why did she do that?

why would she harm herself?

That's so unlikely of Rhea

Another sleepless night was consumed with thoughts of the one and only Rhea Sangster or what I would like to call Lia.

I would say I was kind of relieved to hear her say that she hates me because that would just make things easier. But now, I have other thoughts of what could go wrong for Lia to slash her wrist. It was so unlikely of her. But I see that she has changed... a lot. She doesn't have that bright big smile all the time now. She looks so uneasy and tensed.

Yes. something is definitely wrong.

I would go out of my way to fix what has put her through so much shit for her to harm herself.

But, how?

For a fact she hates me and she seems to avoid every encounter she gets from anyone. She's friends with Emily but I know Lia way too much to know that she would never open up to someone this fast. And, Jason. I'm gonna fucking kill him but I don't have the right to or a valid reason. If 'Your stepbrother has had sex with the person you love but you have no right over her' is a good reason I would kill him then and there. But would she open up to Jason even though it seems like that they are not friends anymore or whatever the hell they call themselves? It is possible because he has known her for a decent amount of time and he left way after I did. Yeah, Jason would know something.

So I got out of my bed and now it's three in the morning he had to be sleeping.

I walked through the hallway towards his room. I knocked and he did not respond so I just walked in. of course he was sleeping. I took the pillow that was lying on the floor and hit his back with it.

"Jason! wake up asshole" still nothing. I hate to talk to him in the middle of the night. correction, I hate to talk to him at all. Talk to Rhea Sangster to make me do something I don't want to do.

Alright, that's it. I go into his bathroom or more like a hotbox. No wonder he's not waking up. I fill up a glass of cold water and throw it right at his face.

"What the fuck man!?" Jason spoke getting up to a seated position. Should've done that earlier.

"wear some clothes. I need to talk to you" I told him noticing that he's only in his boxers.

"what's the time?"

"It's three-fifteen. And yes, you've had me standing here for fifteen minutes dimwit" I told him handing him his sweats.

"God damn it, dude. I know you hate me but whyyy three in the fucking morning???" he spoke annoyingly.

"Stop being such a pussy and wear these sweats. And if you go back to sleep I would tell mom that your bathroom is a literal hotbox."

"Fine. Fine, what the fuck do you want?" I take a seat on the armchair and rested my legs on his bed.

"Yeah yeah go ahead keep your precious legs on my-"

"What happened in two thousand and eighteen?" I'm not here for small talk so I straight away got into my purpose.

"uh... got high under the bleachers."

"Not you dimwit I was talking about Li- I mean Rhea"

"I would love to know why you are asking me this but we started the year not being friends as always and then after a few months she randomly came to me asking for marijuana then we became friends again in twenty eighteen"

Why would Rhea do drugs? She didn't have a reason to I mean she lived in a conservative family and as long as I knew she hated the whole idea of smoking.

"why would she do that?"

"At first I thought it was because she didn't have any friends so she tagged along and did whatever we do so that she could be friends with us" I knew Rhea didn't have any friends, especially after I left. But that couldn't be it.

"What do you mean 'at first'?"

"Later I realized that there was this dude called Nathan he was like a year older than us and she hung out with him a lot like they were besties or some shit which meant she wasn't lonely after all but she still came to get weed from me. So she basically had some other reason and not so long after Nathan got to know about why she was skipping classes and hanging out with stoners. Then he went all big brotherly of her, you know what the funny part is Rhea's actual brother Noah didn't even give a shit. Then I got to know Noah and Nathan were dating."

"I don't care about her gay brother just tell what got her so fucked up" this conversation started to sound more like a gossip session.

"Fine. Rhea actually stopped coming to me. Then after like a month or so, Nathan left and Noah being the pussy he is shot himself a week after which pretty much everyone assumed that its because his boyfriend broke up with him. Just like that, we became friends again like when we're twelve and weed wasn't enough for her so she wanted other strong drugs"

"Don't tell me you did"

"of course I didn't. Hell, I did want to sell more but after all, she's my friend so no"

"What happened after that year?" I asked. This can't be getting any worse.

"Oh twenty nineteen that girl had the time of her life," he said with a grin on his face.

"What happened?"

"You sure you wanna know 'cause you seemed pretty pressed when you heard we've had sex before," he said smirking. This boy is pissing the hell out of me. Calm down Damien, it's in the past you can not do anything.

"Just say it!" annoyance dripping from my tone.

"We were fifteen, so we weren't legal but thankfully my father owned several clubs and we didn't need an ID to get in so for the sake of been old friends we started drowning our problems in alcohol and cocaine," he said the last bit almost in a whisper.

"You gave her Cocaine!!?"

"What can I do she was shit I was shit, alcohol, and weed wasn't enough for her. You can't blame me I was fifteen too" he said sounding really pissed.

"Go on," I said not wanting to beat the shit out of him and who am I to judge I wasn't any good at that age either but never in my life would've dragged her down with me.

"then one thing led to another and we had sex with no strings attached... several times"

"You'd be lying if you say you didn't catch feelings for her at all" it's uneasy to admit but who could've not fallen in love with her after all that.

"Yeah, I did. But not for so long because there was this other girl and blah blah. And I realized I would've never wanted anything more from Rhea than her friendship. we stopped the whole friends with benefits thing after a certain incident and we just became friends until I had to leave and fuck everything up" he said sounding really disappointed in himself.

"Is that it?" I question.

"That's it, man. That's all I know"

"Do you think the reason she is the way she is right now is because of the death of her brother?" I question. Could that possibly be it. I mean it's fair but she was never really close with him and Noah treated her like shit but whatever it was I know Rhea loved him, that's just who she is. She would love and care for the person that would do nothing but give her reasons to hate him or her.

"I don't know dude. Rhea is a really secretive person and lately, she has been pushing every single person away from her life. I mean I wouldn't know much it's still being a few days seeing her and can I go back to sleep now?" Jason said. 'secretive' that's true she has always been so secretive about herself. Rhea was more of a listener than a speaker, and I was neither, so when she came over when we were thirteen, she would always make me speak. Once she promised me that she would rap an Eminem song just so that I would tell her why I decided to wreck the neighbor's car. The memory of her doing karaoke at my place made me smile.

"Damien!?" Jason said loudly.

"What?"

"Will you get out of my room so I could sleep?" he said while I was already walking towards the door.

"Uh. No 'Thank you?"

"suck my dick," I said walking out of his room not closing the door just to piss him off.

When I reached my room I heard a door slam really loud. I think it's another sleepless night for me so I reach my bookshelf and grabbed the copy of 'wuthering heights'

What happened Rhea?

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