It was finally the last week of tour! It was hard and long but we all managed to get it done. We were ending the tour in Australia with four shows and right after the show I was flying back to Iowa except instead of seeing Angie, I had to endure the lost I had.

"Hey, umm Angie's outside. She said she needs to talk to you" Joey said.

For a minute my heartbeat began racing just hearing her name. It was the only name I wish I had heard for the rest of my life as my girl but that was taken from me from my stupidity.

"Okay, I'll be out in a bit" I said putting down my pen and notes for songwriting and standing up.

"Okay" Joey said walking out the van as I took a deep breath.

I got this. I'm okay. I opened the van door and saw Angie, beautiful as ever, standing near the front of the van. I closed the door and walked to her. Joey was standing at the other end of the van and I knew why. Trust.

"Yeah?" I asked as she took a look at me.

"I wanted to ask if you're flying back to Iowa right after the tour is done?"

"Yeah, I got the first flight out from Sydney, why?"

"I have a flight to Des Moines a week after the tour on the 16th and I'll be stopping by the house on the 17th to pack my things. Since we aren't legally married or anything I'm just getting my stuff and the things that belong to me, you can obviously keep the house and the vehicle" she said.

For the briefest moment I wanted to pull her into a hug and say sorry but I couldn't knowing fully well if I laid a hand on her Joey would come running.

"Okay. Did you find a home?" I asked curiously.

"Not quite yet but I'll find one. Whatever I leave behind that belongs to me, just throw them away or sell it, Mick, Stacy, Joey, and Craig will be helping me pack so just a heads up" she said.

"Yeah Stacy told me, I'll be out for the day" i said. For the moment I grabbed her hand, "Angie"

But she quickly pulled away from me.

"That's all" she said turned around and walking off into the venue where I knew ballet was getting ready to play with Silent Moment playing after them.

Four days left and today seemed to be the hardest day. I had to fly to Iowa a week after the tour since my first flight out was to London to check out the house that I had my eyes set on. I was going with Matt to look at the house, if I liked it I would buy it, if not I had to go back to Iowa, get my things and look for another place. I hope I really would love the house though. The last four shows in Australia were Perth, Adelaide, Melbourne, and Sydney.

I walked into the venue where Bullet was getting ready to play, after Bullet played we were next. I walked to Silent dressing room since Bullet would be out within 15 minutes. I walked into the dressing room to see MJ sitting at the table writing notes, Sage was playing on the PS3 with Alex.

"Where's the other two?" I asked taking a bottled water and sitting across MJ.

"Paige is taking to his sisters in the empty room next door, and Dani is getting a massage in the other room" he said.

"And what are you doing?"

"I am writing some lyrics. I had a whole crazy idea in my head that I had to write down, it was just crazy! And how does this sound?" He asked handing me the notebook as i began reading.

"This is amazing! Where did you find your inspiration?" I asked.

"Ummm just missing family, home, and always being away" he said and grabbing his guitar, "I haven't found the tune but with a couple notes I think I'll find it"

"Alright, we can go with this, I love it" I said, "and have you boys done much for the next album that is due next year and half?" I joked.

"Haha, it's so far away. I don't have much inspiration but I'll find it once I'm home" Sage said too focused on the game.

"I wanted to run a few notes with you, and see if you can find a tune or a lyric for it but we'll do that during studio time" Alex said also focused on the game.

"Okay, well I'm gonna go see to Matt" I said standing up and taking my water with me, "I'll share the few notes I wrote but none is finished"

"Ah well progress is all that counts" MJ chuckled as I walked out smiling.

We all agreed our next album would be due by December of 2012 as a "Apocalyptic" album as everyone knows those "End of the world" rumours. I walked towards the stage where you could hear fans cheering. I walked up the steps to sidestage where I saw Matt, the boys, and Veronika.

"Ah there's my girl" he smiled and walked to me with opened arms, "Its already feeling like so long" he chuckled.

"So long" I laughed while he embraced me in his arms as I wrapped my arms around his waist with the guitar between us.

"I talked with Corey, he agreed to the move so I should be fine, also our flight from Sydney leaves right after the show so we don't have much time, MJ, Paige, and Dani are coming with us on the flight, as well as your boys and Veronika. Sage has his flight to Moscow, Alex is to Paris so we are good to go, just make sure to have everything packed" I said as he smiled and leaned in for a kiss.

"Sounds good, I can't wait" he smiled as he let me go.

"Alright now go smash it" I laughed as he walked with Jay.

Veronika and Padge went to the other side of the stage since that's where he was usually at. Moose was on the same side but they were all getting ready to go on. I stood next to Richie who was quiet but super nice.

Once they began playing the crowd instantly responded with cheers, jumping, head banging, and mosh pits opened up. Ah this is what I would miss if I become a mother. I always told Corey I would give up my career to become a mother, but he refused. I'd be a stay at home mum and just run my company from home, I mean it is an international company anyway.

I continued to stare at Matt not aware that our set would start soon. It's been three months since we've dated and suddenly it felt like the right time for everything. Everything felt perfect.

"Alright, we're gonna leave you with a fan favorite that we rarely do but home is close and we'll miss you Australia so give me everything you've got" I said into the mic as we began to play 'Hearts burst into fire'

I look to side stage and saw Angie leave all while covering her ears. Since we've been dating, she continued to do that on this specific song. It sucked a bit but I never cared to ask.

"Until next time Perth!" I said after finishing the song, "Have yourselves a wonder night! We hope to see you very soon! Thank you so much! We love you all!" I said throwing my guitar picks and waving out before walking off stage, down the steps and behind the stage to wear Silent Moment we're getting equipped for their show.

I took off my guitar and gave it to Richie with Jay doing the same thing.

"Good job! Now three more shows to go for you boys" Dani said playing with his drum sticks as Moose, Padge,and Veronika joined us.

"I know, crazy three months with crowds, and such" I said as Angie walked to me handing me a water bottle and towel.

"Good job" she said with a kiss.

"Yep, first flight out tonight after we finish this show, I hope you boys have all your luggage already situated" Paige said as he adjusted his guitar.

"We do, it's already boarding the plane" Moose said.

"Oh here" Alex chuckled and began handing us water bottles but me.

"We have a meet and greet in Sydney, then an interview along with a cover shoot" Padge said tired down as Veronika had her arm around his waist.

"The last show is always chaotic, I don't know why they make it so hectic for us" Sage said as we all laughed.

"I think it's just to wear us down so we don't have energy to do much but go home" MJ laughed.

"Or maybe because they forget what they have to do then just smash it into the last day so they don't get shit for it" Moose chuckled.

"Hey come on, my company organises this tour and funds it so you can make your money" Angie said as we all smiled in guilt, "besides the last day is always chaotic because we gotta make the nostalgia come to life especially in the fans thus creating more emotional memories with the bands"

We all went quiet thinking about it.

"Ah I get it" Padge said as we all burst into laughter.

"Sure you do Padge" she smiled and playfully hit Padge.

"Alright well we better get going before we get more lazy" MJ joked as Angie hit him on the arm, "Ow! No need for violence Av" he laughed as she flipped him off.

The boys began walking to the dressing room, and the silent boys walked up to side stage in their position areas.

Angie and I didn't move and as soon as everyone was out of sight we both began walking to the steps together.

"We need more lighting, cut back in the lasers and don't push too much smoke out on the last couple songs" Angie said to the tech mechanic specialist.

"Alright boss" he said.

There was nothing but the sound of fans cheering as soon as the SM banner was down near the drum kit. Fans were crazy about Silent Moment, the highest paid band in the world with over 500 million record sells, who wouldn't be excited?

"Go have fun" I said to Angie giving her a kiss as she walked on stage.

Once Angie hit the stage with the band, the crowd went absolutely nuts when they began playing their first song. You just couldn't beat this, everyone always wondered how they became the most popular band but once you saw them live then you'd know exactly why. Even Bullet took inspiration from them.

Nothing could ever beat the feeling of being on stage in front of thousands of fans who looked up to you. It's amazing how metal worked. We were all a big family and I couldn't have been more proud of how far our band has came. Me, the boys, just us and our crew, we'd be nothing without our fans.

"Alright alright" I said in the mic nearly the end of the show, "we've got this last song before we head off so with this next song we're going to take you back to 2008 with a slow one, it's a good one because I'd like to dedicate this to every lover out there, including my own" I said and looked at Matt sidestage who was smiling.

We began playing a song we wrote called 'All for you' it was a love song, metal and melodic that we wrote just for the love of our fans and for our own personal lives. And we rarely played it but it was an absolute fan favorite.

"Thank you so much Perth! You've been amazing! We cannot wait to see you soon, we love you, take care, and be safe" I said finishing the last song I took my guitar picks and began throwing out to the fans who continued cheering and clapping.

I walked off to Matt who was smiling in the most adorable way. I took off my guitar and handed it to Mason before hugging Matt.

"You're so emosh" he laughed.

"You are too" I joked as we both walked down the steps together.

"Finally done with that show, can't wait to head to the airport, stay in a hotel, wake up, do press, sound check, and show, oh what a life of a rockstar" Paige laughed as we all walked down the hall.

"The boys are in the van, they don't want anyone waiting on us so they're ready" Matt said.

"Okay, most of our stuffs in the van, just need our bags and that's all" MJ said.

"I'll meet you at the van" I said as Matt continued walking out.

We walked into our dressing room to grab our bags that we brung in.

"That was something new" Alex said, "the song dedication"

"It was, I actually liked it. We should to it often" Dani smiled.

"It was just a one time thing, besides he was standing at side so I had too" I laughed as the guys all laughed.

"Aw she's blushing! Look at her" Sage joked.

I could feel my face turning hot and I couldn't stop smiling.

"You guys are something else" I laughed.

"That's so cheesy" MJ said as I continued blushing.

I grabbed my bag along with my phone and cup.

"Look! Fans left us some cupcakes with our names AND bullets" Paige said holding up the container with cupcakes.

"That's so awesome, I hate messing up an art" Alex laughed.

"It's made to be enjoyed not to stare at" MJ said taking his own cupcake and stuffing it in his mouth, "it's good"

We all laughed as Paige closed the container.

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