《There's Nothing Without You (Under editing)》24. The guilt of hurting her
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Sanskar: Swara is innocent.
Laksh (shocked): What? How did you know that?
Sanskar heard him and get confused. He slightly turned around and said: What do you mean Laksh?
Laksh (stammered): um..uh, No... nothing. It... it's.. j..just that till now, you didn't want to agree and believe that Swara is innocent.
Sanskar was still confused byt he way he was saying but said: I know Laksh but...
Laksh: but...?(Looking at him)
Sanskar: (sighs) I don't know Laksh but today my heart felt that I was wrong. I was wrong today and may be two years back too. I judged her on the basis of what Kavita said. You were right lucky. I didn't know her before. The girl who can love her step son more than anything else and that too my son, who insulated, accused her and her family. She should have hate me for what I did to her but I never saw any hatred for me in her eyes. I always had doubt on her that she love Arshit or not? May be she also knows it but she never tried to prove herself and she was innocent that day also still she didn't try to justify herself. That's the only thing confusing me. But I m sure now she is not behind all that there must be someone else.
Laksh: And why you did you realize it suddenly? You were not ready to listen anything when I told you that Swara must be innocent. She is not behind all that.
Sanskar: I know Laksh. I was not ready to listen anything that time because I didn't know her then but now... May be I started to know her. Its not sudden Laksh. When you said that she is innocent. My mind was not ready to accept it but somewhere my heart accepted it. I had to accept it because it was not only you. Maa also told the same thing and then yesterday at baadi, Shomi maa also said the same. Everyone cannot be wrong about one thing.
Laksh: What did she tell you? (Scared a bit thinking if he knows the truth?)
Sanskar: Nothing much but it just slipped out from her mouth that..
Laksh: That...
Sanskar: "Swara had accepted the false allegations I put on her" but why are u sweating? (Looking at him suspiciously)
Laksh: uh.. nothing. Just feeling hot.
Sanskar: Laksh, think before you speak. AC is on and you are feeling hot?
He looked at him intently then continued
Sanskar: Wait! Did you know that? I know you had belief on Swara but you were not sure about who did it. right?
Laksh (closed his eyes): Yes, I knew that.
Sanskar: Do you know who was behind it?
Laksh was about to deny but Sanskar interrupt: Not again!! I m having enough of your lies. I know you know it Laksh!!
Laksh didn't know what to do. One side he had promised Swara and other side Sanskar who was going to kill him.
Sanskar: Say it Laksh.
Laksh: Yes, I knew that Swara is innocent and who was behind it. ( Said in one breathe)
Sanskar: Who??
Laksh: Act... Actually when Swara was in college, there was a guy name Amit. He loved Swara but Swara never loved him. He proposed her but Swara didn't accept. Swara always wanted to marry with her and her family's choice and she didn't love him also. Above all that, she thought about her problem that is unable to speak. She never wanted him to destroy his life for her. So, she refused him. Amit was sad but he never lost his hopes. He continuously asked Swara again and again but she refused him everytime and tell him to move on. But in all this, there was a girl Smita. She loved Amit...
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Sanskar (confused): What? Wait!Where did she come from?
Laksh (murmured): I don't know how Amit came and he is asking how did Smita come?
Sanskar: Did you say something?
Laksh: um.., Nothing, Yeah, where I was? Yes, Smita. She was Swara's classmate. She loved Amit but Amit never give a damn to her as he loved Swara. Smita tried her best to get Amit's attention but never succeed. She became Swara's friend because of Amit. Still nothing happened.
After doing so much, When Smita didn't get Amit. She started to hate Swara but she pretended that she was Swara's best friend. She became obsessed with Amit. Their college was going to end. So, Smita thought that now Amit will forget Swara and she could get chance. So, she became Amit's friend.
After college Swara never met Amit but Amit never forget her. Smita got pissed off now. Then she got to know that Swara was getting married to you. She got angry that she didn't get her love and Swara was happily getting married. She wanted Swara to feel the same pain what she felt. So, she decided to do something to break her marriage. She came to meet Swara. As Shekhar uncle invited Swara's classmates. But when you were talking to Swara to stop this marriage and Swara also agreed. That time, Smita heard everything and her plan was failing then she made another plan and she convinced Swara not to do anything like that as it will spoil her family's respect. Still Swara didn't agree and decided to tell everything to her dad but smita didn't want to loose again so, she always create one or another way to keep her away from Shekhar uncle. On Sangeeth day, Swara finally decided that she will tell everything to her father after function.
On Sangeeth function when Kavita went to meet Swara. Smita saw her and sent Swara out and it was her who met Kavita. Remember Kavita didn't see Swara as light was off and there whatever happened was done by Smita only and after Kavita go. She stopped Swara to talk to Shekhar uncle.
Sanskar: How?
Laksh: Smita told Swara that she met Kavita and Kavita has a plan. They will switch the bride on Mandap and Kavita will take Swara's place. Swara didn't agree firstly as it will not good for both families but then she thought that you and Kavita. You both will get married because of this. So, she agreed.
Sanskar: If it is like that then when you went to talk to her, She should have understand that it was not the plan.
Laksh: She might understood but only if she would have heard me. It was not Swara whom I talked. It was Smita. She was in veil so...
Sanskar: Damn it!! How could you do this Laksh?
Laksh: I m really sorry Bhai. She was in veil and it was Swara's room so, I thought it was Swara.
Sanskar: And why the hell Swara trusted her blindly?
Laksh: Because she was her best friend Bhai.
Sanskar: Then whatever happened with Kavita on marriage day also done by Smita, right?
Laksh: Yes Bhai. It was Smita who was behind all this. Swara was innocent.
Sanskar: How did you know all this?
Laksh: Baba told me when I went to baadi.
Sanskar: Why didn't you tell me anything? Why did you hide it Laksh!!
Laksh: Because... because...
Sanskar (shouts): Because what Laksh??
Laksh: Because Swara told me. She stopped me saying that you will feel guilty and Anyway, Smita is no more so...
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Sanskar (confused): What? What happened to her?
Laksh; When she was returning back from marriage. I mean after marriage was broken, her car met with an accident and she died.
Laksh didn't get any reply from Sanskar so he look at him. He got shocked to see him in tears. Sanskar's eyes were filled with tears and red with anger at the same time. He banged his hand forcefully on the glass table. The glass broke and pieces pierced into Sanskar's hand. It started bleeding. Laksh sees this and got shocked.
Laksh: Bhai!!!!
Sanskar didn't said anything. He was in his own world. He was thinking about two years back, that day when he accused an innocent soul who never did anything. How he said that she deserves worst. She is two faced and selfish girl. Every word he said to her was haunting him now. He was thinking what she must have felt that time. He didn't try to understand her.
Laksh (shout): Bhai!! What have you done? See it's bleeding?
He rushed to take first aid and came back to him but Sanskar was not letting him do that.
Sanskar (mindlessly): Let it be Laksh. What I m feeling is only physical pain which can heal with time but what I did was sin. Because of me, Swara was feeling pain since two years. It never healed. It always remained there in her heart. How she must have felt that day? You know Lucky, Maa told that a girl dreams to have a perfect wedding which she remembers till her life but I made it hell for her. She will also never be able to forget that day till her life but as worst memory of her life. She is suffering for that thing, which she never did.
Papa is right, he should feel ashamed of me. Ashamed to have son like me. I can be everything but a better person.
Laksh: Bhai (hugged him).
Sanskar: I hate myself Laksh. I hate myself.
Laksh: Bhai, firstly calm down. You sit here.
He forcefully made him sit and started doing his first aid.
Laksh: Bhai, don't be like this. Whatever happened was past. It can never undone but you can correct the mistake you have done. Bhai remember once you told me, We should live with present not with past because if past is not good then it only hurt and give us pain. And about Swara, I know what happened with her was not good and may be she didn't forget anything till now but...
Sanskar: Laksh, I need sometime alone. Please leave.
Laksh: But Bhai..
Sanskar: please Laksh.
Laksh nodded and left after bandaging his hand.
Sanskar stayed in study. He was reminding everything happened two years back. He closed his eyes. As he was getting flashes of past, he was feeling more and more guilty.
Next morning,
Swasan room:
Swara got up and looked beside her. She got sad not finding Sanskar. It became her habbit to see Sanskar beside and smile to see him sleeping but today everything was different. She reminded yesterday incident and her expression changed into anger.
Swara (monologue): No Sanskar, I can't be weak this time. Because it's not about me. It's about my son and I m not going to take it lightly. May you never accepted me as your wife but you have to accept that I am his mother. Yesterday you called Laksh and on landline no. but not me. You didn't even think about me. I know you are having doubts that I love Arshit or not and I didn't try to prove you but now enough!! If you won't realize it yourself. Then, I will make you realize that I m his mother. I should be the first person come in your mind if you take any decision about Arshit, whether it's small or big.
She got up from the bed and went to fresh n up.
Study room;
Sanskar woke up and find himself sleeping on coach itself. He remembered last night and thought something then left to his room.
He was standing outside the room but was hesitate to knock the door. He knew that Swara was angry because of yesterday. If she will open the door or not?
He lean his head of on the door but suddenly door opened and he falls on someone. The person was noone other than Swara only who was going out but Sanskar falls on her as he was leaning on the door.
Swara closed her eyes while Sanskar sees her and for the first time he feel something finding her so close. Swara slowly opened her eyes and sees him. Her heart was beating fastly because it was the first tine he was so close to her.
They came back to world after hearing someone's voice. It was Laksh who came out of room and was going downstairs. He saw them in that position as they were lying at door only.
Laksh (monologue): Not bad Bhai. Within one night you reach here.
Laksh: ahm, ahmm,.. If you want to romance you can close the door and get inside.
Swara and Sanskar came in to their sense and glared at him but Laksh ran away. Swara got angry on seeing Sanskar. She slightly pushed Sanskar and got up. Sanskar's hand hit the floor due to slight push and started bleeding again. He winced in pain.
Sanskar: Ahhh!!
Swara who was going, heard him and stopped. She turned and saw him. Then only she noticed his bandaged hand which was now red because of bleeding. She hurriedly came to him and took his hand. She helped him to get up and made him sit on the coach.
Sanskar was just looking at her all the while. Swara hurriedly came with first aid box and sat beside him. She removed his bandage and bleeding increased. She was getting worried. She look at him and asked in her sign language.
" How this happened?" but then she jerked it as she thought he didn't understand.
Sanskar got what she was asking.
Sanskar: Actually, Last night, hand got hit with table edge.
Swara looked at him with narrowed eyes. Sanskar got that she knew that he was lying so he downs his head remembering last night. He didn't have guts to look into her eyes. Swara cleaned the blood and bandaged it carefully while Sanskar look at her and was feeling more guilty. His eyes filled with tears.
To be continued...
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