Wiping off the counter i sigh listening to nala crying softly in her room. For the past week she been crying herself to sleep and guess why? For Im not sure what he did to my kid in the past 3 days he had her but she wouldnt go to sleep without him. All through the day she'd laugh play eat and run around just fine without thinking about him but she wouldnt go to bed without him, so i was forced to let her cry herself to sleep.

I'd been here with Nala at Jokers place and he even started talking to me a little. We all sat around the table eating steak mashed potatoes and Nalas favorite: Baby carrots. Even though 3 of us sat at the table there was only 2 plates on the table because she preffered to eat from other peoples plates instead of her own which by the looks of it joker already knew since they were both eating off his plate. I wish i couldve been there to see how he realized that.

"Da i want that" she said from her seat on the table pointing to his steak and he groaned.

"It has blood in it" he says bluntly and she scrunches her face up pouting at him but he doesnt budge and continues eating his potatoes which she throws her spoon on the floor. Tears start to build up in her eyes but he gives her a stern look which she begins to sniffle to and i want to pick her up so bad but thats why she was the way she is now.

"What did i teach you?" He says to her and she begins glaring through her little whine and i cant help the "aww" that escapes my mouth until she snatches it off the plate taking a bunch of tiny bites.

"Da said dont ask just take it" she smiles happily as she takes more bites and i watch as jokers glare falls and he laughs, like the way he use to laugh at me not the fake sarcastic one that puts fear in people. I cant help the smile on my face as nala reaches across taking a sip of my soda remembering im still here. One of jokers goons come up to us and slide him a tablet and i frown remembering one of our last arguments about no work at the diner table. He sends me a challenging look and i know its because he remembers as well, were both thrown from our stairing contest when nala grabs it and throws it on the floor the only sound heard is the shattering of glass.

"No no no" she says waving her finger still holding the steak in her other hands.

Thats when joker realized things had gotten to domestic for him he said "we were making him weak and getting in his way" which lead to a explosive argument that started to get physical so now here i am back in my place. The hairs on the back of my neck stand up and i quickly grab the knife turn around and push it up against the person who decided it would be smart to break in and sneak up on me.

"Thats no way to apologize doll now is it?" He ask with a stupid smirk and i scrunch up my nose.

"Apologize?" I question and begin laugh "you fuckd me up mentally, kidnapped my child and then kicked us out in the rain and you want me to apologize? I know ive done some fuckd up stuff said things i didnt mean and stabbed you a few times but i was always there when your selfish ass needed me" i growl in his face.

"You dont need me ashton and you never did so dont make it seem like you did you didnt need my connects nor have to use me" he snaps backs only for my glare to drop.

"Your still mad about what i said 3 years ago? Get over it grow up ok? Im not worried about you or your selfish ways im worried about nala who i need you to stay away from and not project your problems onto" i snap pushing away when i hear her cry's.

"Shes crying?" He ask pushing me off and begins walking to her. I stand in shock at how quick he was to drop everything for her. Quickly coming out of my state of shock i go to stop him but he yells out through the house.

"Is that a little monster i hear?" He yells and she makes a weird sound making me tilt my head in confusion. Following him into her room i watch as he squats down to her level, puts his smile tattoo covered hand over her mouth and she quickly wipes her tears once she realizes whats on his hand. "Now monster whats all the water works for?" He ask and she sighs.

"I missed you" she sniffles and i watched as he freezes. I know hes not a guy filled with emotions but shes a kid....his kid so was he going to say it back? I watch as she traces the tattoo on his hand and he only stares at her.

"You do?" He ask confused using his normal voice and not the nasaly one he used to intimidate everyone. She nods.

"Yes da i missed your growl, and when you say yes to me and your green hair" she list off swinging her legs back and forth as she sit on the edge of the bed and i cant help the smile before joker lets out a laugh. "Mama missed you to, right mama?" She ask looking at me and joker follows with a curious look on his face.

It be your own kid.

Flashbacks of me and joker laughing together, going on heist and doing everyday activities and i quickly blink the thoughts away as i lean my head against the doorframe wrapping my arms around myself. Sending joker a small smile i realized this is all he wanted to hear. If he doesnt say it or act like it he still needs

"Yeah i missed Joker too" i grin sending him a wink. "I missed his growls and his green hair and when he says yes to me to" i say walking over to him and sitting on nalas bed his eyes burning holes into me.

"Did da tell you our adventures when he kidna- picked you up?" I ask quickly changing my words when i see how she looks at him like he hung the stars. Just cause he hurt me i couldnt use that to my advantage for her to see him for what he is. She gasp and shake her head.

"There was the one we drove over a bridge, the one where beat batman the one where we-" i stop realizing everything joker and i had done was beyond illegal and criminal, could i tell our daughter that?

"Or when i saved her from arkham" joker says puffing up his chest making nala giggle.

"Ark-um?" She questions and i nod running my hand through her curls.

"A place with big bad guys..." He begins and its not long before hes twisting it into some fabricated version of his story making me seem like some weak damsel in distress and him some God which is typical joker stroking his own ego.

"Clown prince of crime? Nala ask astonished and i swear he could tell her we were about to die and she would still be so happily fascinated. "So whats mama?" She ask crawling under her covers.

"The queen of course" i smirk placing a kiss on her forehead pulling the covers up on her as she yawns. "Good night princess" i smile softly and she cracks an eye open.

"Of gotham?" She ask and joker is quick to answer.

"Of course little monster" he laughs as he kneels closer to her and she sits up really close to jokers face before lifting her fingers touching his damaged tattoo on his forehead.

"D...a...da" she reads and i smile. MY BABY CAN READ! So thats why she called him da not cause it was a nickname for daddy. He probably preffered that. She giggles leaning her head against his putting her arms around his neck. "Night night da" she says before laying down before him and i leave her bedroom.

"Has she done that every night?" I ask walking into my room but the door is closed and im shoved against it by my kneck.

"you think i forgot? You think that little show and saying you miss me is going to make me stop hating you?" He growled in my face but i see the confusion on his face even though he's trying to mask it with anger.

"Thats the thing Joker you dont hate me. Youre confused by me, confused by the things i make you feel confused by the things i make you do and youre such a control freak its angering you that i have this kind of power over you. Its killing you isnt it?" I smirk watching as now the confusion is gone and replaced by anger making his hold become tighter on my throat.

I laugh.

Pushing his hand off and pushing him on the bed he glares until i yank off his purple and green striped tie.

"You know what joker im willing to bet you enjoy when i get violent and angry with you" i smirk as he watches me with a blank face.

"You loved when i told you i used you" i add tearing open his shirt to reveal his tattoo'ed chest and clearly he had been working out.

"You loved when i punched and nearly stangled you for some sick reason it turned you on." I mumble pulling off his belt.

"you love seeing me wild and destructive not letting anything get in my path if it means getting to you because it proves im just as crazy about you as you are about me, isnt that right?" I finish straddling his lip feeling his massive boner through his slacks. He ignores me and i can tell its a struggle by the way he tightens his fist in the sheets behind him and glares at the wall. I smirk running my hands through his hair until i reach the nape pulling forcefully so hes forced to make eye contact and i pur out the one thing i can call him to release the beast hes fighting back.

"Mistah j"

Opening my eyes im greeted by a tattooed chest and smile cuddling up closer to a mumbling Joker. By the way his words are jumbled up i know hes still sleep and obviously very comfortable. I noticed that now his chest was completely covered in tattoos even parts of his arm forming a semi-sleeve. On the left side of his chest was a horribly drawn smiley face, and i mean HORRIBLE. It looked like a 3 year old drew it. One eye was bigger then the other and the smile was lopsided it kinda looked like nala's and i know because she drew ones exactly like this on her bedroom wall back in new york. Shaking joker roughly he groans.

"Ashton i just d1cked you down for 3 hours straight unless you want to get back on top which we both know youre legs are to weak for leave me lone" he wittily says and i want to be shocked at how quickly he said something so witty within 5 seconds of waking up but im more focused on the tattoo.

"Did nala give you a tattoo?" I ask and my question is answered when he smiles with his eyes still closed and his hand goes exactly to the smiley face.

"Yeah on day 2, kids got some talent" he jokes tracing the outline perfectly before going to another one where she wrote 'da' this time in green ink. "she thinks im a coloring book, always wants to climb over me like some jungle gym at the park she thinks im her servant and her yes man she think im her personal carrier and personal shopper she thinks im everything except what i really am to her, isnt that...funny?" He laughs but i know its anything but.

"I didnt tell her about you because i dont...didnt think you wanted to be there honestly i thought you wouldve killed her. And i didnt want you to reject her like my dad did me" i admit before he pulls me back down to lay on his chest.

"That was a good idea" he shrugs and its silent for a long time. "Y'know shes a brat, very spoiled, gets mad when you dont give her her way, will still find a way to get what she wants completely unpredictable says the wildest things and actually really smart?" He ask rhetorically and i chuckle.

"She may look like me joker but she acts every bit of you" i tease and he scoffs no doubt rolling his eyes.

"Shes every bit of you how you have a bad attitude, you're rude, so damn selfish, you only think of yourself, you run away from everything, you need the attention of everyone when you walk into the room you think youre royalty and everybody should bow down to you." He confronts while playing with my raven colored hair.

"So her and i are like you then" i ask rudely and he laughs rubbing circles on my lower back.

"Exactly"