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"Type, what's wrong? Why are you sitting here and crying?" Tharn questions his husband instantly as he worriedly races to him.

All his disappointment and anger faded away when he saw his husband sitting at the door on his knees and crying his heart out. He couldn't find it in himself to leave type like that, in fact even the thought didn't occur his mind. He just wanted to go to him and know what lead to him in this state and to console him. When he walks to type, he sits in front of him and gently lifts his face in his hands.

"What happened?" He asks again, this time his voice so soft and filled with so much concern.

"You stupid! Where did you go? I kept calling you and followed you all the way down but you didn't listen to me. I lost the way after walking out of the hotel and couldn't find you. I searched everywhere, you didn't seem anywhere. Where did you go? Why did you leave me? You know how scared I felt, you moron!" Type sobs as he lifts his hands up and hits on tharn's chest while he lay his head on tharn's shoulder.

Tharn stays still, shocked by type's words and actions. Why would type worry about him when he himself told tharn to be away from him? What is type even doing? It's all confusing him to say the least.

"Why would you be scared? Didn't you tell me to go away from you?" Tharn asks him while holding type's wrists to stop the beating and that makes type to look up at him.

"Why wouldn't I be scared when you suddenly disappear?" Type replies in between his cries.

"You can't even stand me, type, isn't it better that I go far away from you?" Tharn counters.

Tharn is seriously feed up with type's antics. One second he screams at him telling him to go away and the next second he cries for him. What should tharn think about this? It does nothing but create some hope for him. The sudden concern type's showing on him and the fear in his eyes at the thought of losing tharn is making him feel things. Things which he shouldn't feel because at the end all type do is hate tharn and tharn knows that, sad but true.

At tharn's words type just stares at him surprised without uttering a word. Tharn sighs knowing what he said is right, if it wasn't type would at least say something. To tharn type's silence meant acceptance.

"See, you can't even deny because what I said is true. May be we're really not meant for each other. All you do is hate me and wish that I never exist in your life." Tharn states sadly, those words sounding bitter even to his own ears.

"I don't hate you, you annoying idiot!" Type whisper yells at tharn's face making the other chuckle.

"Yeah, you don't hate me. As if I believe that. All throughout these past years you showed me nothing but hatred to me. Why would you think I would believe you? I maybe a moron like you said but I can at least know the other person feelings towards me." Tharn states to type.

"I told you I don't hate you, don't you understand?" Type calls out getting angry at tharn for not believing him.

"I understand it very well, type." Tharn says with a sigh.

"YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND!" Type screams shocking tharn, "you don't understand anything, most of all you don't understand me. You never did. You always believe what you think is right. You don't know me at all because if you know at least a part of me you would know that I don't hate you."

"Type..." Tharn calls his name wanting to stop type as he's having difficulty to breath.

But he gets cut as type stops him by raising his hand as a gesture, "don't talk anything, let me complete first."

"Did you ever think why a ten year old boy was always behind you? Playing with you, eating with you, sleeping with you? And why he stopped all that suddenly? You never, you never once thought about it. To you I'm just like any other friend but to me you were my special someone. You totally forgot about me when years back tar entered our lives and when I started being away from you, you never once asked me what's wrong. All you did was apologize even when you didn't know what was wrong. That moment when you let go of me for someone else, my ten years old heart broke into million of pieces."

"I spent all my nights crying for my only friend who was happy with someone else that wasn't me. Who totally forgot about my existence. I thought if I act as I was angry at you and stay away for you, you would come back to me, my stupid ten years self thought. But you never did, at least not until tar left. All these years I fought with you all the time because that's the only way for you to notice me. You're happy with your life, with family, friends and girlfriend. But what about me? Me, who always thought about you every single day and night? Cried every night for you and hoped that one day you would get back to me and we would go back to how we were. You never know how hard it was for me to see you smiling and being happy with your girlfriend when all the while I wanted to be that person."

"You know nothing. You don't know that I freaking love you and that I loved you since I can remember." Type vents out all the years of struggle he has been gone through.

"I love you, you bastard."