If a dream breaks in a single moment..The world seems lonely

The next I opened my eyes We were at the hospital,I sat outside the emergency room,On the chairs crying,I cant believe my god sent brother,my monu is in that room fighting for his life.

I sat there shell shocked ,not even a word is coming from my mouth,The scene where he dragged me and got hit is playing in my mind continuously,I faintly remember aadi try to console me,But I was in my state of world,mumbling monu now and then.

Just then doctor came out,We both stood up abruptly.

"Monu's family?"....We nodded.

"Well you are very lucky,I think god was on your side today,There is no internal bleeding anywhere,He just has sprain on his leg and bruises on his body,He lost some blood,And we are doing blood transfusion",Doctor said. I couldn't stop myself hearing monu is safe...I fell on my knees and started to cry continuously thanking doctor.

"Dont worry madam,He is fine",Doctor assured me and left.

Aadi came and kneeled beside me,He wiped my tears tenderly.."Dont cry angel he is safe,Now lets get you to eat something",he said in a concerned voice.

But now I was not in a mood to accept his concern,Sometimes when you are angry,You tend to loose your cool,I felt the same.

"You are asking me to eat,Are you crazy?Monu is there on hospital bed,And you wanted me to eat",I literally caught his collar and demanded.I did not stop there..

"Do you know who is he?What he means to me?He understood me like a mother,Took care of me like a father,teased me like a brother,Pampered me like a friend....Do you understand what he means to me,NO YOU DONT!!",I shouted,I know Aadi is not to be blamed,but I was not in my senses.

I remembered the day I met monu..

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I was around seven,I was playing in my chawl's park,There were my brother's gang playing cricket,A small boy of five was about to join the group,But the big children pushed him and made fun of him.

That boy has dirt all over his face,His shirt was torn,He went and sat in a corner and silently started crying. I went and sat beside him.

"Friends?",I offered my hand.

"But I am a olphn,I stay at olpanage,Y u want friend with me?",He asked cutely.

"You are orphan because You are a special,And now I will be yoour friend you wont be orphan anymore",I wiped his tears.

From that day we developed a special bond,I used to share food,He used to help me in getting fairy uncle's groceries or other things,We both became very close to fairy uncle...A year passed,One day that boy came cring to me.

"I am bad taalaa,vely bad,Those people who came for adoption did not take me,They said I look uagly,They inchulted me a lott",He cried.I consoled him.

It was my eight birthday,and I only made one wish that we will adopt That boy,But my father denied,we are already poor and cannot afford one more,They also cut my friendship with that boy,I cried and got a severe fever and was admitted in hospital. After some days,I was still ill,I was bought to life by hearing that boy shouting "Taalaaa",Later I got to know,He was adopted by fairy uncle,Because he can afford it,and as he is alone,Monu would be his solace.

Till that day that boy did not have a name..Me and fairy uncle together named him MOHITH and lovingly called him MONU!!

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"Angel I know you are angry,But please dont blame me,You are breaking my heart!",I was bought back to the hospital world by aadi speaking.

"SHUT UP AADI! This is all because of you,Monu is here because of you,If you wouldn't have come in my life again,This would not happen,You know what! We are not meant to be with one other,Our togetherness only causes pain!"

"So aadi I request you to please leave me,Go away from my life!If you want to mess up my life again, just stay away this time. I've had enough. My heart can't take any more pain...You cannot understand aadi! Things can't stay good for us, or maybe they are the way they are because of you. What if you're not worth it? What if they'll be like this for the rest of our life? This thing scares me!",I spoke bitterly,He has pained expression on his face by now.But I did not stop,my anger was taking control of me.

"AADI!Do you understand how I feel?I feel hurt. And I feel like nothing good will happen to me ever again. I've changed my life. I've started my job and I moved far away from home because I'm the kind of person that when she's hurt she runs away. I wanted a new start.Away from the people that broke my heart. But now, after a while, you, MR.AADITYA KASHYAP ,the man I've changed my life for wants me back. And he wants to come in here. I'm mad, I'm scared, and more than anything I'm terrified because there wasn't a day that passed by that I didn't miss you. But I dealt with this. With missing you. I kept it inside.... I've started a new life. And just when I was so close of being okay again, you come back to my life and say all these things.What if you'll get to me again? What if I fall for it? What if next time I won't be able to recover anymore. I would give anything to have you back again, but what if love will destroy me this time?"I said sadly.

"Angel ..."......"I AM NOT DONE AADI",I shouted.

"Leave me aadi,I cant take risk with you again,I cant face my insecurities anymore,Go away from my life,never return back!"

"No angel,I wont,I can give up my life,but cant go away from you ..You know why?Because,I won't forgive myself if I walk away from you...I'll spend the rest of my life thinking how different everything could have been if I stayed"

"Aadi if you Loved me truly,You will go,You will value my happiness and my happiness is with your leaving"

"Angel is there anything I could say or do to make you stay with me,To change your mind?" ,He cupped my face and wiped some tears that escaped.

"NO",I said determined ...But inside I was breaking into million pieces,My heart shattered.

He turned back ..."I am doing this for your happiness,but never think I will ever stop loving you",He said and started walking away from me...

"Aadi I want you to know one thing before you go..I LOVE YOU AADI FOREVER AND ALWAYS,And trust me even if I'll be hurt again, I'll still choose you. Even if I'll feel that pain again, I would give anything to be in your arms again,I was,am,and always will be ONLY YOURS!!",I said...He turned back towards me with a tear stained face.

"",With that he gave me a sad smile and walked away from my life also taking my heart and soul with him.

The weather also became disturbed,Wind started blowing with high speed,Thunders were roaring in the sky,Dark clouds casted the sky bringing darkness to the place and also to their lives...There was a storm going on inside their two hearts,which were silently weeping.

Main Taan Jiyan Na Maraan

Haay Ve Dass Main Ki Karan

Dil Jude Bina Hi Tut Gaye

Hath Mile Bina Hi Chhut Gaye

Ki Likhe Nae Lekh Kismat Ne

Baar Baar Ron Ankhiyan Tainu Jo Na Vekh Sakiyan

Khoh Leya Hai Yaar Kudarat Ne

Kattan Main Kiven Din Teri Saun Tere Bin

Main Taan Jiyan Na Maraan

Chhan Se Jo Toote Koi Sapna

Jag Soona Soona Laage

Jag Soona Soona Laage

Koi Rahe Na Jab Apna

Jag Soona Soona Laage

Jag Soona Soona Laage

Yeh Kyun Hota Hai

Jab Yeh Dil Rota Hai

Royen Sisak Sisak Ke Hawaayein

(I feel neither alive nor dead

Please tell me what should I do

The bonds between the hearts broke before they could join

The hands got seperated even before they met

What has been written in the destiny

My eyes cry continuously without a glimpse of You, My Soulmate

It seems that nature has stolen You from Me

How do I pass the days and nights without You, My Soulmate

I feel neither alive nor dead

If a dream breaks in a single moment

The world seems lonely

The world seems lonely

When no loved one remains

The world seems lonely

The world seems lonely

Why does this happen

When this heart cries out

Even the wind seems as if it is crying?)

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Lol....I know you are ready with chappals,tomatoes,eggs and what not to throw on me...some might be even planning my murder...please have patience..part 2 is still there.

How did you feel about this chapter,Trust me you can scold me,I wont mind..lol!!FINALLY AADI AND MONU ARE BROTHERS...i.e,FAIRY UNCLE as tara calls,or GAUTAM IS THEIR DAD,do you guys remember I said fairy unncle was handicapped,N in last chap Mr.Murthy said he made gautam handicapped,got the link?

But this is a much needed emotional outburst between them,Often we take stupid decisions in haste and repent later...I do that a lot in my anger.