Bryn Atkinson's POV

for three weeks. It's a long time and it makes a person process a lot of things in their life. I don't even know what to think anymore. I feel horrible, I am horrible. Horrible for doing that to Eliazer, all of this is my fault. I felt like sobbing all over. My bottom lip curled.

"Oh no, they're there," Bruce said, leaning my head on his shoulder. He knew I was going to cry, and he's a good friend to try to help me.

"I'm such a horrible person." I sobbed, let's add in the fact I was embarrassed because we were in the lunch room. I was reacting like a girl on her period.

"No, you're not." He replied, covering my face with Gray's jacket.

"Yes I am, how could I do that to him?" I said a bit muffled due to the fact that I was being covered with a jacket. Bruce stayed quiet. I sobbed, even more, when he didn't say anything.

"You know what, that's it," Gemini said. She left, but I heard her footsteps come back.

"What happened there?" River asked.

"I came back when I saw the look he gave me. It's honestly pretty scary." She replied, whispering.

"What an idiot," Gray replied, directed to Gemini.

"It's not my fault, Bryn's over here very sorry and... I can't stand people crying." She replied.

"Okay! I'm not gonna' cry anymore." I said suddenly, sitting up straight. "I'm just going to have to fix this on my own."

"How?" Eloy added furrowed eyebrows.

"I don't know."

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I can do this. I can do this.

I didn't know what I was doing. My feet brought me here on their own, they brought me to Eliazer's apartment. I was standing outside his door, hands inside the pockets of my jacket. I didn't know what I was going to say or what I was going to do. I didn't plan any of this.

My hand went up on its own, ready to knock on the door. But I stopped. What am I doing? I thought to myself. But you only live once. That was my excuse. So I knocked on the door with all the courage I had, what was left of me.

Not five seconds later, Eliazer opened the door. My breath hitched at his ruffled hair and slightly swollen eyes, It looks like he just woke up from a nap. Once he realized it was me, he began to close the door. But I put my foot in between, preventing him from doing so.

"Look... I think we need to talk." I said in a low voice. Eliazer said nothing for a few seconds, which felt like centuries. He finally held the door open for me, allowing me to come through. He wore gray sweatpants, bare chest and bare footed as well. I could tell he was tense, but it's not like I wasn't. I was a nervous wreck in fact.

Eliazer went inside his room, probably to retrieve a shirt while I allowed myself into the living room. It surprises me how spotless it always is. Very clean with no dust or dirt in sight. Eliazer came back wearing a navy blue tee with a stool in hand. I sat on the couch while he sat in the stool, placing it directly in front of me.

During this entire time, he said nothing at all, so I didn't know what to say either.

"I'm really sorry," I said. Then I felt stupid, sorry isn't going to fix anything. "I-I wasn't thinking straight and I panicked cause I-you didn't like me so I didn't want to put you in an awkward situation but that just made things worse," I said, throat feeling tight as I croaked a few times in between my words.

"But then... I-I don't know, I was the one that kissed you. Why don't people understand that? You're a-a human being just like everyone else. Sure you might be different, but the difference is what makes people special, right? An-and my Dad used to tell me goats were cute but they'll eat anything, and then I felt really bad cause I knew I fucked up cause I'm a fucking goat." I was sobbing by now, tears running down my face as I tried to explain myself the best way I could.

"But that's irrelevant. I j-just wanted to say I'm really so-"

"Are you going to shut up now?" Eliazer asked, raising an eyebrow.

"W-what?" I stuttered. I'm sure my nose and cheeks were red, along with puffy eyes.

"Look, let's stop it with the tears too." He added, leaning in and using both his thumbs to wipe away my tears.

I was confused, I didn't even bother asking what was happening. I just stayed frozen, rock solid, just looking at him. But of course, more tears came. Eliazer sighed, sitting down next to me. But the next thing is just mind blowing. He leaned in and kissed my tears away. I let out hiccups, surprised at the sudden sign of affection.

"Are you done now?" He whispered, really close to my face. I felt moved at the sudden closeness and a bit happy for some reason. I felt a weight lift off my shoulders. Yeah, I probably wasn't forgiven, but I was making progress. I felt proud of myself for some reason.

I looking back at Eliazer, who was still looking at me with the same expression. His eye of wonder. It'll always be on my mind, how he turned half blind. But I'm sure Eliazer will tell me when the time is right. We looked at each other in silence, a comfortable silence. But of course, there's always that one person who likes to ruin the moment.

"Eliazer! I'm home!"

Fucking Jared.

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