Waking up tangled in joker i cant help but to grin which grows wider when i see he's actually sleeping. All through the night he kept waking up to make sure i was really here.

Looking over i see the pile of glass, made from two lamps. The first was from when i got up in the middle of the night to get the chips a hoy cookies and he woke up to find me not there thinking it was all a dream he threw it out of rage. That only lead to a argument because he to being attatched and said it was unlike him. He could never get attatched i began yelling back because i was attatched to him even in my state of amnesia, i went through hell for him. So it felt like a slap in the face for him to say that which i gave him a slap in the face for.

I knew he wanted to hit me back so bad i watched as his hand twitched but instead pushed the first thing he could find and stormed off. The lamp. Within a half hour he had crawled back into bed because "this is my fucking bed you can leave" he said to which i rolled my eyes at. His bed was comfortable and there was no way i was leaving. So i banned him to the far side away from me which he ignored because its his bed. He hated the silent treatment more then anything which i quickly learned when he pulled my underwear to the side and plunged in without a warning. Im not sure if it was hate sex or makeup sex or even i miss you sex but all 3 were welcomed.

"You know i use to hate cuddling" he yawns and i look up his eyes a pale blue and already boring into mine.

"what changed?" I asked tracing his tattoos lightly which i know he enjoyed by the way he purred.

"Nothing now get off" he grunts and i smile up at him before smirking.

"Joker you dont have to be an ass, i get that you missed me and you hate it you hate missing me and being attatched you hate feelings and having them for me you hate anything related but that doesnt change the fact that its there" i tell him before getting up and going to my room. And there goes the smashing sound of another lamp.

Turning off the stove after i take the last of the bacon out the pan and dropping the pan in the sink i smirk. "Stairing isnt going to change anything, j" i say placing the plates infront of us but he keeps stairing. I roll my eyes and begin digging in and he slowly follows. One of his henchmen come to the table giving him a file whispering a few words and walking off. Joker quickly pushes his plate away and begins looking through it until i send him a glare.

"What?" He basically growls and i feel the nerve in my jaw twitch. I know ive had amnesia for 3 maybe 4 months but im back now and just cause he walked all over innocent me doesnt mean it will still happen, im back now.

"Going to assume when i lost my memory you lost your mind-" i begin but he gives me his typical joker laugh-the one he uses to intimidate people aka the one he NEVER used with me.

"Been lost my mind before you toots dont feel special" he reminds after laughing, i feel all the anger come back in full force and im suddenly leaning across the table with my hand wrapped around my neck pulling him toward me.

"listen J, i dont care whats going through that brain of yours but i know you remember the rule we had no buisness at the breakfast table or durring breakfast!" I snap in his face and i can see the anger swirling in his eyes along with lust. He breathes heavily before pushing my hand off.

"This isnt some domestic husband and wife thing where you make up rules like that and i follow, im not domestic and i aint changing ashton so fuck off" he growls in my face before grabbing his stupid file and storming off but not without me taking the knife off my plate and aiming it at him but he ducks and it goes flying into the wall.

Walking infront of all his henchmen i grin, they look...promising. I had all of them gathered in the training room because being gone for so long ment these men had been new and untrained-to my liking.

"Arent you jokers bitch? Why the hell should we listen to you?" A burly man yelled and a few people let out chuckles and i let out a sadistic laugh. Pulling a knife out the garter belt on my leg and flinging it into his windpipe watching with a smile on my face as he slowly dies begging for help.

"Any other questions?" I ask and its dead silent. "Perfect, now when you see Joker and i eating breakfast dont disturb us i dont care if the house is on fire put it out your fucking selves, and 2 when you see me and need to speak reffer to me as 'your highness' understood?" I ask pacing infront of them.

"Yes your highness" they chorus and i feel the smirk on my face hearing the door open before hearing joker walk down the steps and i feel his scowl before i see it.

"Now now now doll what do we have here, domesticating my men are you ashtonnnnn?" He teases but i know its more daunting than anything, he knew he pissed me off earlier and hes still going. There was still a twinge of seriousness in his voice because he used my real name.

I wanted to slap him, stab him hell i wanted to punch him in his throat, but thats exactly what he wanted and because my body wasnt completely up to par he'd easily over power me. So i send him a sly smirk watching as he sends me a challenging look and i slowly strut over to him before placing a lingering kiss on his jaw line.

"There all your mistah j" i humm seductively and i watch as a fire burns behinds his eyes. I know ive did it now pissed him off completely and pushed him to his peak. "Bye boys" i wave.

"Bye your highness" they chorus again and i hear joker growl before sending me a glare. I only can laugh as i run to my room damn did it feel good to be back.

Sipping on the hot chocolate ivy made me i press myself further into her sofa. Ive been at her house everyday this week due to the fact that i wanted to kill joker. Honestly i tried to...twice.

"So what happened today?" She asked plopping next to me running her fingers through her hair. Today? Because every day joker had been doing something to piss me off.

"He flat out ignored me, walked passed me like i didnt even exist, i can take the rude comments this ignoring my rules going on heist and to clubs without me but pretending im not there-that strikes a new nerve" i huff.

"Why dont you just leave A, hear me out! I know you have feelings for him and i know even though you wont admit it you love that he still watched over you while you had amnesia but that doesnt change him. He's still a ass, still emotionless and most of all still a man they use people until they get their fill and then leave, you taught me that. A you still have a empire to run still have to be a boss bitch now go out there and make me proud" she pep talks and i nod before shooting up.

"You damn right! Im a bad bitch the baddest there is" i sass with my hands on my hips before i begin strutting through her living room. "I dont need a man im what a man needs but also what they cant have" i twirl flipping my hair.

"Great glad you got your mojo back hoe, now get out i have to get ready for a date" she says and i laugh throwing my head back.

"I want all the details, the whole scoop the tea bitch you better call me!" I yell as i leave the front door. Damn i missed her.

"Where the hell were you?" Frost ask and i look at him like he has two heads. He quickly clears his throat and takes a step back before fixing his jacket. "Your boyfriend is out of control-" he says and i scoff.

"What else is new...and hes not my boyfriend" i sneer pulling a bottle of water out of the fridge.

"He's half drunk killed 3 henchmen, picked a fight with Gothams police blew up half the station broke into arkham AND robbed a bank. Sources says he also stopped at jared's and got a pizza and wings" frost list off.

"What kind of pizza do you think it is?" I ask sipping the water and he sighs.

"Forget the pizza! Im not sure what happened with you two a week ago but its driving him mad and hes been doing worse more reckless stuff" he tells me. Its like hes forgotten who we're talking about. Its joker! Reckless and horrible are like his middle names.

"Well im not sure what happened but he just started treating me like harley and thats when i check out im packing my bags and going back to my loft" i tell frost unaware of jokers presence behind me. I push past frost and go upstairs to jokers room collecting all of my clothes and a few of his tshirts when his voice breaks the silence.

"Youre not harley" he says and i scoff throwing the pile of clothes on the middle of the bed before going to the dresser and gathering my makeup.

"I know...i actually have the brains to leave" i snap turning around but hes standing right there.

"And going where exactly? Hmm doll?" He teases taking a bite out of the pizza. Pepperoni and bacon, our favorite.

"Did you forget i left you before? Built my own empire, got one of the nicest places in the city and had a whole group of people behind me including cops & doctors. I even took some of your connections and weapons so i came to gotham and did exactly what i said i was going to do! Befriend you, use you build myself and leave" i smirk putting everything in a box. Even though i was smirking on the outside i was hurting on the inside, literally my stomach was aching. Of course thats exactly what i came to do but sonewhere between the heist and sex i caught deep feelings for him. I turn around only to have the cold metal of a gun on my forehead.

"What are you going to do, shoot me mistah j?" i purred feeling my voice break in my throat, this was torture! And even though his face is furious i see the betrayal in his eyes. Pushing the gun off i grab the box and walk out the room but not without noticing he hasnt moved.

Walking past frost i stiffen before dropping the box and pulling him into a hug. Frost became like a brother in these past year and 1 1/2 he knew what i needed, he was supportive he wasnt a typical guy and most importantly...he was a friend.

"If you dont keep in touch ill hunt you down and you know i have my ways" he says making me laugh even though i know he's serious. "Bye ashton" he says with a grin.

"HE JUST LET YOU WALK AWAY?!" Ivy yells nearly throwing the bucket of water. We were in her green house so she could show me her new creation while we shared our day. "HES AN IDIOT! A PRIDEFUL EGOTISTICAL DICK!" She rants opening up the doors to the greenhouse.

"Yeah and i knew that before i fell in lo-" i stop and clear my throat blinking the tears away. "Before i fell for him, i feel like the idiot gosh ivy, why " i yell walking over to a plant with a water bucket. Before i begin to water it, the plant turns towards me and reaches down toward my stomach rubbing its "head" against it and releasing a purring sound.

"Ash you kno- oh..my..fucking uh is there anything you want to tell me?!" She splutters eyeing me but i glare.

"I just told you how i felt and thats all you have to say?... im leaving" i snap dropping the water bucket down and begining to leave when she grabs me with her cold hands.

"Ash uh im guessing you dont know so this is awkward but uh...the plant i created its to keep the bat off my ass. He said if i could contribute to society then i could walk around freely so i made a plant that does interesting things..." She trails off scratching her forehead.

"Interesting things like what, determine what toxins have leaked into jokers brain?" I joke pulling my hands away from her but the look on her face tells me this isnt a joking subject.

"It determines pregnancies...and if youre far along enough the bud will bloom to either be a rose for a girl or it will turn into a venus fly trap for a girl" she says and i want to be happy for her, i want to tell her i love the ideas she has and how much of a genius woman she is but i feel frozen as i come to many sick realizations.

Theres a little me inside...ME. Im a parent. Im going to have to raise a child. The other parent is...joker. Theres either going to be a little me or a little him and God knows the world doesnt need another one of us, it didnt need one of us to begin with!

"A-are you going to tell him?" She ask as we sit on her couch and i look up at her with watery eyes.

"No, hes a monster hes sick in the head. No im not just saying that because we're on bad terms or officially over but hes not the kind of man who can raise a kid...

"...honestly he would kill a kid before raising one" i sigh wiping the fallen tears. "Ivy i've said it before and ill say it again, i dont need a man i never have if i have to raise this child by myself i can and i will! Maybe this is a sign that i need to just dissapear for a while." I finish looking at ivy for confirmation and she nods in agreement.

"Well its probably not the right time to say this but YAY IM GOING TO BE A AUNT WITH CUTE LITTLE MIXED BABIES" she squeals and i cant help but laugh.

" Its been 10 minutes the results are ready would you like to see if its a little you or little j?" She ask and i nod smiling running after her. Regardless of what happened with Joker i was actually extremely excited to have a baby. Slowly pushing open the door to reveal the plant i grin.

"Uh im not sure why that looks like that im sure its a mistake" ivy laughs nervously but i stop her.

"Of course its not normal what did you expect?" I question with a tiny grin. There right infront of me was a rose-bud with sharp teeth like a rabid animal and i smiled.

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