Mikasa's POV

I honestly didn't have the energy to get up the very next morning to go to school. After last night I was to depressed to do anything else but I didn't want Eren suspecting me so I just got ready anyway.

"Have a good day at school you two" Kaurla waved to us.

"You to mom" Eren waved with a bright smile. "Bye Mrs Yeager" I waved with a fake cheery smile plastered across my face.

She smiled bigger when her eyes met mine but soon enough we both turned around to walk to school.

"Are you okay Mikasa?" Eren asked once we was far distant from his house.

"Yeah why you ask?" I lied while arching a brow.

I mean who wouldn't be okay when there told that they have 20 days to live.

But Eren didn't know that.

"It's just last night I heard you coughing then you didn't come out of the bathroom for a while" he remarked.

I wiped the sweat that somehow formed on my forehead. I didn't want to tell him.

I didn't have the guts.

Although he does know about the pills.

"Sorry to worry you, I just choked on something when thinking" I lied again.

"You choked on oxygen?" He asked confused. I chuckled. "Not precisely" I muttered.

"But after drinking water I was fine" I say once we got to the entrance of the school.

Everyone got use to me being around that they didn't bombard me with questions and take pictures with me anymore. Less letters was coming in my locker and the mean girls that envied me stop glaring. I guess I wasn't special anymore but that's what they think. No one knows about me having less then 20 days to live.

"Hey Mikasa and Eren!" Christa beamed excitedly while enveloping me into a big bear hug.

"Hey Christ" Eren greeted her as she hugged him as well.

"What's up?" I asked as the small blonde glanced at me.

"I'm having a party at my house this Saturday and I was wondering if you two wanted to come?" She asked in a sweet tone that was hard to turn down.

"Sure why would I miss a party hosted by miss goddess" Eren flirted while pinching her cheek.

I cringed a bit and felt my stomach twist into knots.

That didn't help ease the fact that I would be dead soon.

"Erm... I'll be right back" I quickly excused myself and ran to the nearest ladies room.

Once I was in I pushed passed the two students talking to each other, went in a stall and made sure I locked it.

I ran to the toilet and felt the thick liquid hit my throat before pouring it's way out from me.

"Hey are you okay?" One of the girls asked while knocking on my stall door.

Suddenly I went into a coughing fit.

"Oh my god, girl. What's happening?!" The other girl exclaimed worriedly.

"I'm fine" I managed to say. "Just sick is all"

"Do you need help being escorted to the nurse?" The first one said.

"No thanks I'm fine, thank you" I assure them before the two wished me luck and exited the bathroom.

I groaned while turning my head inside the toilet. The pool of blood swam in it.

I flushed the toilet and cleaned my mouth before exiting the bathroom as well.

I need to stop I thought to myself.

When I saw Eren do that to Christa I don't know what went through me. Nervousness? Jealousy? Scared?

Whatever it was upset my stomach.

The bell rung and I quickly walk to class if Eren happened to see me, which he didn't.

"Hey Mikasa you okay?" Eren asked me as soon as he had entered class. "Where you went?" He asked in a concerned tone.

"I just went to the bathroom" I muttered before averting my gaze from him.

Sensing my pain and anger he said nothing but sat down in his seat next to me.

• • •

My hours was up.

I needed another pill right now.

I was in gym, last period of the day. The girls was playing a nice game of volleyball. But once I finished serving the ball from my team I felt my legs start to wiggle and eventually numb up.

I excused myself from the game and went into the locker room and rummaged through my book bag looking for the pills.

Once I found them I went ahead in one of the stalls, inserted a pill in my mouth, added some water and swallowed.

Almost instantly my legs felt stronger then before.

"Mikasa?" I heard someone call me when I got out of the stall. My heart bounced when I saw Annie looking warily at me.

"A-Annie?" I questioned her being here.

"What's that?" She asked pointing to the bottle of pills that laid clutched in my hands.

"Ah! U-uh.. this?...It's my medication" I admitted.

"It's for your legs?" Annie quickly assumed. I just nodded.

"If I don't take one of these my body starts to get numb and I'll eventually die" I strained myself from telling the whole truth.

But it felt good to let it all out. At least to someone.

She gasped. "How much you have left?" She asked. "9 now" I sighed.

I really didn't have much time.

"Wait so if you run out of pills you die? Why can't Hanji make more?" She wondered.

"I....." I suddenly trailed off.

"I don't want her to make more" I confessed.

Eren's POV

Finally school ended but today was so weird. Well. No. It wasn't today that was weird. It was Mikasa.

She's been coughing more and excusing herself from most classes.

People who had more then one class with her noticed her behavior.

What was up with her?

I saw her and Annie walk out of gym together and wanted to know what was up but she flicked out and left me stranded while Annie followed her.

I walked home by myself to, Annie had texted me saying her and Mikasa was at her house.

I just accepted her being over there and walked into the house.

"Where's Mikasa?" My mom asked as soon as I walked inside the house.

"She's at Annie's" I simply responded. "She's been acting weird today" I sighed.

"She has been going through the bathroom a lot"

"Well maybe she was just on her period, body is changing" She assumed.

For some reason I felt my face heat up when she said Mikasa's body might be changing. I took it the wrong way.

"Oh well then I guess she is" I agreed.

"Want pasta and shrimp for dinner?" She asked holding up the ingredients. "Sure" I said before finishing my homework on the couch.

I decided to text Annie to see how Mikasa was doing.

Eren: How is she?

Annie: she's doing perfect, I got everything

Eren: Okay...

Eren: tell her I love her

Annie: she said she loves you to

Eren: Kay just checking on her, ttyl

I sighed while throwing my phone aside.

I honestly didn't know what to do without Mikasa here. I always usually tried to impress her with my gaming skills and smartness.

While mom cooked I headed to my room and laid down for a bit. A knock on my window echoed throughout my room, I opened it and saw Armin come in followed by Bertholdt.

"Hey hey hey!" Armin beamed at me before standing up.

"Hey" I said while laying back down on my bed. "Me and Bertholdt was reading books and decided to come check on you and Mikasa, where is she by the way?" Armin asked noticing her non-existent figure.

"She's at Annie's" I told. "Oh cool never knew they would actually get together" Bertholdt said sounding a bit surprised.

"What you mean by that?" I said sounding a bit terrified.

"Before we got together Annie has always been in love with you, but when you started talking about Mikasa for the first time and how you two was dating she asked me out to get back at you, it hurt though knowing she's using me to get back at Mikasa thinking you be Jealous...Mikasa has had all the attention for the longest and if anything Annie wants to ruin her right now" Bertholdt explained with a frown.

"Then we need to go get her!" I quickly said.

"I hate that she's dating you to make Eren Jealous" Armin spat. "Bitch need jesus, where is Marco when you need him?" Armin joked.

Bertholdt chuckled. "He's been on vacation a lot!" "Yeah I know and his lucky ass is in Florida while we suffer in school, he better bring me a souvenir" Armin threatened.

"Eren Mikasa is here!" My mom suddenly called out from downstairs.

The three of us headed downstairs and saw Mikasa getting out of Annie's car.

"Bye Annie!" Mikasa waved her a farewell before entering the house.

"Are you hurt?!" I asked clamming onto her arms startling her.

"How about 'how was your day Mikasa?'" she corrected me. I sighed. "Are you okay?" I asked.

"Way far from what I told you, but whatever I'm fine" Mikasa shrugged. "Did Annie hurt you in any way?" Bertholdt asked. "Hi Bertholdt and Armin" she simply smiled.

"What's with the weird questions?" She asked.

"Nothing....We just...Thought..-" "you was abducted by aliens!" Armin cut me off somewhat saving us.

All she did was arch a confused straightened brow.

"I'm going to help your mom finish cooking, bye Eren" she waved before heading into the kitchen.

"Okay she obviously doesn't get the fact we're worried about her" Armin rolled his eyes while the three of us ascended up the stairs and entered my room.

"I'm still convinced she did something to her" Armin delivered to us. "Possessed the bitch" he snickered. Bertholdt just slapped him.

"Your soo retarded sometimes Armin"

Mikasa's POV

That night I decided before I go to bed on the couch I take my nightly pill so I didn't have to worry about it for another 12 hours.

I dunno why Hanji says I have about 20 days left, to me I think I have about 6-7 days.

But now wasn't the time to think about my death, I needed to tell Eren sooner or later.

But either way he'll still be hurt and I'll still be dead.

If I told him later he would be extremely pissed and would wish he spent more time with me or should I tell him now so he is only ever focused on me.

He would still be hurting inside. Thinking someone like me would be able to live till I'm old and have a life with him. He cares so much about me that I would hurt him so badly. I got to close to him so his pain would be my fault, I didn't know how to carry that burden.

But I couldn't sleep on the couch. I needed to spend every second I could with Eren before my time came.

I grabbed my bottle of pills from my bag and headed to the bathroom.

Once I opened my bottle my eyes widen in shock.

I went from having 9 pills to having 4.

"What the hell?!" I quietly shrieked. The tears in my eyes sprinted quickly out giving me no time to hold them back.

Why do I have less pills?? How did I loose them!

No. I didn't want to die in 3 days. I needed the rest of the 18 days Hanji said I would be able to live through. I didn't want to die.

Not now.

Suddenly I let out a loud agitated, terrified shriek. I dropped the bottle of pills hearing them spill out of its container.

I fell down to the floor and started crying.

Why was life so unfair!

I didn't deserve this! None of this!

My parents died! I got paralysed! I stayed in a damn hospital for most of my life! Lots of girls tried to take Eren from me, we both argued a lot, I was told I had 20 days to live, I loose my pills...."What else do you want to take from me!" I shouted in rage. I cried hard.

I couldn't hold it in any longer, I needed this.

Suddenly I found myself wrapped up in someone's arm. I ignored the familiar feeling and continued crying. My hair was stroked and kisses trailed down my back. "Don't cry" he says in a sad tone as if he knew my pain.

But that didn't help. I cried harder knowing I would miss the feeling of being held in his arms. Especially Eren's.

"Is everything okay?!" I heard Kaurla's worried voice ring in my ears.

I tried to soften my cries so she wouldn't be worried.

I peeked over and saw Kaurla in her nightdress with her long hair out. She looked so beautiful but she tried her best to put on a calm expression. Grisha stood behind her his hair in its regular messy ponytail, night gown on and glasses crooked on his face. He towered over Kaurla.

"What's wrong Mikasa?" Kaurla asked. "N-noth-ing..Sorry I worried you" I heaved.

"Honey I'm worried now, please tell me what's wrong" Kaurla bent down to me caressing her hand on my back. Like how my mom and Hanji did to me.

"I just need more pills from Hanji" I kind of sorta but not truly lied.

"Okay I'll call her, Eren make sure she takes one of her pills while we call, make sure she is safe" Kaurla instructs while descending downstairs.

"Need anything Mikasa?" Grisha asked her. "Can I have a glass of water?" I asked while swallowing a hard lump in my throat. He nods and goes downstairs leaving me and Eren alone for a while. He rocks me gently back in forward and eventually yawns.

"C'mon Mika take your pill" he tells me helping me sit on the toilet. He collects the four pills and hands me one.

"Here's the water" Grisha says placing it beside her on the sink. "Thank you" I say faking a smile. He gives one in return before going back downstairs.

"Eren..." I say while hesitating to take the pill. "Yes?" He asked meeting my watery red eyes. "I use to have more pills then just four...I had 9 pills and somehow I have 4 bout to be 3 now" I explained.

He looks at me although he is consumed by tiredness I could see the sadness and anger that hid in his face.

"It's okay Hanji will make you more!" He reminds me. "It'll take about a week to make Eren...With these pills I only have a day and 12 hours, if I can't take a pill till then Eren I'm going to die" I confessed.

My voice went from sad to depressed. Eren was shaking while he laid his head on my lap.

I decided to tell him everything at the time. It seemed like the opportunity since I was going to die sooner then expected.

"Eren I'm slowly dying, I've always been. I was suppose to have about twenty days left to live, I didn't want to continue life anymore especially if these pills don't do much, I'm still dying...Face it Eren I've always been dea-" "don't say that!" He yelled at me.

His face leaked with tears. He clutched his mouth shut to prevent him from saying anything else.

"Just take the pill already" he says before standing. I do what he says and we both go in his room silently.

He holds me closer to him when were settled. "Face me Mikasa" He orders and I do what he says.

He puts his hands on my cheek. "I'm sorry..." He cries out. Tears run down his face one by one.

"I'm sorry I couldn't help, I'm sorry I wasn't the right person for you...I'm so freaking sorry" he cries. He pulls me closer to him sobbing into my chest. I pull him closer and hug him tighter.

The tears stain my shirt. I did it. I finally did it.

I managed to hurt the only person that loved me.

I kissed his forehead and then his cheek. "Don't cry Eren" I say rephrasing what he told me.

I wiped his tears away with my thumbs. Gently I pulled him closer to me and pressed my lips against his.

We kiss for a while and Eren can't help himself but pull me on top of him. His hands explores my body while we made out. Our tongues touched and danced with each other.

I moan into the kiss when I feel his hands slightly squeeze my butt. I stopped kissing to breathe and laid my head down on his chest.

"U-uh sorry!" He apologizes quickly and removes his hands. "Don't apologise Eren, I need this...Before I go" I muttered the last part.

"Your not going anywhere Mikasa, I promise" he says heavily.

Even though we both know that's not gonna happen we engage ourselves into another make out session.

This time we don't stop. We go on forever, till we feel like were done. He moans I moan. I get naked he gets naked. He puts a condom on and inserts me.

We go on for 2 hours till were both finally rubbing against each other. Tiredly.

"Eren... I'm-" " Save it" he cuts me off and thrust a bit faster before my juices come out and onto the condom. I breathe heavily as I lay down on his chest.

He pulls the blankets over us and we both make out for a few minutes before eventually we fall asleep.

I knew what Eren did.

He wanted me to forget. Us to forget. That what I said didn't happen.

That I wasn't going to die in a day. He wanted to forget. I did to.

But this was reality.

I was going to die.