"Come on," Sharrakan edged me on, "You're done drinking already?" I had finished my third challace of wine, and instead of kicking up another I got juice. I rolled my eyes at the irresponsible General.

"It's called drinking in moderation," I informed him, "and you should learn it." The other generals laughed at his humiliation. "You all aren't any better," I commented, causing them all to sulk.

I felt an arm wrap around my waist, "Come on lighten up Ady," Sin pleaded, as he breathed in my hair. I pushed the drunk king away from me so he wasn't putting all his body weight onto me.

"Nope, I am not getting drunk," I stood my ground.

Pisti groaned loudly, "But we've never seen you drunk," she cried. "It isn't fair, you tease us about things we do when we're drunk, but we can't with you." I looked at all the generals who all had a face of agreement.

"Do I actually do that?" I asked, completely unaware that I was doing something to hurt them. There was an overall grumble of agreement.

"We get you're blunt and honest, but honestly it still hurts sometimes," Yam added between hickups. I took a moment to process all the regret I was gonna have tomorrow. Are you sure about this? Altezca asked in my head. I was not, but I had hurt my friends.

I let out a deep sigh, " Where's the wine? "I asked only to get unopened bottle shoved in my wand. I but off the cock only to jugg the entire bottle as the group cheered me on. " I'm only doing this because I love you guys, "I grumbled as I was given a full challace.

I was sipping away on it as I slowly started regretting downing the entire bottle. So many people had watched me do something so reckless. What will they think of me now. Hell, what do they already think if me. I'm loud, blunt, rude, with violent tendencies. I wouldn't be surprised if they hated me. They were probably just faking it because Sin likes me. But what if he doesn't. What if he's just faking it? I tease him all the time. I make him do things. Why would he like me?

"Audria?" a deep voice called for my attention. I looked up to find they were all looking at me, which only frightened me to the point of almost falling out of my chair. "What's wrong?" they asked. I couldn't tell who it was, as my tears were blurring my vision.

No matter what I wanted to stop pretending like they care. "I know you hate me," I sobbed, pushing them away from me. I shouldn't even impose on them any longer, so I got up, more like fell off my chair. After climbing off the ground, with help I refused, I went to head home. My home in the rift. I belong in the dark away from everyone.

"Ady, calm down," a soothing voice told me, whispered into my ear as arms wrapped around my waist. I fought against them, as they tried to comfort me which only riled me up more.

I kicked them in the shin hard enough for them to let me go. "You don't need to fake it anymore. I know you all hate me. Why wouldn't you. I don't belong here," I cried out, and stalked off to get away from them all. I gorse at the top of the stairs, seeing the crowds upon crowds of people at the bottom. Just the thought of dealing with all of them scared me to the point of a panic attack. I turned and ran, or more stumbled, just trying to get away from it all.

Once I was in a deserted feild I felt I was safe, and alone. I just sat down and curled into a ball, trying to return my breathing and heart rate back to normal. But with all my trying they just got higher and higher, which scared me. "Hey, Ati," a motherly voice cooed. "You're okay," she assured me as she sat me up and pulled me into a hug. "Breath in, breath out," she instructed me as I clung to her, slowly being able breath again. The feeling she gave me was so calming to the point that I fell asleep.

I woke up in bed, with no memories of how I got there. I didn't question it, as I had a terrible headache. "Good morning," a voice greeted me at a whisper. "How are you feeling?" Sin asked me, brushing stray hairs out of my face.

I groaned and pulled the blanket up over my face. The light wad too bright. "I got that," Sin told me, and I tel him get out of bed and some of the light disappeared. "Is that better?" he whispered, climbing back into bed with me.

I pulled back the blanket, squinting in precaution. No light stabbed my eyes as I opened them fully. I nioded and hugged Sin, trying to get comfortable enough to go back to sleep. "Do feel up to eat something?" he asked running his hand through my hair.

Just the thought of food sent my stomach into panic mode. I tried to hold it back, but after a moment of that I shot out out of bed, jumping over Sin, and made my way to the bathroom. "I'll take that as a no."

"Why did I drink so much last night?" I asked myself. I knew half a bottle would get me drunk, I'm such a light weight. Yet I decided to drink past what would get me drunk. I was probably right on the cusp of being drunk before I downed that bottle.

A pair of arms plucked me up from my slouch position on the ground. "You're getting back in bed," Sin declared. I had no qualms with that. I happily greeted the warm bed as I was lowered down into it. Sin pulled the blanket up to cover me and gave me a pillow to hug in his stead. "If you need anything call for me," he told me, giving me a kiss of the forehead.

"How about one of the many servants you have?" I asked him, trying not to show how bad I truly felt.

"Nope, me," he corrected, giving my hand one last squeeze before disappearing from my reach.