Sunday, 09.19

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"I don't think Isaiah fucking wit' me anymore. And I ain't even do nothing." Laying back on the queen sized bed, placing the phone up to my ear again.

Capri was supposed to be giving me some advice but, she more so giving some nonsense answers. There was no one else I could call and spill my emotions to. My sister was busy with working so I hadn't heard from her in awhile. And, spilling all of this to Amir would have made matters even worst.

"Well, you did hang out with Amir when they clearly were beefing. You could've came to my house instead, shit."

"You're supposed to be helping me not throwing the shit back in my face."

The sound of her blowing out a breath came through the phone speaker. "Sorry. Why don't you just go talk to himForce him to get to hear your side and maybe he'll let you hear his. I mean your room is directly across from his."

"And if that doesn't work? Or what if he fails to give me my apology that I deserve?"

"Don't look forward to an apology focus on talking. Things need to be good between y'all before you start asking for things."

"You're right." I sighed into the phone, sitting myself up and swinging my legs over to the edge. "Um, I'll call you back later and tell you how everything goes."

"Good luck mamas."

Clicking the red button, I tossed my phone to the side. At part of me didn't want to even go through with the plan. But, I wanted Isaiah back in my life per usual. Like I said it's something about him, I just don't know what it is. Sighing for the hundredth time I stood up from the bed and walked towards the mirror.

Was I supposed to wear something elseI stared at the mini shorts and the black lace bra I had been wearing. My hair was in a messy bun and I didn't have plans on fixing it or changing. Walking away from the mirror I opened the door and walked across the hall to Isaiah's room. Just as I began to knock I heard moans coming from the other side. Fuck.

Turning around I walked back into my room and sat beside the door with it cracked halfway. Tiara had to be the one in there with him. I remember what Monroe told me the other day, that was his first love. If they end up back together there's nothing I could do. It was all too much to think about plus, I'm still not sure if I like him. How could you know anywaysIt's only been a couple of days.

6:01pm.

Hours later I heard his door open, peeking out of mine it indeed was Tiara. He kissed her cheek and she went on her merry way. I waited until he went back in his room and stood up from the floor. Walking out of my room, I went and knocked on his door. It opened and my whole train of thought disappeared.

"What" His voice was raspy and sounded like pure sex. Why did this man have to be so fineHe was shirtless only wearing black jeans.

"We need to talk." I said above a whisper.

He shook his head. "We ain't got nothin' to talk about ma'."

"Yes we do." I simply said, squeezing in between the small space entering his room. "Listen, I'm sorry for leaving school to hang out with Amir. When you hit me it brung back old memories from when I was a child— my father would beat on me and my sister when we didn't listen. Hanging out with Amir would be my only outlet to ease the pain and then it was like I didn't exist to you after. Then yesterday night you were simply mad at me for talking to somebodyWas I supposed to sit there and just shut my mouth" At this point tears slowly started falling out of my eyes and I quickly wiped them away. "The last thing I want is for you to constantly be annoying with me, Isaiah. I actually like you."

He sighed, turning to face me and closing the door. "Domonique, look. I'm sorry I ain't mean to lay no hands on you no matter how much shit I talk to you, that wasn't in my intentions to do. Once you told me you went to hang out wit' Amir, I ain't know how to take that shit. You seen me and that nigga wasn't and will never be on good terms, I felt like that was some wild shit you did to get back at me. As for you talkin' to Kalaan I don't know what it was, I ain't you talking to another nigga." He shrugged, leaning back on the door. "Shit, I like yo' mean ass too."

He likes me. A bitch ain't ever feel more happier in life than now. Those tears quickly went away and a smile came across my face. Although, it was night time it had seemed like the sun was shinning bright in my head at least.

"So we good now" I asked, keeping the smile.

He nodded. "Yup. Come here."

I walked up to him, wrapping my arms around his neck as he placed his around my waist. It felt nice being back in his embrace and smelling his scent. However, that soon ended when he tried kissing me and I pulled away.

"What nowI can't kiss you"

"NoI don't know where yo' mouth been, I heard ."

He chuckled. "Fair enough. Come cuddle wit' me then, I changed the sheets."

"Fine."

For the remainder of the night we did nothing by watch cartoons together. It felt like how things should be and I would hope it'd stay this way for a while.

Isaiah and I have grown closer over these past two weeks. It's not just threats and short conversations anymore, we actually have nice wholesome conversations. And, the sex is pure . That man is blessed, super blessed. We haven't been using protection, only on rare occasions though. I know it only takes one time but so far— nothing has unexpectedly happened. Amir and I haven't spoken since my slip up, he hasn't even been attending school lately. It seemed odd but I didn't think much of it. Tiara constantly gives me dirty looks when I leave the house but — I guess that's just the .

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" I somewhat screamed, we were in the girls bathroom skipping class. "You seen what this bitch Alexis posted under my shit"

Walking out of the stall she nodded. "That bitch better not try anything, it's on sight if she do."

"Big factsHer ass was on mute for a while and it needs to stay there."

Turning my attention back towards the mirror, there was a glow of happiness all around me. Which only lasted for a couple of seconds, unfortunately. A rush of throw up built up in the back of my throat as I rushed into a stall throwing up everything I had ate. This has been going on for three days, maybe the food I've been eating is upsetting my stomach. Capri came and held my hair while I finished emptying out my stomach. When I was finally finished I stood up and flushed the toilet. Coming out of the stall I went straight to the sink and rinsed my mouth with warm water, soon popping a piece of gum into my mouth.

"Are you okayThrowing up like this isn't normal and only happens if your pregnant."

I shook my head. "Isaiah has been getting us food from this new spot, it's probably not agreeing with my stomach. And, I'm not pregnant"

"Have y'all been using protection Does he even pull out"

"Sometimes." I replied. "And, again sometimes. Although, he never wants to pull out of this good pussy." I smirked.

"Something's I don't need to hear."

The bell rung and we made our way out of the bathroom and joined the other students in the hallways. While walking I was hoping that it was food that got me sick and that I wasn't pregnant. This isn't the right time to have a baby, I'm only seventeen and Isaiah is nineteen it wouldn't work. Plus, I don't believe in abortions so keeping the baby would be the only option. These are things I don't want to think of until I'm twenty.

𝐡𝐢 𝐛𝐚𝐛𝐢𝐞𝐬! 𝐢𝐦 𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐚𝐢𝐭, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐮𝐩𝐝𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐬𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐝𝐮𝐥𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐤𝐞𝐧𝐝! — 🐙