The mirror tells you something that you

don't want to see

Each set shows a different view you don't know where to agree

Your shattered perception of yourself paved a way

to disturbed self-revere

You have tea for the night

And a coffee for the day

Just to weigh you down

So you have to burn it away

When you thought its gonna work out

But it keeps bugging you every single day

The way you look at your self

Makes you the victim of self enmity

Wasting coins

on what you think

Could ease your physicality

But you know its not right

Its not the way

You keep on doing it anyway

Its not the best thing

Its never the way

It still not gonna make you feel okay

Those intimidating beauties

The looks of a beauty queen

Your sources for self critique

You 'd planned to cut ties

from the world you are in

You tried to despise

the portions that you need to live

You don't want to hate

And you don't hate anybody

All you hated was yourself

Your deathly sin of insecurity

You don't have to squeeze your face with hate in your veins

Scratch your skin with your nails until blood reigns

Hit your head against the wall

And scream until you bleed

You drink, and drink until you lie down sleeping with the chemicals inside

And in the morning you curled up feeling with your pain

Can you feel

your bones now?

The way you look at the mirror

Try to think that you're beautiful

You deserve someone

if not better

But the best, just for you

When they say that you're beautiful

You believe

You deserve something if not better

But the best just for you...

*note to self