Mikasa's POV

I hate myself. Why didn't I tell him earlier?!

I was such an idiot!

After wanting to talk to him I didn't tell him I'd be dying shortly

2 days to be exact

I sighed heavily and couldn't help but hate myself for not telling him

It was near noon were soon the day would end and I would have nothing but one day left

My life sucked but at least I got to spend 12 days with Eren and all my amazing friends.

I was going to miss them so much

I felt myself about to cry at the thought and shook my head

Gosh I need to get this out of my head!

If I die with this secret it will do nothing but hurt Eren and everybody else.

I wanted to live a full life with Eren and I wasn't going to experience what it was to truly love someone

"Mrs Ackerman you have a visitor" one of the doctors told me as Eren came in.

I didn't smile.

All I felt was more pain.

"Hey Mika what's up?" Eren asked as the door closed behind him

He went to it and locked it.

"I'm good I guess" I say lowly thinking he heard me.

"Mikasa what's wrong?" He asked taking his jacket off and putting it aside along with his shoes and socks

"N-Nothing" I stuttered a bit making it quite obvious

"You sure yesterday you seemed like you was hiding something" he says

Flashback

"I think we need to talk" Mikasa says as Eren turns around from leaving and sits besides her.

"What is it?" He asked patiently and calmly

"E-Eren...I want to tell you that.. er um..." "Yeaa?" He asked still waiting.

"I love you so much!" She smiled happily

Although Eren saw right through her smile that there was sadness. He said he loved her back, kissed her then left

End

"I'm fine" I say pursing my lips. To bad he wasn't that gullible cause he stood there and gave me a look.

"You sure?" He kept asking as he took his shirt off.

He never has done that!

I felt my face heat up seeing all his muscles and abs.

Wow he must work hard.

The part that got me more nervous was when he got in the bed with me and laid atop of me not to close to my face.

My body burned.

"E-Eren what are you doing?!" I asked bewildered as he bent down and gave me a soft kiss on my neck.

"Mikasa I love you so much and you might not probably know what I'm doing and think I'm crazy but you never leave my head and I'm glad we have love between us...so I want to show you all the love I have in me" he explained a little nervous

Now his face was burning and I could tell he was redder then a tomato.

I think I knew what he was doing. I see it in the movies when a couple is on there lover and they do things to each other.

Was Eren going to do that to me? I thought nervously

I felt Eren softly kissing from my cheek to my neck gently sucking on my skin.

I didn't know what to do.

I was so nervous!

He then pulled me into a nice passionate kiss and before I even knew what I was doing I was kissing back.

We haven't let go, our lips was sealed together like the lie that I kept from him. I felt something wet press against my moist lips and opened my mouth a little as I felt Eren's tongue slip into my mouth.

For a few minutes our make out session went on until I felt warm air press against my exposed skin as I saw Eren put my shirt down on the floor. "Eren are you going to show your love through this?" I asked.

He nodded.

"I want you to feel how much I love you" he said

He touched the tip of my bra giving me a sign he was going to take it off.

He slipped it right off my body as he gulped a bit dragging his fingers across my chest to my stomach

"Your body is so beautiful" he says sounding a bit horny

I blushed.

"Thanks" I say

He then inline his finger tips with my shorts and slowly started dragging them off me.

"Eren can you...please take me as yours?" I say a bit embarrassed

He smiled a bit and placed a nice kiss on my lips before giving me love bites on my stomach.

He sucked and kissed my stomach for a while until he pulled down my underwear and for the rest of the night all I felt was pleasure, relief and sane because I probably would of been dead already if it wasn't for Eren.

"I love you Eren" I say after we finish making out.

We breathe heavily sharing the air between us.

"I love you to baby never forget" Eren said before pulling me back into another kiss

We never let go of each other.

To think I would fall in love with someone who only volunteered to help me.

He made my dreams come true and make me see and feel things I never thought I would get to do.

Now we was sweating, breathing heavily and exhausted.

Eren wiped his head from the sweat making his hair stick to his forehead

Eren bent down to me and gave me another kiss

"Mikasa your the best thing that has ever happened to me" he says pecking my cheek.

He lays down beside me as I look over to him.

He seemed tired

"Eren shouldn't you be going home we did this for 3 hours straight it's late" I tell him.

All he did was shrug.

"All I want is to be with you" he says calmly kissing my forehead.

Should I tell him?

Now seemed like a good time.

A lot of things ran through my head until Eren poked my nose.

"Your so cute...I'm going to miss you" he says

My eyes widened.

Does he know?!?

"E-Eren I..."

"It's okay I know you only have one to two days left...I try not to think of it" he tells me

"I'm sorry you must hate me for keeping this in ever since we met" I sprung up with tears in my eyes.

"There is nothing to be worry about Mikasa I'm here for you always" he said his voice cracking

He sounded like he was going to cry

"Er-" "please don't leave me Mikasa your all I ever wish for its heartbreaking to know in a few hours you'll be gone" he cried with tears streaming down his face.

I felt he guilt, I felt his pain and now I was going to die with this feeling

I didn't want to see Eren crying

He has gotten to close to me that now I'm somewhat important to him

"Eren please don't cry I've gone through to much your pain hurts worse though" I tell him

Eren turns over getting on top of me and kissing my stomach

He never stopped kissing me

"I love you so much Mikasa and tomorrow I'm going to make sure your happy and then for the last day.... I won't tell" he says

"Eren" I say. "Hm?"

"Don't plan anything weird" I say as he laughed.

"I'm not a pervert" he says with a smile.

"Yea keep saying that" I laugh to.

Suddenly I felt better

But that's because I had Eren with me