"You know what? I think it's best if we just go back now. It's late, he's probably already dead asleep and doesn't want anyone to bother him."

"Miyoung, it's seven in the afternoon." Nayoung deadpanned.

I groan. "So? People have different sleeping schedules!"

We were parked in front of the Jeon's mansion, and once we arrived at his neighborhood, I chickened out. There could possibly be no way he would want to see me now, right?

This was a dumb idea.

"Listen, why don't I just talk to him at school?" I whine, grabbing Nayoung's arm and pulling it.

"The school has a week-long break, remember?" She sighs. "Look, we're already here. Stop being such a pussy and go talk to him right now. What do you have to lose?"

I pretend to think. "My pride."

"Honey, you lost that a long time ago." I gasp and hit Nayoung's arm, emitting a chuckle from her. "Seriously, go in and talk to him now before you regret it."

"Your house is close by, right? How about we take a breather there and rationally think of a plan before I barge into his house and confess." I shudder when I think of me actually telling Jungkook about my feelings.

That was something I never thought I would've said.

Thinking back to earlier this year, even way back when we were kids, I would've never imagined me being in the position of fighting myself to tell Jungkook I liked him.

If someone had even mentioned something about a spark of romance between Jungkook and I, I would've probably had their head. I hated when people talked about us like that. I hated when people thought of us as a couple.

But now that I finally had my feelings sorted out, I was starting to think that it wasn't such a bad idea after all.

"We're not stopping at my house," Nayoung said with a roll of her eyes. "Get out of my car before I have to physically remove you from my car myself."

"Alright damn, chill." I say with my hands raised, slowly getting out of the car. "If I don't come back out, call the cops."

"Or that means that you and Jungkook will-"

I cut her off immediately. "Stop!" I ignore her laughs and hurriedly walk to the front of his door.

I feel my heart pounding against my rib cage as I lift my finger up to ring the doorbell. I could feel my heartbeat in my ears. I hated feeling nervous.

It was just Jungkook, right? There was no reason to be so nervous.

Yeah, but you're here to tell him you like him. And don't forget the part where you broke his heart at the school dance in front of people.

I gulp and try to brush my thoughts away, anxiously awaiting for the door to open.

Maybe it's not too late for me to jump back into Nayoung's car, I think to myself. I turn around and see that her car is long gone, probably back at her house.

The door opens behind me. I jump and turn around to see Mrs. Jeon with furrowed eyebrows. I gulp again and stand up straighter.

"Hi Mrs. Jeon!" I cheerfully say, mentally hitting myself for being so perky. "Is Jungkook around? There's something I need to talk to him about."

She looks at me up and down and nods, her face dancing with confusion. "Yes, he's up in his room. Come in." She moves aside and lets me in.

I bow quickly and run up the stairs and to his room. I immediately come to a halt in front of his door, the nerves inside of me all over the place. I felt like my heart was about to come out of my chest.

I hesitantly knock, trying to swallow the nerves beginning to creep up my throat.

"I said I'm not hungry." I hear his low voice from the other side of the door.

The butterflies in my stomach only got wilder as I tried to form the words. "I—Uh, it's Miyoung. C-Can we t-talk?"

Curse my stammering.

It was silent for a brief moment before I hear shuffling on the other side before the door opens. I gasp when I see Jungkook.

Nayoung was right, he looked dead. His hair was a mess, there were dark circles under his eyes. His clothes were wrinkled and he smelled. And not in a good way.

"What are you doing here?" He said blankly, his face expressionless.

I swallow the lump in my throat. "I need to talk to you."

He scoffed. "Yeah? What, do you want to rub it in my face how you left me at the dance like an idiot?" His eyes were cold as he stared down at me. "I think I got the hint."

"Jungkook—"

"You even had the nerve to go with another guy after I let out all these bottled feelings. Man, I knew you were a bitch, but you really had to stoop so low?" His jaw was clenched.

I gasped, a stab going through my heart. "What?"

"Just leave me alone Miyoung. I don't want to be around you, I don't want anything to do with you." He said coldly.

Before he could close the door on me, I stuck my foot between the door and the doorway, holding him from closing the door. He glared at me and waited for me to move my foot but I wouldn't budge.

I wasn't going to back down now.

"If you could shut up for once and let me explain, that would be awesome," I say softly. "Once I'm done explaining myself, then you can go back to hating me and not having to do anything with me. Deal?"

He looks at me and sighs, opening the door to let me in.

His room was a mess. There were clothes on the ground and his bed wasn't made. There were plates stacked up on his desk and just so many different thinks lying on the ground. I cleared my throat and stood in front of him as he plopped on his bed.

"Well? What do you have to say?" He says, his famous smirk on his face. "If you're here to just break my heart more, then I suggest you leave now."

"Can you shut up?" I raise my voice, running my hand through my hair as I watch him cower back. "Just—Just stop talking and let me just get everything off my chest. If you say one more word, I don't think I'll be able to get everything out."

Jungkook looks taken back but hesitantly nods, crossing his chest and allowing me to talk.

I sit down on his desk chair and take a deep breath, getting ready to pour out everything.

You can do this, Miyoung. You got this.

I look up at him and sigh. "You have every right to hate me. Honestly if I were you, I would want me out of my life forever. What I did that night was just horrible. I wish I could take that back and face the situation like a normal person, but I can't. I'm a coward, Jungkook. I can't face things head on, I don't do well under pressure, I'm weak."

"I didn't want to believe you. Everyone around me constantly told me that you liked me but I refused to listen to them. How could I? You're my enemy for years. Why would I believe them when I knew the truth? You only teased me because that's what enemies do. I wanted to think that no one understood us better than us two, but it seems like everyone around us knew us better than we did ourselves. Or, at least knew us better than I did."

"Once time kept going on, I started seeing the signs, but I still refused to acknowledge it. The only person I thought about was Taehyung. I thought he was the one for me, I thought we could work out. But once you and I started getting closer and not fighting as much, the more I knew I was dead wrong about everything. Everything regarding what I felt for who was flipped just like a switch."

"Without me knowing, I started to fall for you, Jungkook. I think that somewhere deep inside of me, I knew it, but I didn't want to. There was no way I was going to like you. But the more I found myself enjoying spending time with you, the more butterflies I felt once I saw you, the more times you smiled at me, I knew. When you confessed to me at the dance, I couldn't process the news. I felt like it was too much information in such a short amount of time, and I couldn't comprehend everything right then and there. You know me, Jungkook. You know I need time to think about things because I can't face it immediately. I'm so sorry I ran off like that, I'm sorry I left you at the dance alone, but most importantly, I'm sorry for breaking you heart. I'm sorry for not realizing my feelings sooner, and I'm sorry for not realizing, well, your feelings either."

Jungkook now sat up straight, his eyes wide as he continued to listen to me rant.

"Jungkook," I take a deep breath, gaining the courage to look into his eyes. "I love you."

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