DISCLAIMER TALKS ABOUT DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY ISSUES SO IF THATS A TRIGGER IN ANYWAY BE CAREFUL(it's honestly not that bad but I feel the need to put a warning just incase)

Arriving on the campus was probably the scariest thing Lindsey Horan has done. She arrived to a new school with no friends, just a soccer scholarship. The only good thing is that it was college, most people don't care that you're a nobody because they just want to graduate.

She drove all the way from Denver, all of her stuff in the back of her car. When she got her keys she made her way upstairs and met her roommate.

"hello?"

"oh hey, you must be Lindsey, I'm Sarah you're roommate"

"hey, i'm assuming this is my side of the room" she pointed to the empty bed

"you'd be correct" Sarah chuckled "let me help you bring up your stuff since i'm already settled and have nothing better to do"

Lindsey smiled "okay thanks"

Well at least she'll have Sarah if everything goes to shit. They brought up her stuff and Lindsey started unpacking.

"so you're from Denver right?" Sarah asked

"Yea I lived there my whole life actually"

"oh nice, why did you choose a school so far? I mean I heard you were a great soccer player, you must have had tons of offers from schools closer"

"wow you get straight to the point..um well I didn't exactly have the best memories in Denver. Which lead me wanting to get as far away and start fresh" she said

"oh well, i'm sure whatever happened won't happen here, this is a pretty amazing school"

"I hope" she smiled at Sarah

"I just noticed your chain, I love it"

"Thanks it's pretty special to me" she thought about the moment her grandma handed her the chain before Lindsey left for school. Her grandma was the one person she could trust in Denver and leaving her was the worse. Her grandma is the only person who knows she's gay. She didn't have any friends and she never wanted to tell her parents, so she kept it a secret.

On the other hand Emily was settling in for her junior year of college. She was roommates with Rose, her best friend. This year for Emily was gonna be crazy she was finally turning 21 which met she would be able to LEGALLY drink. Illegally drinking was much more fun but it's fine.

Emily and Rose have been settled in for a few days, they got her early so that they could start training with Mal and Sam. All four juniors were now starters for the team, so it was an important year for them.

"Rosie this is gonna be our best year yet, we'll both be 21 AND we're starters, how could it get better"

"you could find a girlfriend and get out of my hair"

"you can't rush that, plus a girlfriend is not my list right now, I have more important things to focus on" Rose scoffs

"do you not remember last year where you made it a goal to hook up with as many girls you could pick up"

"Rose my dear that was last year's me. This year's me is not focused on the sex. Sophomore Emily was immature, junior Emily is smarter" there was a knock on their door.

"I wouldn't say that" Emily's face fell before opening the door

"hey losers" Mal said as she and Sam walked through the door

"hi, please ignore Rose she's being mean to me"

"am not i'm just stating the facts"

"oh gosh, what went down" Sam asked

"Rose said that junior Emily wasn't anymore smarter than sophomore Emily. I promise y'all I changed over summer break, no more sex with every hot girl I run into" Rose rolled her eyes

"speaking of girls me and Sam ran into this girl in the hallway, she's playing soccer here and we invited her to train with us today" Mal said

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(in the hallway)

Lindsey left her charger in the car and was going down to get it when she was two girls walking with a soccer ball and boots.

"um excuse me, do you guys play soccer her or..?" Lindsey asked

"oh yea we do we're both on the team, are you one of the new freshmen?" Sam asked

"Yes I am, I'm Lindsey by the way"

"I'm Mal and this is my friend Sam, we're going to meet up with two of our other friends and train, do you want to join?"

"If I can fine my boots in time I'll make my way down there..what time?"

"in like 10-15 minutes and we'll be out there for a few hours" Sam said

"okay cool hopefully I'll find my boots in time"

—

"a freshman really" Emily said

"Son don't be mean she's new and she seems like she didn't have many friends..also you might want to reconsider you whole 'no sex' thing because she's pretty cute" Sam added

"please be hot, please be hot" Rose repeated in a whisper

"seriously Rose, even if she is 'hot' I not gonna give in i'm stronger than that" everyone stayed silent

"really guys, you don't believe in me, whatever let's go" Emily sighed

They arrived to the soccer field and there's was no sign of Lindsey

"well looks like she isn't coming"

"give her a minute" Mal said

A few minutes later Lindsey arrived.

"hey Lindsey, glad you could make it" Mal said

"yea glad I came"

"let us introduce you, this is Rose she plays midfield, Emily is a defender and Mal, of course, is a forward, oh and i'm a midfielder too" Sam point to them as she's talks

"oh cool i'm a midfielder too"

"great one more to add to the list of awesome people" Rose said

"what year are you guys in you all seem pretty close"

"we're all juniors" Emily told her

shit Lindsey thought, *all juniors what did I get myself into* "oh cool, i'm a freshman incase you didn't know"

"alright why don't we start"

Two hours later they finished. Lindsey was good good they all learned that. Emily also learned that Sam was right when she said Lindsey was hot, I mean cute, but Emily was not gonna do anything because. Lindsey's a freshman and this is Emily's year to shine no distractions.

"hey Lindsey you want to get dinner with us tonight, there's this great place off campus, Emily loves there food" Emily elbowed Rose in the rib hard and she grunted.

"uh sure why not"

"great meet in the parking lot in two hours yea?"

"sounds good"

Lindsey's pretty sure she found herself some good people.

Back at the room Emily got angry,

"seriously Rose you're trying so hard to set me up for failure, why do you want to see me lose this bet so bad"

"because Son I don't know why you need to change so quickly, I also know you find Lindsey cute, and you can't resist"

"actually I can, i'm not some horny teenage boy" Rose snorted

"okay whatever you say"

They all meet up in the parking lot a couple hours later. They pile into Emily's car and drive to get food.

When they sit down Rose makes sure Lindsey and Emily have no other choice but to sit next to each other. Once they settle in Emily kicked Rose in the shin.

"Stop that" she whispered

"you stop it-"

"hey dumb and dumber why don't you both shut up" Mal said

"so Lindsey where are you from?"

"Denver, and before you ask I had a pretty terrible time there so I chose UVA to get as far away as possible" Lindsey said

"oh okay..well we will make sure to make you're college experience much better, hopefully" Sam said

Emily wondered to herself what was so terrible. Emily has had her share of terrible things, it is why she's so messed up today but she's only really shared that stuff with Rose. She told Mal and Sam but Rose was someone she's could wake up at 3 in the morning and she'll let you cry on her shoulder until you've finished. She knows that because it's happened..a lot.

Their food arrives and they all eat with the conversation flowing.

"to be honest I had no clue you guys were juniors if I knew I wouldn't have even talked to you" Emily laughed at that

"Were glad you did" Rose said

They went back to the dorms and we're about to split up when Emily really spoke to Lindsey for the first time

"Lindsey can I talk to you alone for just a second" she asked her

"sure"

"okay, uh keep going guys, i'll see you soon Rose" Rose had never been more confused, but Lindsey was even more confused. She thought Emily hated her, why would she want to talk to her.

Emily leads Lindsey to a bench outside the dorms

"I'm sorry, I think it may seem like I hate you but I don't. We really got off on the wrong foot, it's just that Rose and me have this bet going on about me not hooking up with random people, and she's trying really hard to make me lose, so i'm kinda mad at her, I think it seems like i'm taking my anger out on you but I swear i'm not. It's just I don't really trust people that easily, these guys have been my friends for two years now and I honestly only trust trust Rose but it took me a long time to tell them anything about me"

Lindsey sat there in shock, she was in shock because Emily just mentioned hooking up with her. A junior wanting to hook with her, she's only been here a day and she's already fucked.

"earth to Lindsey"

"oh shit sorry..uh no it's totally fine I don't know anything about you're bet but now i'm interested, and with the whole trust issue thing it goes both ways, I don't really let anybody into my life that easy"

"I want to restart, I would like to break through the mind of Lindsey"

"and I would like to break through the mind of Emily...you sure me being a freshman and you a junior is not weird in anyway"

"no of course not people here really don't care about that crap" Emily added

"cool, so any advice for your favorite freshie"

"stay away from the boys they're icky"

"only if you knew" Lindsey whispers

"what was that"

"thanks I'll use that information to my advantage"

"can I get you're number by any chance, maybe tomorrow we can hang"

"sure here" Lindsey put in her info into Emily's phone

"good, well I should go back because Rose might sent out a search party, she's done it before don't ask"

"wasn't going to, night Emily"

"goodnight Lindsey"

Lindsey sat on the bench for a little while longer and she was processing the whole conversation that went down. She made her way back to her room

"hey there you are" Sarah said

"yea sorry I went to dinner with some girls from the soccer team and then got caught up in a conversation with someone"

"oooo spill who was it"

"just this girl from my team"

"who?"

"her name is Emily"

"Oh my god"

"what"

"you were talking to her you lucky bitch"

"what" she laughed

"she hooked up with a ton of girls last year. Every gay girl wanted a piece of that, I was lucky enough to get that"

"wait, you and her are a thing?"

"oh no it was a one time thing she made that very clear, you should go for it Linds that night was unforgettable, WAIT DID YOU ALREADY GET IT OH-"

"Sarah slow down I didn't get anything, we were talking about being friends, how do you know if i'm even gay"

"Lindsey please you're so easy to read"

"shit" Lindsey whispered

"you're secret is safe with me" she zipped her lips

"she did mention hooking up but we're just friends and nothing more"

"whatever you say freshie, I should probably get to bed got a big day tomorrow"

"okay night"

"goodnight kid"

Lindsey got a text

Unknown~ hey Lindsey it's Emily. Wanted to know if u wanted to go on a hike tomorrow? I know a great trail

Lindsey~ sure sounds fun

Emily~ okay meet at the bench, 10:00am sharp

Lindsey~ sounds good boss :p

Emily~ boss? i like that one, see you tomorrow

Looks like Lindsey's got a long day too.