Chapter 15. Thanitt Itthipatt

/*Its would be mostly monologue*

Tee Thanapon. The boy i knew since i stepped into my school. He was the only one i wanted to befriend and i stuck to the commitment i made with myself. I never talked to anyone and never let him too. But he didnt mind it.

He would let me drag anywhere, to the class rooms, to the cafe. To play or watching movies. We would sleep over at each other's place that we had kept out clothes and accessories at each other too.

He was the only one who understood me. His smile, his hug would make me relax and calm. Spending time with him was worth leaving everything.

I remember when he would fight with everyone who would bully me. Interesting no... But its a fact. I was bullied due to my glasses. I was a nerd. But there Tee would always stand by my side to support me. So how was it possible that i had fallen for him..

I realised it in high school. Repulsive teenage. I would be jealous of him talking to anyone. By then Copter had joined us too. And i was okay with him because Tee had not diverted his attention from me. He would still prioritize me. Copter... He was an easy going anyway. He loved to stay with us as long as he wanted and thats it.

Being a doctor wasnt my dream to say. I wanted to be an engineer. But Tee, he never liked to dirty his hands in oil and grease. So a neatness perfect person like him chose to be a doctor. Atleast they have gloves and no black stains.

So we chose medical. And its not that we lack in anything. We always held friendly competition between us to ace our skills and try to grab as many A's as we can.

But the problem started when my gorgeous Tee started his one night stands. It all began with a stupid bet among the class fellow at the year end party. And then ....

How i wish i could punch every girl's face who share her night or time with my Tee. He was mine to love. I had buried this secret within me for long that my heart had started to ache now. I wanted to shout at him. To confess my feelings. To hold him not as a friend, but as my love.

But.... Tee is straight. He never raised his eye on any boy. He always declined the offers from boys straight on their faces. He would go to club with us only to order a beer and girls would flock at him to be taken. And then... Wooosh he is gone for the night. And how much it pains me...

Everything was going fine until one day when we found out that Tae had proposed Tee to be his boyfriend. And Tee, he accepted. What the actual fuck...

Seriously....

Well Tae is the devil of enigeering. He is hot and handsome i must admit, but again, i am more handsome than him. He is all rough and tan. He is a hazer. A great one i should say because i have witnessed it. He is actually leading 3 years. Freshmen, his session mates and even his seniors listen to him.

I didnt realise making friends with Engineers will cost me my Tee. And i wonder was he even Straight? Or confused about his sexuality because man...he seriously quit all girls like they never existed.

Why.. Just why... And why were they taking steps so fast. One moment they met and the other moment they were boyfriends. And to say, Tae intorduced Tee to his parents too. What the fuck is going on.

I slapped myself for being so annoyingly slow. I should have atleast took my chance. I should have atleast confessed. To hell with his answer and the consequences. I wouldnt have to suffer the WHAT IFs.

Would it be selfish to say i felt kind of happy when Tee's parents rejected Tae. Well, he deserve it. No one is a perfect match for my Tee than me. But stupid Tee didnt leave Tae, instead he moved in with him. Really...

I tried to talk to him, to knock some sense in the love stuck fool but no, he slapped me. He shouted on me and just because he had that engineer's support, he quit talking to me. For the forst time in years, Tee Thanapon, didnt talk to me for days.

Damn. I wish to kill Tae. Its all because of him. He is the reason Tee drifted apart from me. But he doesnt know, Tee cannot stay away from me for long. And that what happened exactly.

I got Tee back but this time i had to play very smart. I need to be in his good books even if that requires to gallop the bitter candy aka Tae Darvid. They dont know how much i hate him. And that i am too stubborn to let Tee go. He is mine thats it.

I dont know whats the matter going on that Tee finally got into his senses. He took the best decision of his life, to break up with Tae.

Duh. My Tee so gorgeous and Tae so rough and unorganised. Tee is only my match. My perfect Tee. And finally he agreed to live with me. At my place. My dream come true to have Tee living with me under same roof. And in my bedroom too.

/*Monologue ends*/

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Present Time.

"What happened Tee? Didnt like the food or room? Want to change"? Thanitt asked Tee watching him play with the food.

Tee heaved a sigh, dropping the fork back. He took the glass of water sipping it slowly.

"You didnt inform my parents right"? He asked Thanitt in a calm tone. Thgh Thanitt wasnt expecting him to be this composed. He was waiting for him to break down in front of him. Talk about how Tae mistreated him so that he would feed his mind with hatred for Tae. But...

"Yes. No Tee i didnt inform them. Dont you trust me". Thanitt held his hand on the table, followed by Tee's gaze.

"I only trust you Thanitt. I know you wont leave me ever. You wont break my trust. Yeah"? Tee said and how Thanitt wished to dance in joy. He won again. He won against Tae Darvid, only if he had taken notice of Tee's tone.

"Great. Now finish the dinner and tomorrow we will go out". Thanitt said hiding his biggest grin.

"Yeah. Call Copter too". Tee held his fork back.

"Copter? Why? I mean ... Copter is busy tomorrow. He had to visit his parents. So he might not be available". Thanitt lied through his teeth.

Tee just looked at him for a while and shrugged his shoulder without saying a word. They finished the food in silence before Tee helped Thanitt in doing the dishes and then went to his own bedroom.

"I am too drained Thanitt. I would sleep now. Good night". He bid his goodbye and went inside closing the door. Thanitt wished to bang on the door in irritation. He wanted to hug him. To feel him against his body but...

'Chai'yen Thanitt. I will cut the wings so that the bird wont able to fly ever'. He planned to himself and went to his own bedroom to make programs on how to keep Tee engaged.

On the other hand, Tee clasped his mouth with both hands as he ran to the ensuit bathroom. He opened the tap before dialing Tae, who was waiting for his call.

Tee felt his heart squeezed in pain looking at the deshelved Tae. His eyes were red and swollen. His cheeks were tear strained. And lots of tears pooled again in both of their eyes to see each other after hours that seemed centuries for them.

"Tae....". Tee whispered in tears. Although his room was locked, so was the bathroom, still, it was Thanitt's place and he could not trust him.

"Tee. I cannot live without you Tee. Please ... It hurts to see me living with the monster". Tae wailed silently.

"Am scared Tae. I miss you". Tee caressed the mobile as if touching his face. They both were looking at each other with tears rolling down and trembling lips.

"Just 2 days Tee. I promise i will bring him down. Trust me". Tae said wiping his tears harshly. He could not let his love live with Thanitt. He could expect anything from him.

"I will be waiting Tae. I trust you and i love only you". Tee wiped his eyes too. He had to be strong not to leave any loop in their plan. He didnt want to agitate Thanitt to take any extreme measures. At this point he not only had to expose him but had to keep him safe from his intentions too.

He had seen that glint in his eyes the way Thanitt was holding his hand or moving his thumb over his palm. This wasnt how friends used to comfort each other.

They bid their goodbyes and Tee took a quick bath before slipping in the cold bed. A place empty and scary without Tae. He didnt know how long he tossed and turned before the goddess of sleep lulled him for fee hours of sleep. Few hours to hold his Tae in his arms, in his dreams.

The next day was as busy as Thanitt had planned. But nothing could cheer Tee thgh he was trying his best not to show anything and may be he was successful that Thanitt didnt notice anything or may be he ignored.

Tee was aimlessly looking around here and there in the lake park while Thanitt was away to fetch cold drinks, when his sight caught a familiar figure sitting at a distance. He had disguised himself in hoodie and mask but how couldnt Tee recognise him.

Even if the said person was sitting a bit far, he could feel those eyes looking at him with same love and affection. How he wanted to run to him and he might have ruined everything only if Thanitt had not returned with his favorite drink and fries.

He looked at Thanitt and then at the distant table, but it was empty now. His heart ached in pain but it was good for them. They had to make sure nothing gets messed up.

"What are you looking at Tee"? Thanitt turned to follow his gaze but found no one.

"No one. There was a baby. Very cute. I was looking at him". Tee managed to smile at Thanitt, taking a sip to calm his fast heart beat. Tae was surely a baby. His baby.

Thanitt took him to amusement park after lunch and then lush dinner. They were back late at night and Tee was so tired that he went direct to his bedroom.

Thanitt grabbed a chilled beer from fridge, sitting in the lounge.

1. 2. 3...

"Thanitt. The air con is not working". Tee came out with a frown. "It was fine in the morning". He held the control to Thanitt who took it and went to check himself.

"I am sorry Tee. May be some electric issue. Would call the repair mechanic in the morning". He said in an apologetic tone. "Umm.. You can crash in my room thgh". He suggested nonchalantly.

"Your room? How about the lounge"? Tee said thgh he knew Thanitt wont agree. .

"Oh come on Tee. Its not like we havent slept together. Go take bath and come. You must be tired and we have classes in the morning". He patted Tee's hair, ushering him to hurry up.

Tee felt his heart would leap out of his chest. He tried to take a longer bath to prolong the time but no... He couldnt. He wore one of the oversized shirts of Tae and his pajama pents before going to knock at Thanitt's bedroom.

"Come in Tee its open". He turned the knob to find Thanitt standing by the dressing, drying his hair.

"Aowh. You look cute in this oversized shirt. When did you buy it"? Thanitt chuckled but didnt demand any answer thgh.

Tee settled on one side of the bed curling in the duvet that he brought from his bedroom that he was using. Thanitt saw him and smiled inwardly. He didnt say anything. He turned off the lights and took his side of the bed to lay down. Not intruding Tee's personal space.

How naive Tee to think that the night would be peaceful. He waited for a while and all he heard were the snors coming from Thanitt. He sighed in relief and closed his eyes to sleep.

He must have fallen into deep sleep but his instincts were right. He felt the bed dip behind him. A pale arm sneaked around his torso, pulling him slightly back to hug. He was stone rigid. Not even breathing loud. Too shock to react. Thanks to the dim lights, he tightly shut his eyes, chanting Tae's name in his heart. As if he would magically appear from the door.

His body shivered at the minty breath tickling his neck, followed by a kiss and a whisper in his ear.

"Dont worry my Tee. I will always love you and there is no one to come between us. I will make your heart turn to me because there can be no one on the earth who could love you more than me. Especially not that Tae. Sleep well my love". Thanitt bid his goodnight and laid back to sleep, but didnt remove his hand from Tee's slender waist.

It might be his sound sleep but Tee, he slept all night, muffling his tears in the duvet, laying unmoving in a fear to wake up Thanitt.

Tae was hundred percent right about Thanitt and he had started to experience it now.