"what the heck Troian?!?! AND Keegan. what's wrong with you haven't you heard of birth control?" Tyler says snarkly.

"I hate to say it but he's right. it's time for you guys to focus on the show and each other and your family, us." Shay says.

"guys we told you we were letting God decided when we got kids. we didn't think we'd get anymore..but He apparently had a different plan." Keegan says.

At this point Im bawling and everyone is rolling their eyes at me, like "oh she's hormonal...again." 🙄

"I'm honestly done. if you cant support me through this pregnancy, then I'm quiting Pretty Little Liars. Keegan, you have to stay we need the money but I'll stay home with the kids. This is ridiculous. and you call yourself these kids' aunts and godparents, you're all freaking idiots." I fight back after I contain my emotions.

"Why don't you go home Troian. I'll see you there in a couple hours."

"Okay."

The next few hours were rough for me, taking care of Cass and Sophia. But I can't even imagine what Keegan's rest of the day was like..it must've been awful. I have to be home, pregnant, taking care of two toddlers, all the while posing for a camera like a Kardashian. it's rough. Quitting pll means giving up a huge part of my life. it's also the only choice however.

Keegan got home at 4 that night and the kids were napping, so I ran up and we kissed for a while. Then we knew we had to get down to the talking.

"So...how was the rest of the day?" I ask.

"not good...we barely got through our scenes without someone breaking down in tears."

"Oh..I'm so sorry."

"no Troi. IM so sorry. they didn't even give you a chance. They treated this baby like it was a curse. Detrimental to THEIR lives. This is so much more stress for us, let alone them. We can't go back..this is where we are..they need to get that."

"I love you so much Keegs."

"I love you more bug."

We make out until Cassadee cries her head off and I run to pick her up and breast feed her. Once that's done, I can tell that Sophia is out for the night so I go to bed at like 7:30. Shay doesn't come home.

The next day I wake up early with awful morning sickness, Keegan holds my hat back like a gentlemen, of course even though he has a 7AM call time which is 4 hours away.

And that's the start of my morning every day up until May 6th. On that day my world would forever change.