"Yes." I moaned, throwing my head back as Melakhi penetrated me.

"Damn, Montana." He moaned, kissing my lips.

"Harder." I instructed him as he picked up his pace.

He was a lot more gentle than I was used to. I liked it rough.

"Like that?" He asked and I shook my head.

"Like this." I turned us over, getting on top.

I rode him, going exactly the pace I liked. I couldn't help but to close my eyes and think of Joey.

"Fuck. I'm about to cum!" He yelled out, making me open my eyes and look down at him.

Pushing me off of him, I laughed as I watched him take off the condom and stroke himself while he released.

I couldn't help but to look down at his Piece while he did. It wasn't that big but he had stroke game so it was cool.

"Damn, Girl." He shook his head at me as I smiled.

"How was it?" I asked, that five minutes went by quick.

"Great." He went on, chuckling.

"How was it for you?"

"It was good." I lied as he leaned over to kiss my lips.

"I'm going to get you something to clean up. I'll be right back." I told him, getting out of my bed and standing to my feet.

Walking into the bathroom, I looked in the mirror and didn't even recognize myself. I was doing things I would never do and that's sleep with someone I've only known a month, just to make someone jealous.

While that someone, the love of my life, didn't even care for me anymore.

Closing my eyes, I tried getting myself together before I felt my stomach turn.

"Fuck." I groaned, emptying my stomach into the toilet as I pushed my hair out of the way.

I'd been throwing up and gagging a lot lately. I thought at first that I was pregnant but I quickly remembered, Joey and I hadn't even had real sex. Plus I didn't miss not one period so it couldn't be that.

"I don't know what the hell is wrong with me."

"Must've been that food." I said to myself, standing to my feet and quickly brushing my teeth then washing my face.

After I was finished with everything, I went back to the room to give Melakhi a wet wash cloth. When I walked in, he was knocked out and I couldn't help but to chuckle.

"Lucky you." I said, wishing I would've been put to sleep.

Deciding I'd let him sleep, I got back into bed and pulled the covers on top of me. Snuggling into the covers, my mind wandered but I tried to keep it off of Joey. But of course, I couldn't. I just couldn't.

I was still in love.

*

"Bro. I got somebody I want you to see." Messiah came into my room, making me furrow my eyebrows.

"Who?"

"Nigga, just come here." He chuckled as I sighed deeply, getting out of my bed.

Stretching, I slid on my slides before making my way out of my room and down the steps. As I did, I saw three females in the living room.

"Oh shit." I spoke, completely thrown off.

"Joey." Isabella gasped, coming over to jump into my arms.

I looked at Messiah with a surprised expression on my face and he couldn't do nothing but laugh. My mama and her mama sat in the dining room, smiling at us as I looked down at her.

"How you been?" I asked her as she looked up at me with a smile.

"I've been fine."

"Let's find somewhere we can talk." She whispered and I nodded, grabbing my car keys.

Opening the door for her, she made her way out of the door and I followed, closing it behind me.

We walked to my car and I opened her door, letting her get in before I got in on the other side.

She smiled as she sat in the passenger seat of my car and I couldn't do shit but look at her. She was even more beautiful than before.

"How have you been, Izzy?" I asked again and she laughed, nudging me.

"I've been fine, Joey. I missed you." She smiled and I couldn't even take my eyes off of her. She was beautiful.

"I missed you too, ma." I shook my head, looking into her eyes.

Izzy is an old friend, I'd met her when I was younger like way before Montana. Messiah was messing around with her older sister, Maria, for a little while so we played together and did dumb shit while they boo loved. They lived on the same block as us so I got to see her almost everyday.

"Remember that day you left, I was heartbroken like a motherfucker." I chuckled, reminiscing.

"I was probably like five years old but I remember all of that. I did not want you to go." I admitted, looking into her eyes.

"I didn't want to leave, hermanó." She shook her head, looking straight ahead.

"How's your sister?" I asked, changing the subject.

"Well, she's in the house but we were so excited you didn't even get the chance to speak."

"That was María?" I asked in complete shock and she nodded. I hadn't seen her in years, she looked so different but good still.

"Her and Messiah decided to get back together recently."

"Yeah?" I asked raising my eyebrows. This sneaky ass nigga didn't tell me that.

"Yeah. They've been talking about moving in together and all of that."

"Damn. I didn't even know."

"So are y'all back here for good?"

"Well no. I live out Cali, I have my own place there."

"My mom and I are just here for the weekend but Maria's staying though with Messiah of course."

"Damn, ma. I didn't know any of this. I just came back from being up at a therapy center for a couple of months."

"Therapy?" She asked and I nodded.

"Oh yeah, for your IED right?"

"Yeah."

"Good for you, Joey. I know it used to be so hard for you back in the day." She expressed, placing her hand on my shoulder and I looked over to her.

"Yeah, ma. I can't lie, I lost myself a few times."

"What happened?" She asked because she wasn't afraid to. She was never afraid of anything.

Making me laugh, I looked at her serious expression and I shook my head.

"Well i was dealing with a girl that I loved and we were going through it a lot. A lot of lies and stuff that didn't need to happen but it changed me. It made me seek help and now I feel better. I'm surrounded by people who love me."

"That's so great, Joey. You deserve that. You're a good person, you just have a different disorder that some people can't handle." She shrugged and I nodded.

"But you know I can." She softly punched me with a smile.

"Yeah, I know." I smirked.

*

"Where's Mel?" Teesh asked as she walked into my apartment.

"He went home." I spoke, getting a water from the fridge.

"What happened with Joey?" She plopped down onto the couch and I shrugged.

"Nothing. He didn't speak or anything."

"No?" She furrowed her eyebrows and I nodded.

"Did he say anything to Melakhi?"

"Nope."

"Oop."

"I know. I guess he doesn't care about me anymore.." I scoffed, sitting down beside her.

"Do you still love him?"

Giving her a face, I rolled my eyes before looking away.

"Of course I do, Teesh. What kind of question is that? It won't just go away. That's nine whole years." I spoke offended that she'd even ask me that.

"So why are you dealing with Melakhi and not trying to fix it with Joey?"

"Are you serious? I'm not the one who should be fixing anything. He's the one who messed everything up but here I am still hurting while he doesn't feel a thing for me." I rolled my eyes, tired of even talking about him now.

"I'm just saying, Mon. If you still want to be with Joey then I feel like you shouldn't string Melakhi along. That's messed up."

"You know what else is messed up. Loving Joey. But I can't stop, even if I tried." I bit my bottom lip so that I wouldn't cry. He really wasn't even acknowledging me.

No text. No calls. Nothing.

"Then maybe work on something with Melakhi and don't compare him to Joey every chance you get?" She shrugged.

"I am working on something with him and I don't compare." I said and she tooted her lips up, looking at me.

"Well.." I trailed off before laughing.

"Well it's hard not to. He just doesn't do what Joey does. Like it's just different but not in a good way."

"What do you mean?"

"Well to start off, he's.."

"Smaller." I said and she raised her eyebrows.

"You've seen it?" She asked and I nodded before busting out laughing while she did the same.

"Wait, he showed it to you?" She went on to ask.

"Not only did he show it to me, we had sex." I blurted out and her mouth made the shape of an O.

"What?" She asked unconvinced and I nodded.

"Yeah. We did it."

"Was it good? Did you like it?" She blurted out, asking everything at once.

"It was okay." I shrugged.

"I didn't have an orgasm if that's what you're wondering." I clarified and she shook her head.

"I mean, well how do you feel? So you feel like you want to be with him?"

"No. I still love Joey." I admitted.

"Damn, even the dick couldn't change your mind." She laughed as I bit my lip to keep from laughing again. It wasn't right to do. Melakhi was a sweet guy.

"Mm. Little old Montana." She shook her head.

"Shut up." I stood to my feet and made my way into the kitchen.

*

I made up my mind. This is going to be a short story. I'll probably end by the end of this week. Don't worry, it's a very interesting ending😇🧞‍♂️❤️