"No no no... this can't be happening." I sat on the bed, hugging my knees. I wasn't ready to be a single mother. Not to mention, I was only seventeen. Why do all these things keep happening to me.

I didn't want to do anything, but I had a job to go to and with my financial situation I couldn't afford not to go.

With all my strength I got up and quickly got ready to go, putting on some oversized clothing to keep myself comfortable.

The ten minute walk to work seemed like forever. I kept thinking whether I should tell Alexander about my situation. He was the only person I could tell after all. And if I just tell someone I'm sure I'd feel a bit better. But at the same time I don't want to pack this on him. It's not like I know him that well yet.

Finally, I've reached the coffee shop and entered through the back door for the staff. Alex wasn't anywhere in sight so far. I sighed. Partly from relief of not having to thing about telling him just now.

I put on the apron with my name on it and headed to the counter in the main room. There was a girl with bright red bob cut hair serving coffee.

"Hey, Judy. Where's Alex?" I asked her as I approached my working space.

"Hey, you didn't know? He's off work today." She replied, pouring some milk into the cup.

"Hmm, why?"

She looked at me with a ghastly smile. "It's not his shift."

"Oh, right." I uttered.

"Do you need him for something?"

"Eh, it doesn't matter." I squeezed as good of a smile as I could to make it seem like I was fine.

"Okay then..."

Work was long. But at least for the most part it kept my mind off of those two pregnancy tests. When it was finally over, I said my goodbyes to Judy and left. Instantly, it came back to me. The fact that I was pregnant. I couldn't believe it. Didn't seem real.

When I got home the most bizarre idea popped into my head.

'What if I get an abortion...'

I let that thought sink in, but quickly shook my head.

No that's terrible. But... the baby barely even started developing. You can't even really call it a baby yet... I kept contemplating.

And besides, it's a killer's baby. That means it has a high chance to be a killer too. I don't want that... right? I don't want a killer popping out of my vagina. Hell, I don't want no one popping out of there just yet. Specially if it means that I'll have to take care of it all by myself.

That settles it... I'm getting an abortion.

I've been thinking about all this through dinner. When I was finished I cleaned the dishes and sat down on the couch. My phone was laying right in front of me on the coffee table.

I had to tell him... I can't just made a decision this big on my own.

For minutes I kept thinking about it, gathering the courage. At last I picked up the phone and found Alexanders contacts.

Free taking a deep breath I pressed call and placed the phone left to my ear.

"Hello..."

"Alex! Hi... um listen, I-I have to tell you something." I mumbled.

"What is it?" His cheerful as always tone gave me a bit of a relief, but I was still very nervous.

"Well, its kind of a big deal... you know what, maybe I'll just tell you at work tomorrow. Bye!" I rushed to say and was about to end the call.

"No no, wait. What is it?" Alexander's voice got a little more serious.

"It's fine, really. I-I'll manage." I said, barely holding back tears. He must have heard that in my voice as he said:

"Want me to come over?"

"W-would you do that? I don't want to be a burden."

"(Y/n), don't ever think that. Of course not. I'll be there in about fifteen minutes. Just hang in there." He announced and ended the call.

I took a deep breath. That was exactly what I needed. A company and some support.

Shortly, the doorbell rang.m and of course, Alex was the one standing there when I opened the door. Instantly, I hugged him.m and he hugged back.

We went to the living room, I made some tea and for some time we just sipped it in silence.

"So... what was it that you wanted to tell me?" Alex spoke.

"Oh um..." I didn't know how to make the words come out of my mouth. My voice felt like it was broken.

Then I got up and brought the pregnancy test. Alex took it to examine. His eyebrows furrowed.

"I-is it yours?" He said, looking up at me. I just nodded, looking down at my feet.

"(Y/n), who's is it?"

I kept silent, how was I supposed to tell him without spilling out the whole story.

"Was it the guy that kidnaped you?" He asked carefully, trying to catch my gaze. I felt the tears forming again as this made me think of Jeff again.

"Gosh... (y/n)... come here." He stood up and stretched his arms towards me. Without much hesitation I accepted his hug. It felt so right. I snuggled my face into his chest, the smell of his cologne filling my nostrils. I could feel his shirt getting wet from my tears, but he didn't care, he only hugged me tighter, petting the back of my head softly.

We stood like that for a while until I calmed down a bit and pulled myself away.

"Thank you, Alex. I'm so glad I have you right now. I don't know what I'd do without you." I murmured, still weak from crying.

He smiled, looking into my (e/c) eyes. We gazed at each other for minutes like that, until without even noticing, the space between our faces started getting smaller.

Then, we kissed. Starting off small, later it growing into something more heated. Shortly, we were on the bed. I rolled on top of him and took off my shirt. He followed my lead. Soon enough we were making love to each other.

One thing I couldn't understand was if I really liked Alex, or if I just really needed comfort that bad. Maybe it was a way to get back at Jeff, even though he'll probably never find out about this.

Unless... he's been watching me the whole time. That's the little feeling I've been having.

For a fact, it felt great imagining his upset face right now. That made me move even more aggressively on top of Alex, making him grunt louder.

After we were finished we just laid on the bed in out undies, hugging each other until falling asleep.

We woke up to my alarm clock. Both of us had to go to work today. There wasn't much taking the whole morning. Just a lot of smiling and light hand touching. After we took turns in showering we dressed up and headed out.

The way to work was just as silent. It was kind of strange how awkward it felt. Alex was completely different from Jeff. He was very nice and respectful, which I should like, but it lacked aggressiveness, roughness. Something that Jeff was.

I shook it off and tried to accept the fact that that's how it was gonna be now. I needed to forget Jeff.

"Alex..." I broke the silence.

"Yes?"

"I was thinking about getting an abortion." I spilled. Instantly he stopped and turned to me.

"What?"

"Yeah. You know, I don't want to be a single mother. And I don't want to carry a child of someone I'll never even see again. If I was ever to have children I want them to have a father." I explained.

Alex just stood there, looking at me with a serious stare. Then he took a deep breath.

"It's your body. I won't be telling you what's right and what's wrong, but abortion is also murder. And besides, you won't be alone, I'm here for you." He out his hands on my shoulders.

"I know, but I'm really not sure about it. This baby came from a criminal. I don't want it to inherit whatever his father had." I said, trying to reveal as little as I could.

"It's your choice, (y/n). I want you to know that I will support you no matter what, but this decision can haunt you for the rest of your life."

"If I don't do it, the face of the father of this baby will haunt me for the rest of my life." I said coldly.

Alex nodded and looked away. "Okay, that's fine. You do what you feel is right."

We continued walking. The atmosphere being even more awkward than it was. I knew Alexander wasn't okay with my decision. He was a religious guy. I knew these things didn't sit well with that. But I didn't care. To be completely honest, I didn't really care at all what he thought. I was gonna get this abortion and that's final.