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What is happening,my dad was never ever angry on me,he always called me his princess.Why is dad angry?And what is this returning something ?return to who ?And what is that anything he did not want to return?I was thinking about all these that i forgot to cook.Then i remembered about cooking.what to do?...ya there is only one person who could help me.I called her.

"Hey appu",I shouted....."Why do u always shout in my ears girl,i dont want to become deaf,atleast not untill i get married",she shouted back.

"Its 100 appu!!",i said sadly.(wenever anyone of us is in problem or emergency v msg r say as 100(police no)).

"Oh what happened?",she is concerned now..."I need to cook chicken and that goat too",i cried.

"Yayyyy...so u finally decided to start NV, i said na u cant resist chicken ...its so tasty...yummm,once you start u can never get away from that taste."

"No stupid it's a order from my monster husband.Now shut up and give me all the details and recipe!!",i said.She gave me all the details ,i noted each and everything.Later i went to market to get all indegrients. But,i forgot to ask how to get chicken.

I noticed a chicken shop went inside ...the butcher was cutting that flesh,i wanted to throw up,but i controlled myself and turned to him.

"Hmm..give me a hen and a goat!!",I asked him.He looked at me like i have grown two heads.There was an eldery lady beside me.

"cooking for the first time beta?"she asked...."yeah..hmm..for my husband ",i said nervously.She gave me a pleasant smile and helped me buying appropriate quantity for 2 members.

I came home and cooked everything as per the instructions of appu. At last i finished cooking.It smells great ,but i dont know how it is,i cant even taste it...i prayed god that salt and spice should be appropriate,i freshened up went to his room and called him for dinner.

I served him .he took a spoonful in his mouth.My heart was in my hand.Did he like it?Is it okay?....Then he gestured me to sit beside him.

He took a spoonful and came to feed me.I dodged the spoon."Aadi!what are you doing?", i shouted ..i was so scared.

"Sharing my food ,thats what husband and wife should do right,SHARING!! And ya i am even feeding you,You wanted LOVE na,,this is what people in love do,Okay open your mouth...say aah!!",he came near me.

"NOO!! please no,aadi dont do this!! I will never ask you to love me again Please i cant!!",i cried hardly.

"I said open your mouth!!", he shouted.he came near me and fed me forcefully.as i was about to spit it he closed my mouth with his hands."You better chew it!!Eating this is better than other punishments!", he said in a evil way.

Atlast he fed me everything forcefully in a sadistic manner.He fed me the very hot curry,i cried shouting my mouth is burning due to hotness,he did not listen.

After throwing all that into my mouth,he stood up and smirked.

I fell on to the ground from the chair and sobbed loudly because my mouth was burning badly because of hot curry and that i not only touched it but ate it today.

He looked at my sobbing form..."I think now you learnt the lesson not to teach aadi to love!!"....he laughed."I am so full now,so happy",he said and went away.

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My hands r burnt,my body is aching like hell,i feel like i have a fever.Sleeping in balcony and also continuously cooking made me ill.I was so angry when angel didnt even touch the paratas,but i have no right to be angry...this is not even the 0.1% of the torture i gave her.I huffed and sat on the sofa,streching my muscles and putting ointment on my finger.I started doing some streching excersices to relieve my aches.When i turned to look up i found nerdy watching me.

"No wonder why all girls are after him",nerdy was muttering.

"Are you gay?",i asked him.He glared at me and immediately turned away and took the breakfast plate kept on table and started munching on it.

"Hey thats for my angel",I shouted trying to grab the plate.

"If you want to win her back atleast try to know about her you stupid.Tara does not drink coffee r tea and she don't eat such heavy breakfast in the morning",What she don't drink coffee!!Oh god i regret my whole morning now.She now thinks i don't even know her likes and dislikes.

I looked at monu suspiciously,"By the way why are you trying to help me?", I asked.

He looked at the photo hanging on wall and then at me,"U already know the answer",he said.

"Look nerdy,I will never consider you..",he cut me in the middle...."I never expect you to do that too,I am just doing this for tara,I just want her to be happy.I know she will never move on,because she got stuck in the past,You made her not to believe in love again,now its your responsibility to make her believe in it again", he said sadly and went away.

I was thinking about what he said,my stomach grumbled.I am hungry it means angel must be too,she too did not have anything since yesterday,and i know she wont eat food from outside because she has a very sensitive stomach.Hmm...I will cook something for her and take it to her.

I knocked on nerdy's door with a book and pen in a hand,"I want to know everything about tara.",i said.

"Y should I tell you?",he questioned....."What why...because you are my",he cut me off.."But you said you will never consider me".

"okay what ever,I will tell you for sake of my tara",nerdy said.My blood boiled how dare he say 'my tara'.She is mine.Mine in everyway.I want to break his head,but no now i need his help.

I noted everything he said carefully,cooked as per angel's likes and started for her office.

I drowned myself in work,it helped me to forget about that monster upto some extent.

"Hey tara can you subtitute for me for tomorrow,if possible please!",requested one of my coworkers.

"Ya but why,any problem?",i questioned.

"No i am thinking to take leave tommorrow,u see my mom kept a puja tomorrow,as it will be the last year for me in my house she want to make it memorable.Anyway next year i will get married na",she replied sadly.

"Oh sure!",I said by my thoughts drifted to my parents.To my mom especially.Her way of teaching things was always so different.She doesn't not know how to speak sugar coatedly,What ever she said was harsh but it always proved to b true.

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I not only touched non veg but ate it too,I was sobbing loudly,When i got a call from my mom.

"Hello amma",i said sobbingly my whole story to her.

"I dont understand you tara,I did not raise you to sit at home bearing your husbands torture,U r mature,independent enough to go and live a life,I dont know, your brain runs like kangroo in studies ,but what happened now?",she asked.

"But amma dad said me to live or die here.And also I still didn't fulfill the promise i made",i relied weakly.

"I dont understand,how can u be so selfless,your whole life you have been sacrificing your life for others,in this way your aadi is behaving what if that husband of yours hurt you r kill you someday?",mom asked.

"He wont go to such extent amma,I trust him.",i said

"Tara as your mother i want to say you something more important,listen to this carefully.NEVER TRUST ANYONE IN YOUR LIFE.Sometimes the people you trust most may betray you.It can be your father,your brother or anyone. YOUR OWN SHADOW LEAVES YOU WHEN DARKNESS COME.It's always better to feel that you don't have your 'own' people....So learn to swipe your tears,Solve your troubles by yourself.Don't expect other's to show concern for you . Learn to be selfish and Believe in yourself"

woahh...what is this,Why is amma saying like this?i thought.

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Did you like this chapter.I know there is too much flashback in this chap...but its needed.

What do you feel about this chapter,was her mother trying to say her something?...please vote and comment your reviews.I like reading your comments a lot.They make me feel like i am writing better.

please share the story with your frns if you like it.Actually i was dead tired from yesterday due to navratri's but bought myself to write this chapter for people who are reading and liking my book.