"Dad is that you," I question the man in the suit standing across the room. Right after I said those words the masked figure turned around and ran. "Wait," I yell chasing after him. I finally catch up to him when he turns around and takes off his mask to reveal....

"Dad," I yell jumping out up from my covers. "Kourtnie its ok it was just a dream," I comforted by a voice I thought I would never hear again but how much I wanted to be angry there was this feeling I couldn't shake when I was with him. "No you don't understand I was about to see the face behind the mask to see if it was really him, to see if my father is still alive," I state starting to hyperventilating. "Hey shh its ok Kourtnie," Alex tells me starting to rub circles on my back. "We have to find him and before you say it was a ghost you know damn well it wasn't you say him get in a town car," I tell him. "Listen Kourtnie I won't rest until I find out he that was if it was really him or not but I promise you we will find him," Alex tells me giving me a comforting hug. "Thank you but I should let you know until I find out who it is I can't be in a relationship," I tell him. "Oh so you do have feelings for me," Alex states. "No I was saying if you were the last person on this earth maybe I would give you a chance," I tell him. "Good so friends," He says placing his hand in front of me. "Acquaintances." I state and shake his hand. "Ok we have work to do," Alex says getting off the bed. "After breakfast," I tell him.

Last night after I thought I saw my father Alex was the only on there to comfort me. Chloe had gone out with Ana after cotillion and Lewis was out getting over another break up with Brynn but this time apparently its for real and they decided to stay friends. So Alex was the only there and he knew I wasn't crazy because he saw him too. After I calm down a little bit, me and Alex called Arthur to drive us back to my penthouse. When we got there Dorota was already off so it was an empty apartment. I immanently walked to my room and flopped down on my bed and covered my whole body in the duvet. For the first time in the time I've known Alex which is since Kindergarten he did something gentlemanly like "Hey I'm going to head out I figured you would want some alone time after the events of tonight," he stated making his way out of my room. "Wait do you mind staying with me," I ask him. "Sure I'll sleep on the floor," He says. "No um you shouldn't have to you can sleep in the bed with me." I tell him. "No it's fine," he refuses making a bed for him on the floor. With that we where off to sleep no sex, kiss goodnight, or hug and some part of me felt sad about it but the other was relieved.

We had just finish breakfast and started to plan our scheme on finding my dad. "So it was a closed coffin funeral and I never saw their bodies after the um the accident," even though its already been almost been 3 months since the accident I still struggle to say it out loud. "So to find out what's in your fathers grave we have to either have to talk to people who prepared the bodies or, do you have a shovel." he says. "We have to go with option 2 even though I don't want to we have two the people who prepared his body can't be trusted," I say my voice getting shakier by the minute. "I'm so sorry Kourt," he says with sympathy but it doesn't help when he uses the nickname only my parents called me but I have to put on a brave face. "No its fine meet at the cemetery at midnight so no one sees us," I tell him as I exit my room. "Where are you going," he asked. "I have a to go see someone and tell no one of what happened last night," I tell him before I leave.

"Chloe are you here," I yell through the Humphrey apartment. It was Saturday which meant me and C had a tradition to fulfill. "I'm coming just let me put my shoes on," she says as she makes her way down the hallway Jimmy Choo's in hand. "Are you ready for our tradition of going shopping and catching up on everything we missed in each others lives," I ask with a smile plastered on my face. "Someone's happy," Chloe says voice dripping in laughter. "No just need a break from reality and the only way to grant that is with a little black card," I tell her. "Ok then we should get going," Chloe states.

"No did you two," I ask Chloe as we walked out of Chanel. We where currently talking about Chloe's night and I was getting a new bottle of Chanel Number 5. I look over at Chloe who was awkwardly silent after I asked her if she popped her cherry last night so, I immediately knew what that meant. "Congratulations how was it," I ask crossing all boundaries and not having a care in the world. "Ok so we're going there," she said as I shake my head yes. "Well it was special because we both lost it to each other," Chloe says cheeks starting to redden. "Thats so sweet and romantic C." I tell her while silently wishing mine was that special but I'm also glad it happened because it make me the powerful women I am today. "So do you have any news," she asked probably hinting at why I left yesterday early. "Well I have multiple schemes in progress. One finding out who brought on the jewelry I had on hold back when my birthday was 4 months ago and it wasn't my parents and the jewelers won't tell me. Then my other one is trying to pawn Alex in forgetting me forever which is hard work because he is everywhere I go," I tell her avoiding the events of last night going as far as lying about the scheme against Alex. "No I want to know what happened last night when you ran out," she asked. "Well I had an emergency at Bass Industries so I had to leave," I told her. "Ok then do you want to meet up for a movie tonight and mani pedi's at my place," Chloe asked. "As much as I would love to I have another meeting tonight about the opening of the Spoon and the speak easy." I tell her. "Ok I forgive you as long as get me on the guest list for the speak easy opening night," she tells me. "You know you already are C and tell Serena I'm staying at my suite in the Empire since the meeting is held there and I'll be there late," I ask. "Ok," she says. I glance down at my watch and notice the time reading 10 P.M already. "Hey I got to go," I tell her. "Ok love you and your gonna crush it at the meeting," Chloe states as she gives me a hug. "Thanks for the support," I tell her as I hail down a taxi.

"Arthur will you take me to the Empire please," I tell my driver as I hang up the phone. "Right away miss," Arthur says as he rolls back up the window. I walk into the empire to be welcomed by the busy halls of people checking in and checking out. Before I could make it to the elevator, I feel a large hand put on my shoulder. I turn around ready to chew some one out but instead I see the oh so familiar face that gives me a feeling of butterflies in my stomach and even though I tried so hard to get rid of them but I can't no matter how hard I try. "Don't do that to me ok now lets go upstairs to work out the plan once more and then we can go," I tell him as we make get into the elevator. He simply responds by giving me a stupid smirk and presses the button to my suite. "You know Bass I never thought we would be friends that ever talked to each other. I mean I thought you were some stuck up, trust fund baby, who only cared about money and only wanted things her way or no other. I mean the only thing I though we had in common was our friend group." Alex suddenly blurted out breaking the awkward silence as the elevator made its slow descend up. "Well Reed your not so bad yourself even if I thought you were a player who was incapable of love." I tell him. "Well I hadn't met you yet," he tells me getting closer. "Alex we can't," I say trying not to lean in but ultimately failing. "Looks like we already are," he states as he connects our lips. I kiss him back for 5 seconds before pulling away. "I'm sorry Alex but you know what I said," I tell him. "Kourtnie Eleanor Bass I love you," Alex tells me but before I have a chance to say anything back the elevator door opens. "Looks like we have a scheme to plan," I say and step out of the elevator. All I can imagine while I'm walking out is the look on face of sadness I mean he just told me he loved me and I couldn't say it back and I wanted to so badly and I couldn't no matter how much I wanted to I couldn't get my mouth to form the words. We have been sleeping together for 9 months and he makes me feel so good but I can't say 3 words 8 letters to the man I love.

We were on the way to the cemetery and Alex hadn't said a word to me since I didn't return 3 words 8 letters. Once we got to the cemetery we found the grave marked: Charles Bartholomew Bass Loving Father and started digging. It took 30 minutes of pure awkward silence when we hit the grave. "Can you open it I don't want to see his body if it's really there," I ask Alex. Instead of responding with words he simply shakes his head yes and goes to open the coffin. I shut my eyes so I didn't have to see what was inside, "Kourtnie you might want to look at this," Alex tells me marking the first word he's said in hours. I open my eyes to see an empty coffin "my-my-my father's," I start stammering but before I can say the last words some voice from behind says the last word "alive." I turn around to see......

Cliffhangers every great entertainment uses them and what cliche would I be if I didn't use on. That's all for now. You know you love me

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