i have always

thrived in chaos.

it is all

that i am used to.

so please forgive me

when i do not

have proper reactions

or say all of the

right things.

i am not used to

feeling so loved

constantly

consistently

always.

i am not used

to being so desired

by another.

i am not used

to all of this pure effort

with no expectation for

something in return.

please

do not give up on me

for this.

please do not

deem me unworthy.

i will learn,

and learn well

if you continue to teach me.

darling,

this is something i'll

never be able to

repay you for.

-you're teaching me how to love myself.