after roaming around town for hours I thought of going back home.

as I enter the house I saw the pile of new letters I went through them mostly written in my mother's name and then I saw a little package addressed to me I rip it open and saw a letter with a pair of car key's inside of it.

Dear Rhea,

how are you doing? I honestly hope you and mom are doing fine. i got to know that dad left and sweetheart I am so sorry! you and your mom did not deserve to go through that. honestly, any of this. but sweety this is life things happen some may be good but some bad that no one deserves to go through such a thing. but i know you and mom will get through this rough patch because you were raised to be a strong woman and so was she.

Jared is doing great here with us. even though he constantly asks to see his sister. other than that, he's in middle school now and he also started to play football, gotta admit he is actually amazing at it. we remember you both so much and miss you all too. I just hope that one day we could re-connect together as a family one more time. And the key inside the package is your 17th birthday gift which we never got to give. a black 2015 ford focus is being shipped it will arrive in another week or so. I hope that you will like it.

we love you so much rhe and miss you too. if there is anything please call and inform us we will always be one flight away. take care sweetheart. give mom our love too.

love,

ma and pa .

only if they knew what kind of shit I'm going through. but they will always hold a special in my heart because they were more of a mother and a father for me than my own ever was. gosh, I miss them too but I sure as hell know that I don't want to go back to them. I don't want to see him ever again.

it's great to hear my younger brother is doing great but I doubt the fact that he wants to see me. we used to be close and I love him more than anything because he was the gift that we got from God but this Rhea is not the sister he's missing. And mother is not doing a great job at all raising me. hell! She's not even taking care of herself. But I wouldn't let them know, the last thing I want is to drag their beautiful life into this dark, messed up shit hole of mine which I call 'my life.

On the bright side, I'm getting a car so now I don't have to walk to school. I would write back to them but I don't want to lie either. I will just keep it short and sweet.

I write the letter and addressed it.

***

I take a bath and got out to my little balcony which is connected to my room. i take out a cigarette and light it up with the lighter that I stole from the drug store once. i observed the sky while taking long drags from the cigarette and realizing that this weather completely fits my whole life. dark, gloomy a little bit of lightning with water droplets gradually falling from the sky. this type of climate is what I call 'perfect' it was very soothing.

I close my eyes for a moment and I saw flashbacks of good memories I had in my old life.

"rhea! rhea! look out zack is right behind you" . " oh! you mother fucker you really thought i wouldn't eat them. ha zack." I ran faster than I could ever imagine thinking that a gigantic big fat cookie monster is right behind me even though it's Zach who is now trying to catch me and throw me into the river for eating all his cookies which he values more than life. I was getting tired and I slowed down to catch my breath so did he. " okay! o-okay! I'm sorry, I really am I promise you I will get two bags of cookies just for you but don't you dare put me in the freezing water... please!" I said making a babyface. " OH MY GOD is the one and only Rhea Sangster just said PLEASE to a guy," he said looking at me dramatically shocked. " yes! and that's why you should let me go", he took a dramatic pause and said, " you know to hear you say please is once in a lifetime opportunity.. but so is getting to throw you into freezing water" he ran fast towards me and picked and threw me to the river before I even could process what he said. "FUCK YOU! ZACK THEODORE" I screamed while I was freezing in the cold water and then I saw my friend Nina right behind him and pushed him into the river and so does Nina then Joshua. we swam in the cold river often having water fights and even had to walk back home in our shit cold-soaked clothes.

I open my eyes and wiped the tear flowing down on my cheek. after few days from the river incident, Zach met with a car crash and he stayed in a coma for a week then he passed away. From that day on my life started getting shittier and shittier.

I honestly got to admit that I did have fun and some little and special memories in the past and I would never forget them but I still feel shattered when I lost the biggest happiness of my whole life the one person who gave me hope.

- HEY YALL!!! I JUST WANT TO SAY I AM SO FREAKING HAPPY THAT YOU HAVE READ THIS SO FAR. BUT I WILL BE STOPPING FOR NOW BECAUSE I DONT KNOW WHETHER ANYONE LIKE IT OR NOT TO BE CONTINUED,

IF YOU DO WANT THIS TO BE CONTINUED I SURE AS HELL WOULD FINISH IT FOR YOU. JUST COMMENT AND LET ME KNOW. LOVE YOU LOVE YOU SO MUCH !!

- PEACE