Thursday, 4:00 P.M.

Ryuk

Me:

Wanna hear a joke?

Ryuk:

Not really

Me:

Pleeeease

Ryuk:

Ok tell

Me:

Knock Knock

Ryuk:

Come in

Me:

...

Ryuk:

What?

Me:

I hate you

Ryuk:

Nothing is fake. It's

true hate.

Me:

Ryuk:

How much time do

you spend in finding

these huh?

Me:

~I spend 10000 hours

and 10000 more~

Ryuk:

~Oh if that's what it

takes to learn that

sweet heart of yours~

Me:

Ryuk:

What? I was just

vibing.

Me:

You were flirting

Ryuk:

Oh so sorry if it felt

like that but you should

know your standard.

Me:

Obviously I wouldn't

stoop as low as you

Ryuk:

Me:

Go hold it in front of

a mirror.

Ryuk:

...wow 😯

Me:

I won?

Ryuk:

Never. You are a loser.

Me:

Ryuk:

But you still are talking.

Me:

Yeah I was asking

wassup?

Ryuk:

Was working on something.

Its been a little tiring

actually.

My stomach just took a flip. He just told me what he is doing instead of saying nothing. Why do I care?

Me:

Oh. Basically i thought

u were doing nothing

Ryuk:

😒😒

I do work unlike

you.

Me:

I don't need to work.

Unlike you. 😘

Ryuk:

I am independent.

Unlike you. 😘

Me:

Hah? There is no

freedom in fame. 😘

Ryuk:

I am not a coward.

You are. 😘

Me:

It's a choice 😉

Ryuk:

Well yeah it is. Certainly.

Me:

😌😌

Ryuk:

So when are your parents

returning?

Me:

In 5 days.

I cannot wait for them

to comeback!!

Ryuk:

Are you bipolar?

Me:

Ryuk:

You are a.... What?

Me:

Read mf bitch.

I am not bipolar. I love

them. They are my fam afterall.

I just cannot stand

their ideology.

Ryuk:

...oh

Me:

You know rich people

having the so called

sophisticated sense.

They just want everything

how they like.

That's not how the world

works. I am someone other

than their daughter too.

I have an identity. And how

sad that I have to fake

it in front of my own parents.

Deletes message

Ryuk:

Me:

Congratulations you

just first handedly

witnessed that I am

a bitch.

Ryuk:

No you're not. Firstly

you have to validate

your own feelings.

You're judging your

own self.

Me:

I guess but that's right.

I think way too deep. I

cannot not think deep.

Even when I feel empty,

I feel it fully.

So, my thoughts are all

over the place. The world

of the living did me no

good.

Ryuk:

But you're living too.

You're also human!

Me:

But I don't really

live with them

It's like I created my own

world inside my head and

have loved the characters,

played with them, eaten

with them. But suddenly,

it struck me that none of

them is real. And it left

me all empty

How can we mourn over

the loss of something that

never existed? Ask me.

My life is that lament.

Ryuk:

You've got a way with

words.

Me:

Words are just a medium

I connect myself with

the fake world.

I don't really talk much.

I just type or write it down.

Sometimes it feels if

no one will talk to me,

I'll never speak.

Ryuk:

But you're the one who

always wanna call me. 😏

Me:

Sometimes, when you

become too exhausted from

not using your own senses.

Your body starts rotting

on the unsaid emotions.

We need speech then.

I cannot comfort you without

knowing the way the world

messed up with your brain.

And your vocals say that.

Incoming call: Ryuk

Accept / Decline

[Hello?]

[Your vocals are messed

up pretty bad.]

Don't mess with me stranger boy. I may speak out emotions that are caged within me.

[Haha not at all.]

[Did you ever get it

checked? Maybe it's

a sort of depression?]

[No. It's not depression.

It's just a blank space

of mind.]

[How do you know? Are

you a psychologist?]

[Woah. No. But like

I have no reason to

be depressed.

I have money, I have

cars, I have a house, I

have a fam, I have

friends. Like won't it

be selfish if I am

depressed?]

[No. It is not selfish.

Infact all this adds to

the suffering. You cannot

even be depressed.]

[On that note. I am

not depressed.]

[If you say so. But still

visiting them won't

cause an issue.]

[Issue? My parents will

think I am insane. ]

[Don't tell them then]

[They'll get to know it.]

[*Sigh* you yourself

don't wanna go. If I was

there, I would have

forced you into going

there.]

[Haha. Like hire a van

and some buff men and

kidnap me.]

[Don't really need buff

men. I am enough.]

[You wish?]

[Oh yeah sorry. I forgot

that youre a fatty]

[Excuse me?

Bro, I have struggled hard

to maintain my body.

Don't just stay stuff.

And btw did you just

body shame me?]

[If it's not you then how

is it body shaming?]

[Yeah but... Yeah youre

right.]

[I know you didn't have

to affirm.]

[Exactly what are you?]

[Someone you can't

get.]

[Bro really you are arrogant.

You're are callow. And also

immodest.]

[What?]

[I mean that sort of pride is

kiddish.]

[I am not like this. I just

speak stuff.]

[Still. It's rude.

I mean you only

said to me "you're always

responsible for your

words no matter how

you feel"

And that could be hurtful.]

[I am sorry if it offended

you in any case. I was just

jesting around.]

[No. It didn't hurt me.

I am just telling you in case.]

[No thanks.]

[How can I send you

an emoji with that

disgusted face on call?]

[No need. I can be

disgusted just by your voice]

[Man. Just because you

have a nice grunt in your

voice doesn't mean you

can look down on mine!]

[You just said that I

have a nice voice.]

[I said. Isn't that the truth?

It's very much something

I hear somewhere. But like

the voice changes a bit on call,

so, I cannot make out ]

[You don't even need to.]

[Sure. Get lost. Bye.]

[*Chuckles* bye]

Call ended.

What was it? The first time he laughed?