i'm sitting

next to an empty grave.

it's one

i've dug

for myself.

my back rests

against cold stone.

my arms rest

on trembling knees.

my eyes

leak water

that i can't feel

staining my cheeks.

i sit here in silence

every day

while my eyes

screams words that

i cannot.

while my knees

mourn the loss

of you.

my body knows

that you are gone,

but i'm afraid my heart

never will.

i will sit here

until i sink into the ground.

at least then,

i can be next to you

once again.