(TITLE TRANSLATION-No one knows,how and when our life turns)

I transferred the soup into the bowl and took it to aadi. He was fast asleep. I shaked him a little,he woke up,and sat with the support of bed board.

"I bought you soup , have it",I said and was about to go.He caught my wrist.

"Did you eat anything angel?",He asked with a lot of concern with his eyes.He has a fever and is thinking about me?Does he really care or he is acting like he does?These all thoughts made me mad.

"Look aadi,Just because I rescued you,and helped you it does not mean that we are okay.So stop behaving like we are best of friends",I said angrily.

"Yaa i heard that,and i will keep that in my mind,now,did you eat your dinner?",he asked.Did he not understand a word of what I said!!!

"No I will eat later,after you complete your soup",i checked his temperature with a thermometer,"You still have 101 degrees fever,Take medicines after you eat",I said and placed the bowl on a tray infront of him.

He did not even take the spoon instead he opened his mouth motioning me to feed him.I was about to go...He caught me by my shoulder and made me sit infront of him..."Please angel",He pouted.

Arghh!!How can some one resist that face,i nodded and took the spoon and was about to feed him.

"One minute angel",he said ,he got up and went somewhere,after two minutes he came with a plate of rotis and some curry.........."But aadi you should not eat them,eat soup",i said.

"These are for you angel"

I fed him a spoon of soup,he immediately frowned,what does it not taste good?I thought.

"But angel this is chicken soup"......."yes,it is".

"But you are not comfortable making non veg?".........."Appu helped me".

By this time i got angry,"What happened,Why are you asking me all these questions,Did you care before whether I was comfortable or not,So why r u acting like you are concerned now,Just shut up and eat",I shouted furiously,He flinched but i did not care ,I kept feeding him.

Suddenly he took a piece of roti and bought it near my mouth.

"What are you doing aadi?",i am irritated now.

"Feeding you like you are feeding me.You see this is the best way,In my opinion we should feed each other like this everytime and daily,It also ensures us that each of us ate well",he said enthusiastically.

"Look dont irritate me,I will eat after you complete your soup,I dont want to eat by your hands",I said harshly.He became sad and kept the plate aside.A little of soup did come out on his lips and I wiped it with my thumb.

"You know angel no one did ever feed me lovingly like this,my granny and granpa didn't have time for me,my nannies did not care about me.",He said sadly...."But now not anymore,I am not orphan,I have you angel,Now you will feed me daily like this,I want compensation for all that times I never got fed as a baby.",he said.

"Is that a request or order?And why do you think that I will feed you daily,God gifted you two strong hands ,eat by yourself".

"Please angel,Idea,I will cut my hands,Then you will feed me na?",WHAT!!! Is he mad???He will even do that,He cut his wrist already for coming here.

"NOOO!! Dont do that,I will feed you daily",I said,now i have to handle this grown up baby called aadi.

Later i fed him gave him tablets and told him to sleep.He moved towards me,He kept his head on my lap.

"I cannot sleep,sing me a lullaby",God!!why am I stuck with him.Any way I want him to sleep,,I want some alone time for my self,to figure out my feelings.I started humming something and kept on caressing his hair.

"Sleep now",i said.

He pointed his forehead..."Angel,wont you kiss me good night?",he questioned adorably.

I kissed his forehead,Then he pointed towards his lips,I glared him in return,He immediately closed his eyes and hugged my waist.In no time he was sleeping.

I took the tray kept it on the table,I dont want to eat anything.I went to the balcony and sat on the floor.I started thinking about my life.How pathetic I am!! I cant even hold a grudge properly,I am slowly melting towards aadi!!Why did aadi come in my life again?Why is he hell bent on gaining me and my love?I hate my life.....Tears started flowing.Thank god I atleast have a job,that i am able to live independently,Otherwise how would have I survived in this harsh world?

And I am so ashamed and guilty that today because of me aadi went to jail,Suddenly i got reminded how my mom said to control my words .

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"Amma stop pulling my hair,Do it slowly with love."

"Then learn plaiting your own hair,What if you are needed to live somewhere else in the future for your job or something else,You should learn everything beforehand",mom said.

My mom gave a sad laugh..."Tara remember one thing,Only two things are important to make our place and gain our respect in this world,One is your speech(The way you speak),Second is money.These hold utmost importance,You should be very careful,in choosing the words you speak,WORDS have the capacity to make or break a relation,especially you tend to speak nonsense when you are angry,try to change that,words spoken once cannot be taken back....and second is money,MONEY has the capacity to make us gain anything or loose everything.And there is only respect in earning money by doing hardwork,Not by earning it in illegal ways".

"But amma you forgot onething more important than these both...Its "LOVE", it has the power to change anything and evrything .See one day it will change my aadi too".

"Tara,First atleast search for him,You are mad,You just saw his photo and started loving him"

"Amma i found him,He studies in DECCAN UNIVERSITY,but we cant afford it amma,its only for the richest people,but i will try to get into it through scholarship,after all i need to fulfill my promise I made to my fairy uncle!!".

"And you will tara,You know aadi is very lucky to have you,you love him so much na"....."Yes amma he has became my life and my soul,from the day uncle said me about him".

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Yes mom you are right,i lost,my concept of love lost.....I thought.I started sobbing again.I cried for the way my life turned,I cried that people i trusted most decieved me,I cried at myself for becoming so selfish to the extent of sending aadi to jail,I cried for loving him in the first place.I opened my phoned and switched on the radio,suddenly the song started to play,APPROPRIATE to my situation i thought,and cried more listening to that song.

Bheegi Bheegi Si Hai Raaten

Bheegi Bheegi Yaaden

Bheegi Bheegi Baaten

Bheegi Bheegi Aankhon Mein Kaisi Nami Hai

Sapnon Ka Saya Palkon Pe Aya

Pal Mein Hasaya Pal Mein Rulaya

Phir Bhi Yeh Kaisi Kami Hai

Na Jaane Koi Kaisi Hai Yeh Zindagaani Zindgaani

Hamari Adhuri Kahani!!!

(The nights are wet,The memories are cloudy,The talk is silent

What kind of dampness is there in the wet eyes The shadow of dreams came in the eyes

For a moment it made me smile, yet in another moment it made me cry

And still it feels I'm missing something/someone

No one knows how is this life!!

What Will happen to our incomplete story

Half awake half asleep,Your eyes look like they damp with crying with my name

God is upset, everyone and everything is gone

The heart is broken, how can I accept living with you ??)

I woke up in the middle of night,I didn't find tara anywhere,The food was kept on the dining table,She still didn't eat.I called her but got no response ...The light of the balcony is on. I went to see who is there.

There tara was crying with her earphones on,so she didn't listen when I called.I went back took the plate and sat beside her.

She wiped her tears and looked at me in a questioning gaze.I pointed her dinner plate.

"I will eat later",she mumbled and started looking at the moon.

I started feeding her,"Now you have to eat angel,I trusted you once, I am not going to trust you again".

"Same with me aadi",she mumbled eating.

"what angel?"

"I trusted you with my love and myself for once aadi,I am not going to trust you again,I decided.Just go back aadi,release me and us from this pain,I am not going to love you again.",she replied sternly.

"You dont need to love me back angel,This time I have the love enough for both of us, for you and me,And I decided that I will love you so much that you will not be left with any other option,other than loving me back".He peaked my forehead,eyes,cheeks ,nose and lips softly.He hugged me tenderly to him.

"I LOVE YOU ANGEL.....BE READY ANGEL!! TO GET DROWNED IN MY LOVE...I WILL FIND A WAY WHICH CAN LEAD US BACK TO EACH OTHER,YOU JUST KEEP YOUR DOORS OPEN FOR FORGIVENESS. THIS TIME IT WILL BE A PERFECT ENDING FOR US....I WILL MAKE SURE THAT YOU WILL FALL FOR ME AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN...SO GET READY MY DEAR ANGEL..

TO BE MINE AND TO SAY I LOVE YOU AADI AGAIN".

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How did you like the update guys,i was so busy today with dandhiya and all but i wanted to update it for my dear readers who are reading voting and commenting.

Sorry if her mothers words bored you,but i wanted to convey a message that we should all b independent,and we sometimes loose important people in our life due to the words we say when we are angry at them.If its boring please inform me,i will stop such philosophical things from next chap on.

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