Just when I thought everything was going fine,

Everything was according to the plan,

Someone must ruin it. Ugh!

I am tired of this clash of clans.

Nothing even makes sense,

All the air I breathe is fucking dense.

Wanting to be alone, but the emptiness is too hard to bear.

I just want to drown myself,

I want to make all the things clear...

I want someone to hold me,

I want someone to know I am lonely,

I want someone to wrap me up, enfold me..

All I want is nothing more.

To see her smile once again,

What can I say?

I am shaken up to the core.

Take my wealth,

Money can't even stabilise my mental health,

Take my power,

Take my body...

All I need is to find somebody.

The air around me wants to choke me.

The darkness wants to engulf me.

The voices in my head keep reminding me that I am worthless and better off dead.

The blades want to slit me,

Can anyone really help me?

I am just living my life with a single motive.

To reverse things,

Then die without being noticed.

I was rushing towards my room where the kitten was probably chilling. I didn't exactly know what I was fucking expected to do?

I just wanted to lock her up in a dark room where no one else could find her, but ugh! I had to think rationally.

The Power, The wealth, The Position, everyone wants to be the leader, everyone wants to be at the top, but no one really understands the difficulties you have to face being the boss unless you become one.

You always have to think about your group first before thinking about yourself. You have to take every single decision accordingly so that it won't affect your clan.

The sole moment you were handed with the authority, that exact moment you have to forget about yourself, you have to sacrifice your every selfish desire in order to save your members.

I sighed, placing my hands on my forehead and walking even more quickly than before in order to calm the things going on inside my mind.

The sound of my boots echoed through the hall as I just walked and walked restlessly, passing the fancy chandeliers, portraits, curtains, and many other showpieces, until I stopped in front of the door leading inside my room.

I reluctantly grabbed the doorknob and, taking a deep breath while closing my eyes for a moment, I twisted the knob.

The moment the door creaked, giggles filled my ears and when I opened the door furthermore, I was greeted with an image of Kitten jumping on my bed in a red t-shirt with black pajamas, I sometime wonder what was with her and her obsession with red. A ball was in her hand.? And Kartos was excitedly wagging his tail and waiting for the human-cat to throw the ball for him to fetch.

"Warf" He barked in anticipation and stood up on his two legs waiting for the kitten to throw the ball, and the kitten giggled wholeheartedly and teased him with the act of throwing it. Kartos was literally beaming and enjoying his match with the kitten. Animals are the only creatures I've adored since the beginning. That's perhaps the reason why we are involved in every single crime instead of dogfighting or anything related to animals.

The sound of her laugh was kind of melodic? I don't know why seeing her face beaming at my baby made something churn inside my chest, but I shook my head to clear that weird thought away.

Both of the players were so immersed in their little game that they didn't even notice me standing beside the entrance of the room.

The kitten jumped and laughed again, then she threw the ball in her hand in my direction. By reflex, I caught the ball in my right hand, but my reflexes were not strong enough to keep my balance as the huge beast pounded over me to catch the ball.

I struggled to keep my balance, but I couldn't, and finally I fell on the ground. Kartos started licking my cheeks, making me groan as I covered my mouth with my free hand to stop his saliva entering my mouth. Ugh! The consequences of having dogs-

"Ha-Ha" The voice echoed in the room and I struggled to push Kartos off myself and looked up to find the cat woman was laughing at her ass off, with her hands over her stomach while jumping over my bed.

"What's so funny?" I scoffed, but she just continued to laugh, and then an idea came into my mind, I sat up on the floor and aimed the ball in my hand towards the lady, and as soon as the ball left my hand, the huge baby beast jumped to fetch the ball.

"Ahhhh!" the kitten yelled as Kartos jumped on her, making her fall on the mattress, but to my surprise, she was still giggling and Kartos was now licking her face. The image in front of me was somehow adorable, by which an unconscious ghost smile appeared over my face.

"Kartos, Baby, can you please behave?" I asked calmly, and he stopped all the licking and looked in my direction for the next command.

"Baby, can you please-" As I was about to make him sit properly by my side, I was interrupted by the knock on my door.

*Knock, knock*

I turned my neck towards the door to find that it was already open and The Zodiac Bastard, whose name I had forgotten, was looking down at me with an amused glint in his eyes, and Linda was nervously staring at me where I was sitting.

I rolled my eyes and tried to stand up on the floor, but then the kitten noticed the intruder. Her jaw dropped open, she immediately jumped in the direction of the door and I decided the ground was the safest place for me as the force with which the kitten pounded over the man, Linda, got dis-balanced and she leaned against the wall to stop her fall.

"Brettt! It took you too long." The kitten huffed as she engulfed the man, whose nickname seemed to be Brett, and he playfully elbowed her but let her hug him.

"It's the first time you decide to be kidnapped by the first rankers you know." He teased, and the kitten chuckled. But I don't know why the scene caused me to feel something inside my chest, and I ignored the uneasy feeling, but it seemed like I was not the only one who was feeling awkward emotions. My baby seemed to be having much darker emotions that he growled.

He growled and bared his teeth at the man, which caused him to jump into his own position and jerk himself away from the kitten. I mentally smirked at the scared face of the cheeky bastard, and the kitten seemed to be surprised rather than scared by Kartos's behaviour. Then I decided to stand up from the floor and shrug the dirt away from my clothes.

"Baby, calm down! " I commanded, and he hid his teeth but still remained glaring at the man, and I made my way towards the bed to sit beside him and patted his head.

"You two can take a seat if you want." I commented, pointing towards the couch, and they both nodded and took their seats.

"Bretty, I want to know every single detail of the gossip I have missed these days... Tell me whether Yuma got her boyfriend back or not? Does Grabby leave his place? does-" The kitten continued her list, and the man smiled sheeplessly.

"Adri- you know, I can't really tell you every single thing that happened within two and a half weeks-" The man shook his head taking deep dramatic breath, and the kitten gasped.

"Oh ammm gee! It's been two and a fucking half weeks! Wait, that means I snuck out on the red day! Oh damn!"

"Well, yes, if you don't count the hours."

"What took you too long? You could have found me before-" She pouted and I was kind of amused as their relationship seemed to be rather stronger than the mere employee and leader relationship.

"It's not my fault, the planning has to be harder this time." The man stated and the kitten sighed.

"Sorry to interrupt the lovey-dovey talk, but what do you mean this time?" I was confused. Has the kitten been kidnapped before?

"WHATTT! ME AND HIM LOVEY- DOVEY NO FUCKING WAYYY!" The kitten dramatically raised her finger pointing at the man's face and made pukeing noises. He ignored her and decided to answer my question.

"Yes, she is quite used to running away and getting lost somewhere, or people kidnapping her based on her face." The man answered, and the kitten placed her hands over her chest.

"Ohh! the consequences of having a pretty face." She sighed and I ignored her, staring instead at the man who was about to continue.

"In most of the cases, I just have to hide the bodies a day after." He paused and smirked.

" It's almost the ritual of our gang to start finding her a day after her absence, whether she sent us the message or not, so we just have to drag her ass back to work every three months or so-" The man chuckled at his own statemen when the kitten smacked his shoulder.

"Why are you telling her all this?" She scoffed and he shrugged.

"Okay-so, now you saw her fine and in one piece, so call your members and tell them to stop what they were going to do." I said, looking at my watch showing only three hours left for the needle to hit ten.

"Ohhh! No- No- Not so easily Krystal Blake, we still haven't returned to our place yet. Once we reach there, I will stop the deed. " He grinned and I sighed, already knowing that this would happen.

The kitten was giving us confused looks during our exchange, but then something struck her brain and she gasped.

"Brett, you did that-" She looked wide-eyed at the man, and he smiled.

"Indeed, I did." He replied cheekily, and one moment the kitten was looking at the man with wide eyes, and the other moment she was on top of the man and was grabbing his neck with both of her hands. The man was still smiling, but was also grabbing her hair in his hand.

Things happened so fast that I could not comprehend what was going on, and then Kartos barked or more likely growled at the two grown-up adults behaving like hooligans, and I scratched the nape of my baby to keep him calm.

By hearing the growl, the adults came back to some sense and withdrew themselves. The kitten was still stabbing daggers at the man with her glare.

"May I ask what happened?" I questioned.

"Krystal!!! He dared to touch my- My! Workstation." She said this in a serious tone, and I forced myself not to roll my eyes at her dramatic ness, to piss her further off.

All I could say was "Oh-"

"And how was I even supposed to crack these codes without suitable software?" The man questioned the girl, and the kitten huffed.

"Wait, so it means you were the one who cracked the code?" I raised my brows, and he smiled.

"The one and only." He replied cheekily and kitten huffed.

"One more time you touch my thing, you will be dead." She glared, and the man raised his both hands above his head.

"Okay, now we should go." The man said, standing up, and Kartos barked at him, making him fall over his previous position again. I patted his head to calm him down.

"Y-Yes," the kitten replied, but her eyes were gazing at my face as if she wanted me to say anything, which I was not sure of.

"Can you please hold this thing?" The man pointed towards my baby and he gritted his teeth at him, making him flinch.

"Oh, come on, Brett, he is such an angel." The kitten rolled her eyes and leaned from her position to pat my baby's head, which he gladly accepted.

The man was shocked by the sudden change in demeanor of the black beast, that he was just staring at me and then my baby wide eyed and I sighed.

"Kartos, Please behave alright?" I whispered in his ear and he looked down.

"O-Okay N-Now we should go Adri-" The man finally stood up from his position and fixed his clothing, The kitten too stood up from her place, but she again looked up at me and I was unable to say anything. Thankfully, Kartos behaved and just glared at the man instead of ripping his hand apart.

"Give me your contact information as I have to make sure the end of our deal." I said, and he nodded and recited a number, which Linda immediately noted.

I had to get another plan. It will take a few more days, but I will survive. I have become used to these kinds of situations. No one is permanent. I don't really have to depend on her as she already did almost half of her part, but I don't know why I felt a little uneasy at the thought of her leaving this mansion.

I shook my head in order to shoo away the weird feelings. I don't have any other choice but to let her go. At least they are not blackmailing us yet, and I can order one of the assassins to kill them. Their location is easy to find and we already have enough moles there, so worrying about them blackmailing us is out of the case.

I just need to concentrate on what is going on right now, and the only option I have is to let the bastard take the cat woman with him, as he must have ordered his members to leak the information if they didn't make it there.

"Alright, you want me to lend you a ride?" I asked standing up from my seat and the kitten looked somehow uneasy?

"No-no- I came here well prepared, so you just have to show us the way to the exit." The man smiled and grabbed the kitten's elbow.

"Sure," I replied and gestured at Linda to lead the path. She nodded and obeyed my command.

The kitten was somehow looking like she wanted to say something, but reluctantly let the man drag her out of the room. I just stayed inside my room, not wanting to go out.

Now, I was alone in my room with Kartos staring at my actions. The room was silent as it was meant to be. There were no giggles, no huffs, no laughing noises, and everything went back to normal.

But somehow, this did not seem right. I looked around my room to find that it was a complete mess. Fancy girly clothes were lying over the couch, makeup tools were lying unevenly over the dressing table, chips, pen drives, files, books, and papers were scattered all around the room. Two weeks before, I would kill anyone who dared mess with my room, but I got somehow used to the messiness, perhaps because of sharing it for two weeks.

I made my way towards the bathroom and opened the door. Once I reached inside, I looked in the mirror and smiled.

"Krystal Baby- Gather yourself, you still have to find the fucker." I said as I turned the basin on and splashed water on my face. Then, after wiping my face with the towel hanging behind the door, I opened the drawer and took out the bottles. I swallowed four pills and stared at my reflection again.

"Just a few more days, honey, just a few more. Once you kill him, you can end it." I smiled bitterly, bracing myself to re-enter my room.

*Ring-Ring-Ring*

My phone was ringing, which made me wonder as only Max and Linda had this number, so I quickly rushed towards it. The screen was showing an unknown number, which made me uneasy as Max was doing the task...

"Hello?" I reluctantly spoke.

"Pumpkin- Stop the car," Max's voice, filled with urgency, made its way inside my head.

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