DAMIEN'S POV

Ever gone through so much fucked up shit that you just get in your car and speed like you've got no life to live. But you never crash, do you? I wished that I would. I wished that I would crash my car and bleed myself to death. I wished my mother peace, because, I know that without me in her life she would've to be happier and freer.

Now, I speed just for the feeling of adrenaline and hope I wouldn't die. because I know I can't leave my mother with her fucked up so-called 'husband'. What I don't understand is that even after one failed marriage why would a person put themself through another? would you hope to find love for the second time? For me, there's no such thing as called the second time. You won't fall in love twice. even if you do, you never really loved the other person. I don't believe in first love or last love I only believe in one true love.

I loved her. I love her. I will always love her.

I don't know where I'm driving to. All I know is that I can not die and the words to the song playing through the speakers.

'...don't wanna close my eyes. I don't wanna fall asleep 'cause I miss you baby and I don't want wanna miss a thing'

I stopped the car near the skating rink and got my skateboard and went to meet with the boys.

Lately, I've been skating a lot other than going to school. Kind of actually glad that ma doesn't force me to go to school 'cause she knows she can't really change my mind.

It's still the middle of the day but I would rather do anything other than doing something that will get me killed.

"Hey, man. still not going to school?"

"Nah" cant people really mind their own goddamn business.

"Great! let's go some rounds then"

Other than drugs, skating is one of the only things that help me get my mind off things. And of course, popping a pill and just chill is way easier. But since the last time I almost ODd I've been trying to get myself clean. It's being a month since I've been clean and it's harder than anything especially when life gives you more and more reasons to.

After skating for some time something caught my eye, more like someone.

No! this can't be it.

you are delusional Damien.

You are so obsessed that you have started seeing things.

But,

it's her.

She's not someone with blond hair and bright blue eyes with dimpled cheeks that almost every guy falls for.

She has jet black wavy shoulder-length hair with dark brown almost black eyes. Eyes that you could get lost in and if you look in deeply you could see the whole universe. She has a smile so bright that won't let any dimples appear. Her slightly tanned skin perfectly shines through her spaghetti strap short light blue dress.

But, that's not what I see.

I see the exact black hair with few red highlights which is slightly curly and grown up to the mid-length of her spine. She's not wearing a light blue dress. she's wearing a black oversized T-shirt with black ripped jeans. That bright smile seems like it has disappeared forever.

How do I know it's her?

It's when she looked at me looking away from her phone. I saw the dark brown eyes that I've been lost in for four years. I would've recognized her eyes from a million people if I had to. It's honestly hard to miss.

She makes that confusing face and then I realized I have been staring for way too long. As much as I want to run and hug her, I cant. so turn away and speed walk towards my car. with one last glance, I drive away.

she didn't recognize me.

ouch

To be honest, I don't want her to.

The more I stay away from her the better, even if it kills me. The last thing I want is for her to have a fucked up piece of shit in her perfectly happy life.

But something is definitely wrong. She doesn't look the Lia I saw four years ago.

RHEA'S POV

It's him.

No no no no no...

It cannot be him.

It's not him.

I refuse to believe that those grey eyes are his.

Rhea, it could be anyone. So many people have grey eyes and many boys skate.

It's not your Jones.

Even if it was him regardless of anything he would've run to me and hugged me. As much as he hates hugs he would always accept my hugs.

When I and my mom left our home town I promised myself I would let go of everything from my past and I did. I let go of my friendships and the crush I had. I chose to let him go and all the feelings I had for him. I was in love with him but I don't know if I am anymore. I don't know any connection I had to my past.

I can't let myself love someone.

I can't fall in love.

I can not.

And I won't.

The way he turned around and walked away with one last glance I knew its gonna be the last time I'm ever gonna think about him.

Why did I even come to this rink instead of going home since I skipped school?

After the outburst with Jason, I knew I had to calm myself and get my shit together again. I Knew if I go home with a fucked up state of mind I would end up gulping down my mother's afternoon bottle of alcohol and do something that I will regret for the rest of my life.

I sit down on the bench near the rink and light my cigarette. Getting lost in the music coming through my earphones. I close my eyes and hum the melody to myself.

'...You are the closest to heaven that I'll ever be and I don't wanna go home right now.'

A/N - WOW! I AM ON A ROLL GUYS.

ANYWAYS HERE I AM WITH ANOTHER SHORT BUT A PRETTY IMPORTANT CHAPTER. WE HAVE BEING INTRODUCED TO ANOTHER MC, LIKE ONE OF THE BIGGEST MCs.

*drum roll* ITS ZADDY DAMIEN. YAYYYY!!

I WROTE MY FRST MALE POV AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW I DID IT. BUT TELL ME HOW IT WAS.

AND WE GOT TO KNOW HOW RHEA LOOKS. SHE GOT BLACK HAIR AND ALMOST BLACK EYES. I KNOW SHE'S NOT THE TYPICAL 'WATTPAD GIRL'. I ACTUALLY DIDN'T WANT HER TO BE.

DID I DESCRIBE RHEA AS MYSELF? MAYBE I DID, MAYBE NOT hehe

I JUST WANTED TO GIVE THE APPRECIATION FOR BROWN EYES. THEY ARE BEAUTIFUL AF AND I FREAKING LOVE MY ALMOST BLACK, BROWN EYES (yeah, not really).

ACTUALLY, ALL EYES ARE BEAUTIFUL :)

FOR ANYONE WHO WANTS TO KNOW THE 2 SONGS MENTIONED ARE:

1) I DON'T WANT TO MISS A THING BY AEROSMITH (THE ONE DAMIEN WAS LISTENING TO)

2) IRIS BY NATALIE TAYLOR (THE ONE RHEA WAS LISTENING TO)

HOLD ON TO THIS SHITS JUST 'BOUTA START.

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