, yes something is clearly fucking wrong with mom and Rhea. Mom sounds okay I could say but Rhea... well she seems happy as fuck but there's a certain part in her that looks crestfallen. I might be the younger one but when it comes to Rhea I manage to know her in and out, sibling things I could say.

But, the reason for Rhea to feeling this way is Damien then in fact we have to talk. I am going to make shit right for her . I couldn't save her at first but I will now.

"We have to talk" as weird as it sounds both of us said it in unison. Damien leans against his car and so did I.

"Do you love her?" I asked and he chuckled, staring down at his feet.

"More than anyone will ever know," he admits and I nod in acceptance.

"You hurt her," I tell him even though he probably should know by now. He hurt her pretty fucking bad and how could anyone hurt the person you love? This is why I choose not to fall in love. That shit is just so fucked up and all for an aeon of misery to compete with a jiff of happiness? Yeah, no thanks.

"Fuck, I know and there's nothing I wouldn't do to undo it all. But I would live the rest of my life paying her for that" he said and I hated the feeling the feeling of relief. Could he possibly be the right one for her?

Will he be able to give my sister all the happiness she deserves? 'Cause Rhea deserves hell of a lot.

"I've seen my sister at her happiest and the most downcast state... a lot of times. It fucking hurts to see her that way and what's more irritating is that I am so helpless to take that pain away and give the happiness she deserves. A few days before Noah committed suicide I barely saw her, she locked herself in her room and multiple times I went to her door and brought my fist up to knock but I never did. That's the second most big mistake I did by her and I'd be devastated to let that happen again so, you better do right by her," I tell him, standing straight and crossing my arms.

"I will, I promise you that," he said and I gave him a thankful smile. I turned around to walk back into the house but was stopped by his question, "Do you by any chance know why she locked herself in her room?"

I wish I knew too.

"No, why'd you ask though?" I questioned out of curiosity.

"It's that she have told me about her past but I know there are things she's still hiding and is still bothering her."

"I really don't think that I know something, you don't," I tell. Rhea had become a very reserved person after Nathan. Yes, the person whom I saw her happiest moments and man, I hated that; not the part of Rhea been happy but the part where Nathan was the one who made her happy. He became a brother to her than any of us ever could, she trusted him and loved him which I couldn't help but be a little jealous because I did love my sister so much, it's just I didn't let her know that. But he did leave and it fucking broke her and since that day I though no one would ever be able to fix her pieces back together but I guess I was wrong.

"It doesn't feel right but I won't push her." I nod in agreement. "I'm gonna go inside" I tell him pointing my thumb towards the house. "Jared,"

"Yeah?"

"Tell her how much you love her"

"Okay"

"Tell me" I asked when he just laughed. "You would've just asked me at first you know"

"Yeah, okay now tell me"

"Nothing much. Now, I kind of like him" he states and I could say I was slightly taken aback. "You do?"

"Yeah. Looks we have more in common than we thought" he said muttering the last bit so I choose not to question it further. I nod whispering a 'good' and looked right ahead at the waters. I could feel Jared's stare at the side of my face as he tried to say something.

"Rhea?"

"Yeah" I said still looking ahead my thoughts way too indulged in the swaying trees.

"I love you" he said and I jerk my head around. A wide smile edged on my face. "I love you too, Jare" I tell him.

"No, Rhea I love you so so much and I don't know what I would do without you."