{"You can't do a single thing."

"You should not even be alive."

"You are worthless."

"You should die."

"You are just a spot in the name of an heir."

"You should do as we say, baby girl, Don't you want your parents to be alive?"}

My whole body started to shake, I was unable to breathe. My mind went numb. I was surrounded by just plain darkness as if I was stuck in a black hole, engulfing each and every bright light I could see. Then I felt something wet and rough over my face, and my mind came back into sense when I heard high-pitched howls in my ear.

I opened my eyes immediately, and found Kartos licking my face and howling in fear or sadness that I couldn't even comprehend.

I patted his head, unable to say anything comforting to him. He stopped howling but came closer and settled himself in my lap.

"K-Kartos Baby M-Mama I-is a-alright..." I whispered in his ear, but my voice was too low for my liking.

"B-Baby I'm okay, Now can you get up for a second? I need to use the bathroom," I said this in a much stronger voice than the previous one, but Kartos didn't move from his position.

"Baby! Please I need to Pee!" I now tried to say in a dramatic tone which seemed to work, as he reluctantly stood up from my lap and settled himself down on the right-side of the bed, still watching me with curious eyes.

Without wasting any time, I jumped out of bed and dashed to the bathroom. My head was spinning like I'd just gotten off a roller coaster, so I stumbled a few times on the way.

Once I reached the bathroom, I locked the door and saw my reflection in the mirror. All I could see was a weakling, a worthless, ugly human who shouldn't be born.

People say they hate me, but they don't know they can't even hate me as much as I hate myself. I hate no-no. I detest myself. I am worthless, a hollow weakling who couldn't even save her parents, her friends, her well wishers or whoever once had faith in her.

I don't deserve to live, I'm just wasting the air and resources. I want to die, but I can't if an afterlife exists... I can't face my parents after killing myself. I don't want to disappoint them more than I already have.

I splashed water on my face. The tears mixed with water and my nose got blocked with the water and mucus, making me cough and struggle to breathe.

Taking deep breaths, I opened the drawer on the lower shelf and took out the box placed below the towels, and opened its lid to reveal the only thing that gives me some sensation.

After years and years of not feeling anything other than emptiness, I just wanted to feel something, anything, and it provides me with a temporary sensation. No, I'm not addicted, but it's the only thing which makes me feel any sensation. The thrill of the blade cutting through my veins; the sensation of pain, the burning, the crimson colour, looking at the beautiful art on my thigh, I smiled, and placed the magical brush in the steriliser; and took out anti-infectant and poured it directly over the beautiful painting. The sensation became even more pleasant than before.

After minutes of wiping the art piece from my upper thigh, I sighed, and poured water from the bucket on the floor, dissolving the crimson paint drops and by using a wiper, I cleaned all the mess I created.

I then opened the middle shelf again and took out the jar of medicine. Pills have always been my only friend which lessen the emptiness of my mind by creating hallucinations, they make me feel happy or less disturbed, They make the voices stop, they make my head clear, they make me feel light, they make me feel... err, more me?

No, I'm not addicted to them too, but they lessen the darkness which has been surrounding me for years.

I swallowed 4 tablets without water, since I'm used to it and looked in the mirror and smiled, mentally preparing myself to face the humans for another day. 'Yes Baby you can do it. You have to do it, you want to tell her na-'

I took the toothbrush which was resting on the counter and ran some water on it before spreading the toothpaste on it.

{"I'm not a baby princess, I'm nine ...so I don't need fucking babysitters following me all around," I murmured as I glanced at the dagger resting over the dining table.

'This will be quite handy' I thought as I reached towards it and then I heard footsteps behind me. I immediately tucked the dagger behind my shirt and ran off.

"Everyone disagrees?" I suddenly heard a sound coming from my father's room.

The door was slightly ajar so I slowly walked towards it to peek through the small gap .

My father was sitting on the couch like he always does and my mother was standing in the middle of the room. In her hand was a scroll of paper.

"She should not be kept in the dark, we should tell her!" my mom attested to my father, he stood up from his position.

"No! She is just a child!" he argued and I tilted my head in confusion.

'Are they talking about me?' I mentally questioned as I tried to peek more into the room.

"KRYSTAL BLAKE, YOU KNOW EAVESDROPPING YOUR PARENTS ISN'T RIGHT... RIGHT?" my father shouted, making me flinch and the door opened revealing my mother who was on the verge of tears.

Without saying a single thing, she ran away out of the door, and I gulped seeing my father approaching in my direction.

"I-I'm s-sorry Father," I shuttered. My body was starting to shake, I looked down at my feet trying to calm myself.

"How much have you heard?"

"Huh?"

"HOW MUCH YOU FUCKING HEARD?" my father demanded and I felt myself stiffen in fear.

"I-I N-nothing!" I shuttered again, and flinched in pain as he slapped me hard on my face.

"Don't you dare to eavesdrop again... Understand?" he questioned, and I nodded. I felt another stinging sensation of pain on my other facial cheek.

"I asked, do you understand?" he repeated.

"Yes, Leader!" I said in a firm voice trying to control the tears starting to collect my eyes.

"Now go away," he ordered, and I quickly turned around and dashed out of the room.

Tears were starting to ooze out of my eyelids, I wrapped my arms around myself as I ran towards a random direction in the enormous mansion. My face suddenly hit something hard and I lost my balance and fell on the marble floor.

"Krystal? What are you doing here?" a familiar gentle voice asked.

I looked up and saw Max, My lips quivered.

The tears which were oozing drop by drop were now flowing. I don't know when it started but I found myself in the arms of my Butler.

"Oh, Krystal it will be alright," Max whispered in my ear.

"R-Really?" I asked.

"Yes, believe me, it will be alright, you will become a great leader," He said, rocking me in his arms.

"I don't want to become a leader," I murmured, reluctantly ,wiping my tears with the hem of my shirt.

"And why not?" he asked, patting my head.

"I don't want to become like my father," I commented huffing, and he smiled.

" You will not be, you will be a good leader. Nothing like your father, you will be the Mistress of the whole country, you will be the girl who will be dreamed, you are like the Mulan honey, this field is overflowing with toxic masculinity, you are the balance which is must. The underworld will fear you and the world will respect you," he said with a proud smile wiping away my tears.

"Yes, I will become a woman whose name is known by everyone!" I proudly said puffing my chest out.

Max chuckled and asked, "Yes and what do I always tell you?"

"Trust no one," I answered back, and he ruffled my hair.

"That's my Pumpkin."

"Don't call me that, you grumpy grandpa," I pouted, and rolled my eyes.

Max grinned and fixed my outfit.

"Now go to the garden, Sandra and Jake are waiting for you."

I excitedly beamed at him and blew him a kiss, running away in the direction of the garden.}

I smiled remembering the old memories. Remember those days? When you were excited about growing up and now as an adult, you just want to be a fucking child again? When you have no worries, have friends, and can easily trust anyone who talks sweetly with you?

I turned on the shower and sighed as the hot water dripped over my body. I didn't use soap today and just enjoyed the sensation of hot water on my body. I turned off the shower and pulled on my black silk robes. Still running the towel over my hair, I walked into the closet and looked through my clothes.

I chose a black, suede suit that was in mint condition and didn't even have a single lint on it. I had a meeting with the CEO of Blood Stone Private Limited. I usually go to work in just an oversize shirt with some trousers, but I have made a strict dress code for my employees. Umm yes, I'm a bitch.

I quickly styled my hair with some hair gel and sighed, 'Krystal Baby, you will be fine... just another day of dealing with the boring life revolving around humans whom you don't even know.'

I opened the door after giving one last look in the mirror, and Kartos jumped on me in order to see if I was alright. I lost my balance and winced in pain.

"Baby, calm down, let's go," I said, not wanting to talk much, Getting up from the ground, Kartos gave me a cute smile and I smiled looking down at him.

Then after 15 more minutes of convincing the doggo about my safety, I pulled out my gun from the bed drawer, just in case... you know?

I walked out of my house straight towards my Range Rover waiting for me in the parking lot. I slid in the passenger seat before the old man got in the driver's seat.

"Pumpkin are you alright?"

"Yes,-" I replied, and he nodded, giving me a look that indicated he wasn't convinced by my response, but I'm glad he didn't ask any further questions.

Once the engine roared, I closed my eyes and listened to the radio station playing some love songs.

Ugh... If only it existed in the real world.

Love is a drug,

Once you have a taste,

Your body doesn't remain

in a steady-state...

It's just a hormonal fate,

But at the time you realize the mistake,

Time is gone, you are too late...

The hormones make us gleam,

They make us glow,

All your actions seem to be in a flow,

It feels like heaven till the secretions remain,

Then you realize all your precious time had gone into vain.

Maybe that's why I'm afraid to take a bite-

I might overdose.

"Pumpkin, we are here," Max informed me, and I just nodded unbuckling my seatbelt.

"Thanks, Max, I will inform you about my departure... till then stay safe and don't forget to grab some lunch before taking your blood pressure pills."

"Will do my lady... look after yourself Pumpkinrella"

"Don't call me that, you grumpy grandpa," I grumbled, to which he simply smiled.

"Yes, Pumpkin," he grinned as he opened the door for me, and I rolled my eyes at him before getting out and letting the back door open for Kartos to jump out of the car.

"Thank you,-" I said softly and let my mask slip on as I walked to the building with Kartos, emitting a dark, powerful aura, that frightened the people around us.

My eyes turned blank, devoid of any emotions as my shoulders straightened and my face became like a mannequin with a serious expression.

Everyone glanced at me nervously before scurrying away. If looks could kill, I bet I would have charged thousands of murders... keyword 'charged'.

I almost laughed at their reactions, full of fear, they all know I can make them jobless with just one piece of paper. I like this power, but deep down I have always wanted to live a normal life where I was loved and not feared by the people.

I pulled out my key card and swiped it to make my private elevator open.

Stepping in, I stuck the card in the slot, making the door close. After selecting the white button out of white, red, and black ones, I waited for the lift to take me to the top floor of the building where my assistant would perhaps be waiting for me.

Most of the people who learn I own the whole building get thrilled and surprised. But little do they know, I basically own half of the state, it's just not in the eyes of the media yet.

The elevator door slid open, prompting me to step into the top floor's office lobby and I felt my jaw wanting to drop at the sight in front of me.

Not that I was not enjoying the view, but at this hour I have to keep my mind in a steady state, I can't fuck my secretary for God's sake.

But I must say she is pretty hot with her Indian caramel skin and black eyes.

I tilted my head and watched the sight before me in wonder, but quickly looked away when I began to feel oestrogen and progesterone surge.

I cleared my throat and Linda quickly straightened up, making her red lace panties disappear under her skirt once again. My mask hardened before she looked back at my face with an intense blush rushing over her cheeks, and damn did her ears also become red.?

"I'm making a rule which prohibits female staff and crossdressers from wearing skirts in office hours."

She blushed even harder, now she was just as red as her- ughhhh, stop honey! Concentrate...

"What are these?" I asked her, gesturing towards several files arranged over my desk.

"They are the papers to finalize the 'deal' between Blood Mark Empire and some files are regarding the 'white' meetings of finalizing the agreement over the designing deal with the neighbouring companies," she said the last part with a nervous tone and I leaned back in my chair, clasping my arms behind my body, staring up at her.

"The design agreement files were supposed to be sent out yesterday," I commented with a blank face and Kartos started gritting his teeth towards her.

"Yes, ma'am but I forgot to get them stamped and when I came back, you were already gone for the night," she gulped. Droplets of sweat started forming over her head.

"So, you are saying this is my fault that your hippocampus couldn't turn the memory of stamping the papers for some longer term?" By this statement, Kartos stood up from his place in front of me and continued to grit his teeth to freak out the lady in front of us.

"No, my lady, it's all my fault. Please forgive me. I promise I will not make such a mistake again!" She almost squeaked the last part, and I nodded with a sigh.

"You are lucky that today I enjoyed the view but I'm not paying thousands of dollars for that," I patted Kartos head indicating him to cool down and if she was blushing before now, she had turned into a tomato.

"Send them now because I have many other real 'deals' to handle and I don't want to spend any more time on something 'white'."

"Yes, ma'am! I'll get right to it," she stated professionally, but I sensed some relief in her voice.

As she came closer to my desk to take the now stamped files, Kartos roared lazily at her and she flinched back, making me smirk, but I quickly masked my emotions.

By taking some pity on the poor sexy girl's state, I handed her the files myself and she fled from my office giving me a perfect view of her round ass.

"You love teasing the Hoomans, don't you? My baby boy is getting naughty-naughty!" I cooed at the black angel lying lazily on the couch beside my chair.

He just licked my hand in response. I groaned and headed towards the washbasin to clean up the saliva on my palm.

I leaned back in my chair and sighed...

As the light begins to intensify, so does the misery, and I wonder how it is possible to be hurt when nothing is wrong...

When you cry so much, it makes you realize that breathing is hard & you know what's the hardest -

It's to realise that you are still breathing.

After some minutes, l checked some emails, and one email caught my eye. It was from my rat.

I immediately opened it and read its contents. My blood started to boil, my mouth dried, I clenched my fist, my eyes squinted, I was fuming, and then I grabbed the glass of water resting on the table top and threw it on the floor. The glass shattered, the water spilled, and Kartos was watching me intensely.

I stormed out of the office, gesturing at my baby to follow me to the red floor's lobby.

"Give me everything you can get on the Master of the Zodiac Empire!" I roared at my accountant as he began to type furiously at his keyboard.

I had to think calmly. The leader wants to play, I'm going to make a hell of this game. They have no idea who they're messing with, and I'm about to show them what happens if they dare to get in my way.

They dared to mess with our account, The Dark Moon Empire! Oh, they are going to get it in our way. How stupid can they be while stealing money from the country's most feared gang?

"Ma'am, I got something"

Tylor, the accountant, spoke, and turned to me and handed a paper.

"Name- Adriana Styles,

Age - 26

Contact - xxxxxxx

.... You gotta be kidding me!, Tylor, I need more information about this brat, I cannot use her name against her, can I?" I read the paper with a frustrated groan.

"But my lady, this is the only information I could find and I had to break through five firewalls just to get her contact information."

I sighed, knowing he was telling the truth. The information regarding the gang's leader is highly secretive and secured.

"Okay- Tylor, you have done a good job. Keep it up!" I praised him a little to boost up the little man's ego, making him blush.

At least now I know that my enemy has got tits and not a dick- umm, bad one I know.

Just wait for me Miss Adriana Styles , you have dared to put your hand into Anaconda's mouth. Two can play the game.

"Kartos baby, are you ready to spill some blood?" He beamed at me and started wagging his tail.

"OH, wait baby lemme call someone first, so we can start the game."

I quickly went through my contact list and grinned while dialing a number.

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