"Aaliyah what are you talking about" he asked while grabbing my hands.

I quickly snatched my hands from him "No Darius I've made my decision. Listen it'll be better for the both of us " I said while tears slowly drizzled down my face.

He stood up with anger and disappointment written all over his face "no man that's some bull shit. We can make it work Aaliyah and you know it" he yelled.

"I'm only a junior in highschool Darius. Your going to college next year it's better if we break up now. That way your not tied down" I said standing up.

He smacked his lips "I thought you loved me Liyah" he said with tears building in his eyes.

"I do love you Darius. And the reason why I love you is why I'm doing this" I cried.

"You don't love me Aaliyah. You giving up on me, you giving up on us man." He yelled.

I grabbed his hands "I'm sorry D"

He snatched his hand "You ain't fucking sorry. Goodbye Aaliyah" he walked out of my room.

That same flashback kept flashing back into my head. Especially on this day, we would've been dating for 5 years today. That was the day I broke up with the love of my life on our anniversary.

"Mommy Mommy. Look what I drew" my four year old daughter yelled running in the kitchen while I sipped on a glass of wine.

Oh did I mention that, yes I have a four year old daughter. Her name is Kamryn Ariel Boweman. She's the love of my life I wouldn't replace her for anything.

I took the drawing out of her little hands "awee baby it's amazing." I smiled and scanned over the drawing. "Who's that" I asked pointing at the third member on the piciture.

"Oh that's my dad." She pointed and smiled. "Wherever he is"

I smiled at her. "Well it's amazing and I bet your daddy would love it. Go wash up dinners ready" I told her as she ran off.

I didn't mention, Kamryn is Darius daughter. I remember the day I found out like it was yesterday.

I read the stick that read "pregnant. I'm pregnant" I said lowly in disbelief with sadness in my voice.

I didn't know what I was going to do.

"Aaliyah. What are you going to do. Are you going to tell Darius" My Bestfriend Miracle asked.

"No Mir I can't. He going to college in August, he can't be worried about a baby" I cried.

"Are you crazy. It might not be in the plan but down the line it's going to hurt you,Darius and that baby." She responded.

"I don't know Miracle. I'm scared I'm a senior in highschool in a couple months. How am I going to take care of a baby" I cried harder falling to the ground.

"I know Liyah. I know. We'll figure it out" she said holding me.

Kamryn was for sure Darius child. He's the only guy I've ever had sex with. I haven't had sex with any guy since him either.

I haven't had contact with Darius since I broke up with him that evening in June. Even though Miracle told me to tell him, I never had the guts too. I mean yes I feel bad, he doesn't know his daughter and I know he'd be a great father. Kamryn would love her dad but I was being shelfish.

Kamryn finished washing up and ran into the kitchen to eat dinner. I made her spaghetti with meatballs. Her favorite meal ever, just like her dad.

"Auntie Miracle in the building" Miracle yelled walking into my house.

Miracle has been my Bestfriend since seventh grade. She's been with me through everything.

"Auntie Mir" Kamryn said smiling running up to Miracle.

"Hey pretty girl. How you doing" she smiled while tickling her.

She giggled revealing her bright white teeth "I'm good. We're having ghetti for dinner. You want some"

"Mhmm sounds good. I think I'll eat some of yours" she said while putting her down.

She laughed "too bad I'm already done"

"Awee you ate it all up. Your a big girl."

I just laughed at their interaction "Since your done go upstairs and play I'll be up there in a minute to put you to bed" I told Kamryn.

"Okay mommy" she smiled and ran upstairs.

"Bye Kami" Miracle yelled up the stairs. "Bye bye" her small hand waved and continued up the stairs.

Miracle sat at the table across from me "how you doing girl"

"I'm fine..you know considering." I sat putting my head down.

"I don't want to add fuel to the fire or anything but I think you should tell Darius. That little girl is getting to big and she's too smart to not know" Miracle informed me.

"I know Miracle. I know but.-" I dragged out my words.

"But nothing. He's one of the best business man out here.. There's no reason for you to not contact him" Miracle cut me off.

Over the years Darius has gotten famous from all the businesses he owned including clothing lines. He was big in he's career and very famous for it.

"He has a whole life, career I don't want to throw this bomb into his life"

"That can't keep being your excuse. It's not about you Liyah. You have to tell him. People talk in these streets you better tell him before he finds out." She said standing up from the table.

"You good baby" my girlfriend asked touching my face.

I slowly moved my face clinching my jaw "yea I'm good" I said not making eye contact with her.

I didn't mean to be stand-offish. I know it's been years but that don't been I still didn't know what today was. Aaliyah was the love of my life and it took me months to get over her. I still never and still don't know her reasons for breaking things off.

I'm a millionaire now, and I'm happy with my girlfriend. She was loyal and great but she had nothing on Liyah. I never talked to her after that night, I mean why the fuck would I. She clearly ain't wanna be with me.

My girlfriend sat on my lap grabbing my my face "you seem sad daddy. You sure you good"

"Ya man I'm good" I said tapping her leg, hinting I wanted her to get up. She stood up and I could tell she was mad. I didn't really care right now I ain't wanna talk.

I decided to go over to my man Jalen house to smoke and chill. I knew that nigga wouldn't ask any questions. Jalen has been my Bestfriend since highschool.

"What's happening nigga" Jalen yelled as he opened the door.

I laughed "what's happening with ya light bright ass" I said while dapping him up.

"Nigga you damn there lighter than me fuck outta here" he laughed letting me inside.

"Man Whateva. I need to smoke and blow off some steam" I said dragging my hand over my face.

"Problems with ya girl. Again" he said sarcastically.

"Man nah I just ain't in the mood today" I said while following him to the backyard

"You never in the mood nigga" he said while sitting down lighting a blunt.

I just shook my head while taking the blunt. "Ya ass need to get over Aaliyah. She ain't coming back and you know it" Jalen added.

"Man shut your ass up, I'm over her that was years ago" I said smacking my teeth.

"Yea sure nigga" he rolled his eyes in disbelief.

I just smacked my teeth again, and continued smoking. Aaliyah Colemon was the love of my life. Maybe the reason I couldn't get over her was because there was a chapter still missing from my story. I can't close the part of my story until then.

I gave Kamryn a bath and tucked her into bed.

"Mommy" she asked.

I smiled down at her "yes baby"

"Does my daddy not love me. Why doesn't he ever come to see me" she said with sadness in her voice.

I immediately felt horribly "oh baby." I said holding her. "Your daddy loves you to the moon in back. I promise your going to see him soon okay" I said holding out my pinky.

"Pinky promise" she said smiling.

"Pinky promise baby" I locked my pinky with hers and smiled.

"Now go to bed" I smiled and kissed her forehead and shut the light off before walking out.

"Love you Mommy" her innocent voice said.

"I love you too Princess" I smiled and closed the door.

"This is Darius Boweman. I can't get to the phone right now. If you want a appointment leave a message" he's deep voice said through he's voicemail.

"Darius. This is Aaliyah..Aaliyah Colemon we need to talk. Call me back" I said ending the voicemail. I needed to tell him. It had been long enough.

It was time.

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