It's been a week since I found out I was pregnant and I still haven't told Keegan. I don't know if I should. I mean it sounds wrong to not tell the father of your child that you're pregnant, but after what Keegan did, why should I? I still haven't forgiven him. What happened in my dressing room was a mistake and it shouldn't have happened. I haven't personally talked to Shay since I found out. I've done scenes with her even though I hated it, but we haven't spoken to each other other than on set as Spencer and Emily. I decided that telling Keegan was the right thing to do, and that he should know I'm pregnant again. When you find out you're pregnant you're supposed to be excited. I'm excited no doubt about it, but when you've had 2 miscarriages within a 2 year period, it makes it even harder when you find out you're pregnant because you don't know if the next baby is gonna make it. I got dressed and put some makeup on.

After I got dressed, I grabbed my keys and headed out the door. I was dreading telling Keegan about this, but I honestly don't think I can raise this baby on my own.

I had been thinking about Troian lately. She's the only thing that's been on my mind every hour of every day. I kept thinking about that night in her dressing room when we kissed. I hate myself for making the mistake I made when I got Shay pregnant but I can't take it back or change what happened even though I would give up everything if it meant I could get Troian back. I missed her so much, and every little thing I see or do reminds me of her. I'm just glad she decided that ending Spoby wasn't the best thing to do. I forgot what it's like to be in love with somebody because the only person I've ever loved and will ever love isn't mine anymore.

When I pulled into Keegan's driveway, I sat in my car and debated wether I should tell him or not. I decided that telling Keegan was the right thing to do, not for me, but for the sake of this baby. I got out of my car and walked up to Keegan's door. When he answered, I didn't say anything to him. I just walked right past him and sat on the couch waiting to tell him.