I had another heart attack. Because I was careless and sad. Am I dead? Hell do I even have the right to ask? I did this to myself. All because a boy didn't like me.....how stupid.

My poor dad. I'm so sorry, pops. You don't deserve this. I don't know what I was thinking.

"Nemo?" My dads voice called to me.

"Loni?" A woman's voice. Sounded familiar. I think it was Becks. It sounded like her. Damn I had a heart attack in front of her. She was probably scared out of her mind.

Wait...I can hear them....I'm alive! Oh thank god. I will never take a other moment of my life for granted. I hereby denounce all feelings of affection for anyone who isn't my dad or Becks.....

Okay maybe not denounce forever, but temporarily.

A warm touch on my cheek made my eyes flutter a bit.

"That's right baby girl. Open your eyes. I'm right here." Dad said. He began to stroke my cheek. And I could feel him plant his lips on my head.

Come on, Meloni. Open yours eyes.

"Come on, chica. You can do it." A hand was around mine and I knew instantly it was Becks. She squeezed it hard. And my eyes fluttered again but they didnt open. Jesus, this is actually really tiring.

"Come one, Nemo. One more time. Please." I could feel the despair in his voice and it made my heart ache. With every ounce of will I had, I forced my eyes open.

My eyelids felt so heavy but I fought the urge to close them. "Papa?" My voice came out hoarse and rough. My throat was so dry. And I realized how thirsty I was.

"Oh my baby." He whispered as he began to pull me into his arm. I could feel his body shaking. I think he was crying. My eyes began to water. I didn't mean for this to happen. "I'm sorry, papa." I said his shoulder.

I glanced over and saw Becks patiently waiting. "I'm sorry to you too." I said looking at her. My dad had let me out of his grasp and Becks arms immediately replaced his embrace.

"You scared the shit out of me!" She said into my arms. I could feel her tears on my arm. And I held her tighter.

"Meloni." Dads voice broke our sweet moment. His voice was stern and close to angry and hurt. And he used my name. So I know he's upset.

"I'll go get the doctor." Said Becks. She shot me a goodluck look and left me and my dad .

"Why did ignore every single one of your alarms? Did you even take one of your meds yesterday? Did you do your treatments? Did you even take your inhaler?" He said his voice rising slightly with every question.

"No." I answered honestly. There was no point in me lying. I mean I had a heart attack, it would be kind of pointless to lie.

"What happened baby? What made forget to do that? Ever since we left the Mancini's, youve been acting so sad. Was it something Tate did?" He asked. The mention of Tate made me tense.

"Did Becks-" he cut me off, answering my thoughts.

"No. She didn't tell me baby. Im not stupid. I saw the way you looked at him at dinner. And your lips were swollen. I could tell something happened, I was just waiting for you to tell me." He said as he stroked my cheek.

My cheeks heated. I felt terrible. "I know that your upset. But it never should've gotten to the point that your forgot to-"

"I know. I know. I don't know what I was thinking. I was just..I don't know. I'm sorry.." was all I could manage. I couldn't really defend myself. What I did was incredibly stupid. All because of a fucking boy.

A knock at the door caught our attention. "Come in!" My dad said. And my lovely Dr. Tyler. Oh shit.

"Now, what the actual fuck, kiddo?" Tyler said. I could hear the anger in his voice. "Did i or did I not tell you how critical it was for you to be taking your med and doing treatments were? Because I'm very sure I made that clear." He said. His voice was cold. He wasn't going to hold anything back. And he had every right.

"How bad was it?" I asked

"Well in short. You need a new heart. Cause this one is about to give out on you. So you are on the waiting list, due to the severity of the situation you are pretty high on the list, but there still a wait. With that being said until we are able to get you that heart , you can't be in any stressful environments." He said sternly.

"Which means?" I asked.

"Which means I will be pulling you out of school and you'll be moving back into the hospital and we'll continue your education like we've done in the past. I will be quitting my job at the Mancini's and help with your home schooling and you will- My dad went on and on. And the more he spoke the more I felt like shit.

I didn't want him to give up his job, I didnt want to spend my life waiting for heart that might never come. I didn't want this. "But I don't want to." I whispered to myself.

"You think we want to. I was excited and ready to see you walk across that stage with your friends and go to your prom. But because you've been so careless lately we don't have a choice." My dad said.

"I told you what could happened. And I dont know what happened to make you forget something like that it clearly this is the better choice. At least here, we will know for fact that you are taking you meds and doing your treatments til your new heart come along. Til then, your back at square one." Tyler said. I knew he was upset, probably just as much as my Dad.

I kept my mouth shut. There was no reason for me to argue. The one condition of it all was for me to take care of myself and I wasn't doing it. So I just nodded and agreed to the terms.

"Good. Me and your dad are gonna get started on this paper work. And then we are gonna head over to your house and grab some stuff for your stay." Tyler said. He didnt look at me much. He just said what he needed to say and then left. I knew he was mad but I never seen him this mad to the point he won't look at me.

I really fucked up this time.

I watched as they left and waited for Becks to come in.

When she finally came in, I could see how exhausted and sad she was. God damn it. "I'm sorry." I said again.

Her gaze moved up to me and she made her way to my bed. "Good. You better be." She grabbed my hands and brought it up to her lips.

"Did your dad tell you?" She said.

I nodded. "Yep. I have to stay in the hospital til I can get a new heart."

A sad sigh came from her lips. "I'm gonna miss my partner in crime. But if this for the best then I'll be okay as long as your okay." She said with a sad smile.

I scooted over in the bed and opened up my arms. She kicked off her shoes and took off her jacket and made her way into bed with me. I cradled her in my arms and held her close to my chest.

"That was the first time." she said against my chest.

"First time?" I asked pulling back to look at her.

"That was the first time I had ever been that scared. So don't you ever do some shit like that again, okay?" She said staring me directly in the eyes as tears ran down her cheek. I wiped away every single one and kissed the top of her forehead. She snuggled against me.

"I promise. I will never be that careless again." I said fighting back my own tears. I squeezed her r against me and we fell asleep in each other's arms.

I promise I will never be that careless again. And I meant it.