A/N- THERE WILL BE A NOTE ON WHEN TO PLAY THE SONG.

I just finished my last period of the day and school was now over. I would go to the rink to skate but I got to admit skating by yourself is no fun. So I decided to visit the library. Maybe I could borrow some books, at least reading could be a healthy way to keep my mind off things.

As I was walking to my car I heard footsteps running towards me. Oh, joy! this day couldn't get any better. Note the sarcasm.

"What do you want mason?"

"Why do you always think that people want something when they talk to you?"

"Because people always want something. And I'm speaking with experience". I remember in my old school I was trying so hard to make friends but the only reason they talked to me was that I was Noah's sister and they wanted his phone number but little did they know he was gay. And when I tell the truth, they all vanish as if we never talked. So yeah the only few friends I ever had and didn't expect anything in return ended up leaving to move on with their lives and I was led back to square one. Sometimes I wonder whether I have avoidant personality disorder since I fear abandonment so much.

"Yeah, true I actually do want something", and I love how no one proves me wrong.

"Oh, I'm sorry I didn't know we were on 'asking each other for favours' basis," I tell as I reached my car door.

"Come on Rhea. Please, I just want you to talk"

"Everything comes with a price so what is it?"

"I want you to talk to your mother and tell her to talk to my father on sending me to Luke's party," He asked.

"Aren't you turning eighteen and you still need to ask permission?"

"not really, but I have to since I'm grounded"

"Fine, you are not going to drink and you are dropping me home"

"Deal". I give him a not so nice smile, got into my car and drove to the library.

***

I borrow a copy of pride and prejudice even though I've read it before.

When I was ten I found my love for reading and when I asked for books as my birthday gift my father always brushed it off and bought me something else. I never asked why because I was so very scared of him. My father told, that the only thing I need to pay attention to was school and nothing else. so reading was strictly prohibited in our house and as to my younger brother Jared, he loved football so much. So much that he pasted posters of world-famous football players inside his cupboard so that no one would see them. My father was a big believer that extracurricular activities is a waste of time. But, as for Noah, it was a completely different scenario. He was given every single thing he ever wanted. He had his freedom and he was loved not only by my parents but with everyone and that's why he never told them that he was gay because he was too afraid that he'd loose what he has and his siblings doesn't.

I take the book and head back home. And, then I remembered that I had to talk to my mother. With that thought I walk inside hoping that she's not drunk.

"Hey mom" I asked as she was just lying down the couch.

"Rheaaaa you are homeee", yup she's drunk. Atleast I hope she's in a good mood drunk.

"Yes, can I ask you a favor?" I asked sitting in front of her on the coffee table.

"Tell me what is it honey?" woah woah woah. Hold on. She is in a good mood drunk but never this good. But, it felt so nice to hear her be sweet to me even though it's some drunk words.

"Um, John have grounded Mason and there's a party so can you talk to him and tell John to let him go?"

"Oh, that poor boy. Yes, I will talk to him but can you do me a favor too." I guess this is how I got my quality of doing nothing for free.

"What is it mom?"

"Can you be a sweetheart and get me some more marijuana" she slurred. Of course I could get her that but what child brings drugs to their own parent.

"I'll see"

"Thank you sweety". I stood up and walked up the stairs tears forming in my eyes. I couldn't do anything but blame myself for her behaviour. It hurts to see this drastic change in her. She used to be someone loving, caring, sensitive and she used to be my best friend. Me and my mother we were so alike but the only difference was she wasn't a people person but she pretended to be as me on the other hand was a people person I loved people, I loved making friends and I was out giving but now it has all changed.

I close my door and drop to the floor leaning against the door. I pulled my knees to my chest and cry hugging it. I just want to rewind three years back so that I could tell Damien how I felt before he left, so that I would've never gone to that party, so that I would've never loaded that gun, so that I never turned towards drugs and alcohol, so that I never took my little sister to watch the fucking fireworks and everything would've been perfectly fine. And, this is why I cant allow myself to be happy, this is why I cant make peace with my past. I could never do that knowing my life, my family and my whole world is completely broken and how can you fix something when there are pieces gone missing forever? you can't.

I just sit down there and now my tears have dried out. I take some time to re collect myself. "its okay Rhea you just have to keep breathing", I told myself.

It was almost eight as I spent most of my time in the library. I go to my closet and grabbed some black jeans and a crop top. I took a bath and let and let my curls do their thing without ironing as I do most of the time. I got my car keys and head out to luke's party.

So our motive to go to this party is to drink; my pain, anger and jealousy away. Now, it wont be that hard. I got out of my car and walked into his house. It wasn't big as other houses but it wasn't small either. I walked in and the place was filled with teenagers. There was a back garden and then I noticed why people told he throws one of the best parties, there were around three to four kegs which is pretty hard to find these days. I go where the drinks are and grabbed an un opened bottle of vodka.

"Hey Rhe, didn't know you'd make it?" luke asked making a drink for himself.

"free alcohol of course i'd be here" I told drinking the vodka straight out of the bottle.

"Dont you wanna be a lady and grab a cup" he said handing a red cup filled with some drink. And from experience I know better than to accept any drink from anyone.

"No thanks. Straight out of the bottle is actually a vibe" I tell.

"you know Rhea, that day you threw aa whole fit in the cafeteria i thought you were a freak"

"What changed your mind? but I'm still a freak" I say with a smirk.

"I think you are a super cool freak"

"Just because I had sex with your buddy with no strings attached does not make me cool" I give him a sarcastic smile, patting his shoulder and walk away.

Half way through the bottle my vision slightly started bluring out. I walk back to the backyard and I was wrong this house is not that small especially when it has a massive back yard. There were some people surounding a table playing beer pong so I thought why not give it a shot.

"Count me in for this round" I tell and placed the vodka on the grass. I looked up at the sky and I don't whether Its because i'm drunk but there's a full moon and the sky was filled with stars like it was so bright. I used to be a big fan of the night sky when I was small now I barely even look at it. When I looked back at the house I saw those beautiful grey eyes that have fallen head over heels and that dark brown messy hair, I would die to run my hands through them. He looked at me and I drop my stare when Jennifer appeared next to him up in the balcony. This bitch had to be everywhere doesn't she.

"Rhea, you don't have play this game" Jason said coming up beside me.

"Why not it's just beer pong" I told him as I stand near the end of the table.

"Not the way we play it babe" the boy across me said.

"What do you mean?"

"We improvised it. You see there are cups which say strip right so if I put the ball in one of those you could either strip and keep the cup or keep your clothes and loose the cup." he said smirking at me.

"Great! this is fun" I say and take my first shot. Yes! as the pro I am I make it to a strip cup and believe it or not he removed his t-shirt.

after a couple of rounds I was left with one strip cup and one drink cup in just my jeans and my bra. On the other end he was just left with one strip cup and nothing but his boxers. I can say that I am winning this.

He take his shot and throws the ball into a strip cup and me being me always wanting to win with a lead I contemplate on whether I should keep my cup or not. Just as I was about to unbutton my jeans someone grabbed my arm stopping me.

"Rhea, don't you dare do this" Damien said standing right in front of me. His face was very clear as if my blurred vision didn't want me to not see his gorgeous face. But, I draw back to the reality and took my hand away from his hold.

"Rhea, Stop!" he said loudly.

"Come on man it's just a game and everyone here would love a show. Plus let the girl win" my opposing boy said and Damien pushed me back and took my place on the end of the table with one of his hands gripping my wrist. He take the ball from my cup and drank the beer. He takes my shot and throws the ball right into his cup. Just as when Damien turned around to face me, someone crept their hand behind me grabbing my boobs. Damien pulled me behind him and punched the boy in the face without even thinking for a second, he wasn't even able to fight back as he just dropped to the ground. I couldn't see much but everyone gasped when there was a snapping sound. I think Damien broke the boy's hand. I pulled him from his arm so that he would just get off of the boy. But he didn't.

"Damien!" I yelled and surprisingly he did stop. He looked at the people who was gathered around watching the whole scene with horror and then I guess he noticed that I was still topless so bent down taking my top from the floor and took my hand in his and walked back inside away from the people.

"You broke his hand?" I ask as he was just pulling up the stairs and into a bathroom. He locked the door behind him and looked at me.

"Wear your clothes" he said in a cold tone as if he was pissed at me and handed me the top.

"I wont" I tell taking my top and dropping it to the floor. He walked towards me until he was just a step away from me and I tilted my head up so I was not just staring at his chest.

"wear the goddamn top Rhea!" he said almost in a whisper but his voice still cold.

"No!" I spoke. Why on earth should I listen to what he says?. He placed his on the waist band of my denim and pulled me closer to him.

"I said, wear your fucking clothes" he whispered right to my mouth. Chills ran through my body as his warm, alcoholic breath hit my skin.

"And, I said I wont" I whispered back and he glides his hand to the small of my back and other came up to the hook of my bra.

"How drunk are you?" he questions whispering to my ear and his soft lips touch the back of my ear.

"Not so drunk. I won't forget this tomorrow" i whispered back placing my hands behind his neck.

"Good"

He kissed the back of the ear and with the hand on my back he pulled me closer and with the other he unclasps the hook of my bra. Which took me by surprise and I let out a small gasp. I felt him smirk against my skin. He glides his hand down to my thigh and in one swift movement he lifts me up placing me on the counter. I drop my bra to the ground as his lips was place on my neck, kissing and sucking. I felt warmth run down and he didn't even kiss me.

Damien's touch against my skin sent electricity through my body while he manage to kiss every single spot that makes me melt. Something about being in his arms makes me feel like nothing is wrong in my life. It feels so right and the heaviness of my heart has managed to dissappear.

He cups my breast with one hand while trailing kisses down my neck. Damien pulled me closer and I felt his hard on against my core. I leaned back as I let out a moan and my heart was beating so fast. He un button my jean and slides his hand down to my core.

"You are already so fucking wet for me, Lia" he said lifting his head from my neck. I couldn't even form a sentence as his thumb pressed to clit, massaging it.

"Mhmm" is all I could say. Damien pushed his two fingers into me and I let out a loud moan.

"Fuck Lia" he said against my skin. I have never felt this good before especially with just only two fingers in my core and the fact the Damien is the one who managed to pleasure me so much makes me feel over the moon. I drop my head to his shoulder as he takes his fingers out and pushes three more fingers in. I was breathing heavily as I felt my orgasm reaching and to avoid myself from screaming I pressed my mouth on his neck.

Damien took his fingers out of me and I felt so empty. He brings his fingers towards my mouth as I taste my own cum. He leans his forehead against mine and cups my cheek.

"You've had a nipple piercing" he said softly and I let out a small laugh.

"Yeah, sometime back. I removed it". He brings both his hands to my waist and hugged me tightly. We stay in eachother's hold for sometime, neither of us pulling away.

"We are not gonna talk about this are we?" I asked as he pull away from me, his hands still on my waist. He leaned in and planted a kiss on my cheek.

"Nope" he said looking at me. Damien bends down picking my bra and top from the floor.

He clasps my bra back on and dressed the top over my head and I look at him in admiration, with a smile on my face. He lifts me from the counter and put me back on my feet, I hold on to his arm as I stumble a little bit.

"Putting your clothes back on wasn't that hard now was it?" he said with a smile and tucking my hair behind my ear.

"Shut up" I say when I couldn't think of a better comment, of course I couldn't, I cant even think straight nor can I walk straight. I have never felt this good before. Maybe it's not just his touch, it's the feelings that I have for him which I try hard to avoid.

"You broke his hand" I ask him again.

"He deserved it. He shouldn't have touched what's not his". He takes my hand in his and leads us out of the bathroom.

Now, what did that mean?

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