I'm so confused just a few days ago Clarke pulled away and now she was the one kissing me? Why are these sky people so confusing?

When she finally pulls away she just rests her forehead on mine and slowly opens her eyes.

"I'm sorry about before, I just... I don't no, I dont want to ruin this moment." Clarke says looking at me and never breaking eye contact.

"It's ok Clarke of the sky people take your time I'll wait..." I tell her.

"Heda! Come quick!" I hear being shouted loudly I forgot to tell anyone where I was going before I left.

"We better go back something is wrong." I say and stand up, I hold my hand out to help Clarke up to.

"Lexa wait!" She says quickly.

"What's wrong?" I ask. She just stands there giggerling.

"Your hair is a mess." She says and steps forward and start rearranging it.

"There all better" Clarke says with a smile, she plants a quick peak on my lips then starts running back to my village.

"Clarke wait for me!" I say but she just shout for me to hurry up instead.

As we arrive back at my village Gustus runs up to me and tells me to follow him.

"Heda, word has been said that a person has been spotted in the woods not far from here." He says in a hurried voice I dotn understand this is normal we have scouts in the woods every day although it is late they should be coming back now.

"Who?" I ask.

"Costia" he answer.

"No your wrong Gustus she's dead I watched her die with my own eyes I saw her die right in front of me and it was all my fault." I shout, how dead he say that he saw Costia when he knows she is dead.

I storm out of my tent to see to my surprise Costia standing right in forint of me.

"Costia? You're dead, why is everyone trying to mess with my head. You're not real! Costia is gone." I say.

"No Lexa I'm here I'm not dead." She says stepping closer to me.

"How is this possible?" I say in shock.

"I will explain shortly but for now I think we need to catch up on things" she says stepping been closer before I have chance to react she closes the gap between us and connect our lips. I had forgotten what this feels like to kiss her. Then I remember about Clarke what will she say. As soon as I remember her I push away quickly.

"No! I can't do this, you can't come back and pretend like nothing has happened Costia. Anyway... I... I like someone else." I say as she looks at me with sadness written all over her face.

"Lexa?" I hear a voice behind me. I turn around to see Clarke standing there with years in her eyes.

"Clarke let me explain." I say but she looks at me and runs off. I tell Costia not to go anywhere as I run after Clarke I need to explain what just happened.

"Clarke stop!" I shout after her, she turns around with tears streaming down her face.

"No its fine I get it, I'm guessing from what I heard that was Costia? I get it I look like her, blond hair blue eyes and was around at the right time, just another distraction right? I new if I let myself fall for someone I would get hurt, but you no what it doesn't matter I'm used to it." She said through the sobs.

"No Clarke I... I... I love you." I say as she start to turn away again.

"No you don't Lexa! You no and I no that you love her not me forget it I'm going back to my camp." Clarke shouts angrily.

As she walks away I can feel something running down my face as soon nas I realise it was a tear I wipe it away and run back to the village to send a guard after her since it is dark I did tell her not to go back tonight but I've blown it now.

**********

"I'm sorry Lex, I didn't no you were with her.I just... I guess I thought me coming back you would still be the same but I see you have moved on." Costia says.

"No its fine, but before anything else happens just explain to me how you are alive?" I ask.

"Well you no how no one really has any brothers or sisters? Only very few my mother had twins she couldn't think of nay names so she named me Costia and my twin Kostia so they are said the same just spelt a little different. My mother didn't want more than one child and since I was born a mintue before her she picked me first and sent my twin away with my dad. She believed in the old myth that the first born would become a great warrior but if another child was born then that owuldnt happened that's why she sent her away but I only found this out about a year ago." Costia explains to me.

"A year ago? You died a year ago." I said quietly so she could barely hear me.

"Yeah I was getting to that, well that is where my twin comes in. When the queen was torturing me for your secrets she kept me in a type of prison but let me out once a day, one day when I was let out someone came up to me who it turns out was Kostia my twin and I told her everything about how I was going to die and then she told me to run and she would pretend to be me since we looked exactly the same spoke the same literally everything was the same about us. So she was the one you watched die not me, however I was near by watching to when I saw you so upset I couldn't bare to tell you that was a lie and if they found out that it wasn't me I was scared they would kill both of us." Costia says. It takes a while for it all to set in.

"I'm glad your back, I'm guessing you will be staying here for a while?" I ask and she nods her head.

"I will get one of my guard to show you to a free tent. We can speak more in the morning but its late now and I have stuff to do early in the morning.

******

As I get back to camp, I have finally been able to stop crying how could she do that to me? Make me fall for her then go kiss someone else behind my back?

As the camp comes into view I see someone sitting at the gate. I realise it's Finn but he has fallen asleep.

"Finn?" I say and gentally shake his shoulder to wake him up. "Why are you out here on your own?" I ask him as he opens his eyes, he looks at me and smiles.

"Bellamy said you had to go for a meeting or something with the grounders? We were all worried about you that they might do something to you." Finn explains sitting up a bit.

"Thanks I guess, I was going to stay there over night just because it was getting late then... Stuff happened. You can go to bed if you want I'm just gonna sit our here for a while, I need some time to think anyway." I tell him. I go and sit near where he was sitting up against a tree near by.

Suddenly I feel something being put over my shoulders I look up to see Finn there.

"I thought you may want this and just in case anything happens look in the pocket." He says and wanders into his tent, I feel in the pocket of his jacket that he jsut have me. I pull out a knife.

After sitting there a while I am starting to get bored so I decide to see if I can do anything with the knife. I pick it up and twirl it round in my fingers then start carving into the tree. I decide to carve things that have happened so far in the earth. The two headed dear, meeting Lexa, acid fod, the meeting, the kiss and finally Costia. I don't realise what I was drawing until I had done them all.

"Nice drawings." I hear a voice from behind me. I look up to see a Finn standing there.

"I thought you went to sleep?" I ask him.

"Couldn't sleep. So what happened then? And don't lie Clarke I can see the years in your eyes something bad must have happened." He tells me and sits down. I sigh and decide to tell him everything almost.

*****

"Ok then so why were you crying?" He asks after I tell him everything about the meeting but miss out the part with Costia.

"Well... You no Lexa? We kinda... Well we uh... We kissed... And then her ex who she thought was dead came back.... And then they kissed and Lexa tried to tell me she loves me but I saw her kissing the other girl." I say while trying to hold back year again.

" I'm sorry Clarke, you deserve someone who can make you happy." Finn says.

"Yeah, you no what I do." I say and without warning I lean in and connect out lips, he doesn't pull away and neither do I. Instead I deepen the kiss and place on of my hand on his neck while he puts his hand on my waist.

Suddenly I feel Finn's body go limp. I pull away and open my eyes but he doesn't open his. Then I notice he isn't breathing and there is a knife in his back.

"Finn?" I say quietly. "Finn! Please Finn wake up please open your eyes I need you." I shout. Suddenly Bellamy runs out of his tent since we are close by his.

"I heard shouting what's happened?" He asks in a panick.

"I don't no one mintue we were sititng here uh... Talking the next a knife was in his back." Bellamy quickly picks Finn up and takes him inside the drop ship, I follow him but check up in the trees to see if anyone is there, but I can't see anyone.