{Listen to the song it'll make you feel-

Empty?

Sad?

It'll just get you in your feelz,its great to listen to while reading this}

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This will mention suicide and self harm.

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-a couple days earlier-

The sun was shining over the caged school as it usually did as the white fluffy clouds wandered across the sky without a care in the world.

You had been exploring the area while also looking for the other students to socialize with.

Since rantaro and kaede's death you had really needed someone to talk to,so once you spotted a small figure in the courtyard you happily walked over,plastering a smile across your face for everyone to see.

You waved as he looked up at you,clearly surprised that you walked up to him but then he just looked to the side.

"Guten morgen Ryoma!"

You greeted him in German as you spoke multiple languages so you used it to your advantage.

your happy act smeared all over the hollow words giving them slight more meaning than before.

"Good morning"

The male nodded and responded while looking up,trying to make eye contact.

Would you like to hang out with Ryoma?

[✔] yes [ ] no

You and Ryoma conversed after you persuading him that you really wanted to talk to a person 'like him'

You thought you even saw him smile slightly while you were speaking with him about various topics,the subject would usually shift from time to time.

"Hey Ryoma..?"

You were sat next to him on the floor as you had been conversing for quite a while and had gotten tired of standing.

"Yeah y/n?"

He looked up from the floor to meet your gaze.

"I was wondering why you say things like 'why do you want to talk to a person like me' even though you're no diffrent from everyone else"

It seemed that he was uncomfortable as he shifted in his place for a moment before sighing.

"I'm a murderer."

He spoke plainly but with a heavy tone in his voice as if he truly hated himself for it.

"What do you mean?"

You tilted your head gently,letting your h/l hair brush across the sides of your face.

"I'll explain it to you."

Ryoma sighed softly as he began to spill out the bottled up trauma he had stuck in his mind.

"I was invited to play a gambling tennis game ran by the mafia.

I played along at first and then at the last moment I crushed my opponent"

His tone stayed as his normal monotone voice but with a hint of sadness and relief that he was finally telling someone.

"They slaughtered my family."

"I told her to run away so they couldn't get her. . ."

"That never mattered anyways,she was killed too,so I slaughtered them all for revenge on my family and my significant other at the time"

His eyes swelled with tears as they threatened to spill down his cheeks like waterfalls.

Your heart broke once you heard him explain his past.

"I-i'm so sorry that happened to you"

You embraced him in a hug which resulted in his facial expression to change to surprise before he slowly returned the hug,closing his eyes and beginning to gently smile as the tears that had been resting in his eyes spilled all over his cheeks.

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-time skip-

We decided to head to our dorms as the night slowly swallowed the schools sky as the stars shone bright with the moon along side them.

Ryoma waved tiredly To me as he walked into his dorm while I did the same thing and collapsed on my bed and sleep rushed over me like a wave.

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-first person-

*bing bong bing bong*

My eyes gently opened at the sound of the morning announcement with the monokubs arguing once again.

I sit up slowly and slide my feet off of the bed as I got out of bed and gaining my ballance while trying to get the sleepiness That lingered around me like a lost spirit.

I head over to the dining hall where everyone was waiting for me.

It was less cheerful due to kaede not greeting anyone with a happy 'good morning'

I look over to ryoma,he was sat eating some toast, so I decided to go get my favorite breakfast food and sit next to him.

" Buenos días amigo!"

I hum as i once again put on the cheery act that pleased everyone,i dont want to be a burden and make people worry about me.

After I had ate my food I heard angie anounce that there would be a magic escape act happening tomorrow morning in the gym.

I had gotten out of my chair and faced Ryoma who had just thanked kirumi for the food and turned around to look at me.

Would you like to Hang out with Ryoma?

[✔] yes [ ] no

-nobodies POV-

You and ryoma walked out of the dining hall and headed to his ultimate lab.

After a short walk to his lab that you had never seen before you had opened the door and walked inside with him.

You gasp as you look about,your eyes darting across the room to inspect it.

"Can we play tennis?"

You ask while looking down at Ryoma awaiting for his response.

He hesitated and thought for a bit before he answered.

"Alright,I can teach you the basics if you would like"

Your eyes light up as stars are gleaming in them.

" Oui s'il vous plaît!"

He raises a brow,confused at your foreign response.

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-time skip-

You had just finished praticing tennis basics and even playing a quick game of tennis,You obviously lost.

It had started getting late and once again the stars began to shine along side with the full moon.

"I'm going back to my dorm,cya tomorrow morning!"

You smile and wave goodbye before exiting his lab and heading over to your dorm,once again flopping onto your bed but this time you couldn't keep a certain someone off your mind.

You slowly slip into deep sleep as the thoughts of your crush quietened for the time being.

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-time skip-

You had woken up and already walked over to the gym kinda exited to see the performance,you look around as everybody else chatted while you stood alone.

"Where's Ryoma?"

You mumble to yourself before Angie started telling everyone what would be happening soon.

The piranhas were dropped into the tank and you suddenly noticed something odd.

You gasp and shout

"Ryoma's in there!"

Before the piranhas ate his body and the tank fills with the bright pink liquid

As the scene unfolds in front of you,tears prick in the side of your eyes as you drop to your knees.

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-time skip-

You stood at your podium clutching onto the hat Ryoma always wore close to your chest as tears threatened to spill from your eyes as shuichi revealed that kirumi was the blackened.

"Why. . ."

Your voice echoed through the whole area as it was brimming with hatred and sorrow.

"Why did you do it?!"

You scream out at the ultimate maid.

After her execution you sat there as nobody cared about ryoma and went to their rooms.

You looked down at his hat that was in your hands.

You begin sobbing.

" ¿Por qué se llevó mi amor?"

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-time skip-

After crying for a while you walk back to your room,your eyes puffy and red from all the tears that had streamed Down your face.

Your mind wandered over to the razorblade in the bathroom cabinet.

You hesitate but walk to the bathroom and reach for the razorblade that was lying on the cabinet shelf.

You pick it up and glide it across your skin as the blade marks sank in and pink blood began to lightly flow from the fresh cut on your wrist.

For some reason you could only just stare at the cut blankly before washing off the razor and placing it back In the cabinet and heading to bed.

You lay there,staring at the ceiling with nothing more in life to live for,in your eyes the only person who understood you was ryoma.

The feeling of nothing-ness and a feeling of void in your heart.

Everything was blank.

There it was,a solution something that brought you hope yet also despair,an escape from this cruel reality that you had been trapped inside,the idea swirled in your head flooding and drowning all of your normal thoughts.

You finally fell into a deep slumber

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Your eyes fluttered open,not at the sound of the morning announcement to your surprise,you sigh and get out of bed and walking outside but to your disbelief it was still dark as can be with the stars glimmering over the black blanket that covered the sky.

The idea suddenly popped up once again like a rhythm that seized to go away.

It played in your mind as each step you took toward the school.

your eyes had lost their shimmer,that glint that had shone so brightly before.

You had reached the game area that had arcade looking games with a screening room in the room behind.

This is where you had first met

You move ever so gently to the spot that made you ever so sad.

Tears began running down your face as the happy memories flood your mind.

Taking one look round the school shouldn't be a problem right?

-in ryoma's lab-

Pushing the door open to see an empty tennis room was heartbreaking,no lights,the machines off,the tennis net put away.

You sigh gently and look around to your hearts content as you let the moonlight shine through the windows giving you a pale blue source of light.

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-timeskip-

You had taken your look around the school for a final time and headed to your room,you had something accompanying you.

You put on some quiet, classical music kaede had told you about.

The piano key notes floated around the room making you feel at ease and calm while also a flood of sadness and happiness crashed over your brain like a tidal wave.

You exhale and pick up the sharp knife and pointed it towards your stomach whilr your arms were extended.

You thrust your arms inward,letting the sharp object penetrate through your skin and into your system letting bright pink blood splatter out all over your clothes and the floor.

You inhale sharply as the pain sank in,you first lost balance and hit the floor,your vision starts getting dimmer slowly. . .

Slowly. . .

S l o w l y . . .

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