Chapter 21. Acceptance or Rejection??

"What happened Tee? Thinking about Thanitt and Copter"? Tae held the pen from his lips who was apparently working on the assignment but Tae knew he wasnt actually focusing on it.

"Hmmm. Yes i am. I am worried about Copter". Tee heaved a sigh.

"Worried why"?

"He loves Thanitt for long and Thanitt didnt notice. Am scared of hurting his feelings". Tee said lacing his fingers together.

"Tee. We cannot force him. We told him what he should do, and now its all upto him. It should be his decision if he wanted to give a chance to Thanitt or not. Though, i would say, Thanitt needs someone than being left alone. He is regretting, guilty, he might take a wrong step. I think, at this point, if Copter expresses his love and sincerity, Thanitt might stand again. He might stand strong again and realise his actions and words". Tae spoke in detail.

"You are furious at Thanitt, still worried about him hmm"? Tee raised his eyebrows.

"Ofcourse Tee. He was my friend too. I am furious t what what he did to you, he shouldnt have, under no circumstances. But that doesnt mean that i cannot see his eyes. I wish i was strong enough to say you to forgive him, but no. I cannot, because that night is still young in my memory. I cannot forget what he did to you. How miserable and scared you were. It would be totally your decision.

But yes, he needs a ground to stand and i think Copter is the best person to hold him down". Tee nodded his head in deep thoughts as if agreeing with Tae. But ofcourse he couldnt do anything in their matter, and he didnt want either.

"Lets finish the assignment and sleep. I have a neeting with hazers tomorrow. Will be a bit busy". Tae told Tee who knew his schedule by heart.

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"Thanitt. Are you free"? Copter asked Thanitt after their classes the next day. Thanitt looked at him with questioning gaze.

"I am. Just this assignment to be submitted tomorrow. Why"? He asked.

"I.. Uh... I need to talk to you". Copter said. He was nervous. He wanted to say it all for once, and then wait for the response.

"What is it Copi? You okay? You want to leave me"? Thanitt asked with a little fear in his eyes.

"I will never leave you Thanitt. It would be your decision if you want to keep me in your life or not. I will always stick to you. Why are you scared"? Copter held his big hands with his own small ones.

"I am afraid to be left alone Copter". Thanitt said in a defeated tone. Copter smiled at him and held his hand to the parking.

"Lets go home. Take lunch from the road side today. My treat hmmm". Copter was successful to bring a smile at Thanitt's face.

They picked up the food as Copter wanted and went to Thanitt's apartment. If Copter was nervous to speak, Thanitt was confused to listen to. He didnt know why was it so difficult for Copter to speak.

"You are scaring me Copter". Thanitt couldnt hold when Copter took more than a couple of moments to speak.

"Okay. Listen to me carefully okay. I just want to let it out, but in no way i am pressurizing you or imposing on you. You are no where to return it positively or anything.

I.. I love you Thanitt. I dont know since when, but i do. Only you. The moment i saw you, i fell hard for you. For me it was sufficient enough to see you everyday, talk to you and stay by you. I was shocked when i came to know that you loved Tee. It was a moment when i decided i would never speak a word to you about my feelings. Ofcourse how can i compete with Tee Thanapon. The epitome of handsome and beauty, with brains.

I am not asking for any explanation or acceptance, you will always be my best friend and i will always love you. Its just that it was getting too much burden on my heart so i wanted to say it all". Copter said all wiping those tears that fell off his eyes. He saw Thanitt, sitting silent, unmoving. He knew Thanitt would reject his love because it wasnt too long that Tee had broke off everything with him. But again, Copter had expected it.

"You...". Thanitt said but again fell quiet. He didnt know how to say.

"Dont push yourself Thanitt. I know you wont accept it. Like i said, you are not required to answer me back". Copter said with a smile full of tears.

"No.. No.. I am not rejecting it. I.. I am shocked Copter. You love ME? How can you love me Copter? I am so full of flaws. I did so bad to our friend and you were the witness. Still. Even if you loved me, you should have hated me after that night Copter.

I am already so grateful to you that you didnt leave my hand. That you stayed by my side after everything. If there was anyone else, he would have left me on the spot. And here you are confessing your love for me? How...."? Thanitt couldnt hold himself to cry on the selflessness of the boy sitting in front of him. He had once again proved himself to be the best person as always.

"You should not love me Copter. You should hate me Copter". Thanitt broke down in front of Copter who embraced Thanitt in his arms.

"Its okay Thanitt. Its okay. Everyone is full of flaws. You are, so am i. What you did to Tee is not my place to judge you. You were blinded with your love or obsession for him, but that cant hide the good in you. You are so helpful, so caring for all. You always helped him and me. But yes i wont speak on his behalf. I dont know how he feels for you now. But, i never hated you Thanitt. I can never hate you. Yes it hurt me when i saw you with Tee, but that cannot lessen down the love i have for you.

It would be your call Thanitt. I would stay if you ask me, i would leave if you want me. But i will never leave your life. I cannot live without you Thanitt". Copter was crying with Thanitt.

"Dont cry. Shhhh. Dont cry. I dont know if i love you or not, but yes, i cannot live without you too Copter. Don't leave me ever please. Give me a bit time, i will make everything right. Dont leave me okay". Thanitt wiped their tears with a smile full of hope as he attached their foreheads together and Copter smiled too. He knew Thanitt would make everything right.

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"Tae... I have a class in one hour". Tee balanced himself on the table he was bend on.

"There is so much time Tee. I will make sure you reach on time". Tae breathed out. He was busy pistoning his hard length in and out of the heavenly hole.

"Its not about reaching on time... Its about being able to walk.. Nghhh. Moreeee". Tee started off with a protest but ended up spreading his legs more. He was loving it with closed eyes and open mouth. He had visited Engineering cafe for lunch but instead he was the lunch for a hungry wolf, in an empty classroom.

"Am close Tee". Tae let out a shaky breath. If he could, he would always stay inside Tee.

"Me too. Gawdddd. Its sooo good". Tee moaned out loud when Tae wrapped his fingers around Tee's leaking hard length and soon they both bursted out their load.

Tae slumped on Tee's back, making sure his uniform would not be wrinkled. They straightened up after a while as Tae helped Tee with cleaning and his uniform and took him to the cafe. Tee couldnt help but got red when Tae's friends winked at him. They head started their lunch with ofcourse tease and soon Tee started retorting back, adding to the spice. He looked around with a smile and a certain thought of spending time with his friends invaded his memory.

Tae saw him and he held his hand. He felt bad for Tee sometimes. He knew Tee would miss his friends, spending time, going to the bar or movie nights. Tae could fill every space but not Thanitt and Copter's place in Tee's life.

"Am okay Tae. Now i am going to my faculty. I have only one lecture. Want me to come"? Tee stood up from his seat followed by Tae and his friends.

"No love. I will be late. Attend your lecture and then go home to take rest. I will bring dinner. Need anything"? Tae racked his hair with love.

"Anything will do. Now go and get free soon". Tee kissed his lips and went to his car to go back to his faculty.

"Tee feels lonely without his friends. Dont you think you should ask Thanitt to talk to him"? Singto came forward.

"Its not my place Sing. What if i say and he complies just because of me? I want him to forgive him for a closure or start over on his own. Its him who has suffered not me. Honestly, i dont know what would have i done if it was me". Tae sighed. They all looked at each other and they all went to the field for hazers meeting.

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Copter was staring at Thanitt who was snoring softly with mouth open. They had free time so Thanitt opted for game match but in the middle of the match he fell asleep. He had his head on the couch while his arms lay limp at his sides. The console slipped down his fingers to the carpet. The screen was displaying LOOSER for past 15 minutes against Thanitt's name, but for the first time, or may be one of the many times, Copter was interested to watch the player than the game.

He scooted close to him, to see him upclose. Yes Thanitt had still not answered him, still he had become more attentive and caring towards Copter. Making food for him, or bringing lunch or dinner of his choice. He would often say that living with a partner was a good feeling.

Copter saw how his eyelids would flutter. Or how his eyebrows frown. His chest was heaving smooth. Up and down. His steady breaths, a proof of his peaceful sleep. His otherwise gel sleeked hair were hanging down his forehead.

With all the courage he had, he moved his hand to touch those soft hair. Down to his nose. His cheeks were smooth under his finger tips. His parted lips were making Copter thirsty. He licked his own lips to gulp down the saliva. He looked once again and sighed in relief to see Thanitt still sleeping. Copter leaned in closer, holding his breath as if he was afraid that Thanitt would wake up anytime. He wanted to live the moment as much as he could, for he didnt know of he would get the chance and courage again.

He closed his eyes as soon as his lips touched Thanitt's. It was just a touch, still Copter felt a happiness seeping inside his body. He back off, looking at Thanitt. Still no change in his posture. He was getting bit by bit brave. Another peck. One more. Just another. One last. He was so lost that he didnt realise he was almost hovering over Thanitt. He was jolted in shock when a pair of pale arms wrapped around his waist and pulled him into his lap.

He wanted to pull off in panic but a hand on his nape kept him stable and still with their lips still joined, but this time the other pair of lips were moving along his, or may be only the other pair was moving, since he was still under the impact of being caught red handed.

He surrendered, clutching Thanitt's tee shirt with both fists. He could face his anger and disgust later, but for now, he let himself loose. He cherished those lips, their softness, the taste until Thanitt pulled off. How he wished to whine at it. But he held himself back and readied his heart for the slam back.

"You stole my first kiss". He opened his eyes listening to the husky voice of Thanitt. He silently searched for any sign of upset, but all he saw was an amused grin.

"I....".

"Ssshhhhh". Copter was silenced by a big finger placed on his still wet lips. Thanitt glanced at those lips, smeared by their saliva and moved his finger as if spreading it like a balm. Without moving his finger off the lips, he looked at his baked cheeks. The dimples were red too, and it spread to his ears and neck.

Thanitt chuckled softly. He tucked the strands behind Copter's red ears, pulling and rubbing his earlobe for a while.

"Why are you silent hmmm? You didnt like it"? Thanitt adjusted him so that Copter was sitting comfortably in his lap.

"Arent you angry"?

"Why would i"?

"I....".

"You stole my first kiss hmmm. No i am not angry. When i said i will give us a chance, then i meant it. I want to take it seriously. If you are giving me so much without asking for anything, then i can make sure you are happy at least". Thanitt replied in a calm tone. This assurance was all Copter needed to be relaxed. He put his head in the crook of Thanitt's neck, letting him wrap his arms around his petite body.

"I was scared that i disgusted you". Only if Copter was not this close, there was no way Thanitt could have heard him murmur.

"You didnt do anything to disgust me Cop... Let yourself loose. There is no need to be insecure. Or bring out my past, because there is no comparison between the two of you, also, it would be unfair to you if i compare you with him.

You said that day, Tee was most probably my obsession, just because i took him for granted. I never loved him. I want to know you Copter. I want to love you. I want to see how things work in love. Will you give me a chance to know you". Thanitt softly asked him, cupping his cheeks.

Copter held his breath. He gasped. Was it a dream or a reality. Thanitt wanted to give it a chance. He wanted to proceed. He wanted to say so many things but nothing come out of his mouth. He was gaping like a fish and he knew what he could say as the best answer to Thanitt who was looking at him with expecting eyes.

"Yes....". He ghosted Thanitt's lips with his own, because he swear, he would never let the chance go.

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Lets meet in the chapter to find their LOVE CHEMISTRY ... Sooooooon..