Our parting was like a stalemate

Neither of us won.

Yet both of us lost.

And worse still.....

That unshakable feeling that

Nothing was ever really finished.

The ravenette shook back and forth with his lover in his arms. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Please. Please Tae." He cried but got no response. His lover was silent. He had turned cold. He looked just like a snowflake. Beautiful and mesmerising. But lifeless.

"S....see I'm back l...love. I w....won't leave you alone a...again. I promise." He peppered kisses all over the tear stained face of his husband but got no response. He waited but nothing happened. He was already too late. Sometimes your spontaneous actions cost you a lot and Jungkook was paying the same price.

Life is fickle. It's there one moment and it might not be in the next. This beautiful life should not be wasted with feelings of anger and hatred. These hateful feelings do nothing but cause remorse in the end. Jungkook was feeling the same. If only he had kept those feelings of hatred and revenge aside. If only he had asked Taehyung about his problems once nothing could have gone wrong. But these realisations were of no use now. His lover had already given up on them.

"Hyunsik do something. He....he is not able to open his eyes. P...please." Jungkook cried in desperation. He didn't want to accept the reality. The doctor didn't say a word. He kept on looking towards the floor. No one was able to look into the broken ravenette's eyes. They all were numb. Some crying while some sitting on the floor with blank faces.

This was not how they imagined their Christmas to be. This was not what they had wished for. Were they too cruel? Was this their punishment for taking Taehyung for granted? Was it their punishment for never thinking about him?

"TAE!" Jungkook shouted in agony. "This is not fare. You can't do this to me. Y....You can't do this. Get up. Please. I..I'll do anything for you. Just get up. GET UP!" He shook the lifeless form in his arms but the angel remained unresponsive. The baby in Han-na's arms started crying too. It was as if he had sensed his father's pain. This was the last straw. Haneul's painful cries ripped their hearts away.

"Hyunsik I beg you to do something." Jungkook cried again. "Mr. Jeon he is dead. Your husband is dead. His heart has stopped. A F*CKING CARDIAC ARREST." Hyunsik shouted. He wished for his leader to come back to his senses. It was painful to accept but it was the reality. Nothing could be changed now. Fate had already played it's cruel game.

"You don't know anything." Jungkook whispered. He knew that Hyunsik was right. He had lost him. He had already lost his love. His world. "Tae? You wanted me to sing a song for you this Christmas. I'll sing it. Then you'll wake up. Right?" He diverted all this attention to the boy in his arms instead.

I fell by the wayside, like everyone else

I hate you, I hate you, I hate you

But I was just kidding myself

Our every moment, I start to replace

'Cause now that they're gone

All I hear are the words that I needed to say

He began singing. He didn't care about the others in the room. All he cared about was his husband who was lying in his arms. He wanted to fulfil every of his requests.

When you hurt under the surface

Like troubled water running cold

Well, time can heal, but this won't

So, before you go

Was there something I could've said

To make your heart beat better?

If only I'd have known you had a storm to weather

S...so, before you g...go

Was there some......something I could've said

To m...make it all stop h...hurting?

It kills me how your m..mind can make you feel so w....worthless

So, before you g...go.

With each word his voice became faint. His words stopped as heart wrenching cries replaced them. He pulled Taehyung closer to himself and cried. He shouted, sniffled and hiccuped but nothing changed. It took him a lot of time to control his emotions.

Once he had somewhat calmed down he placed a chaste kiss on Taehyung's lips and got up from the floor. He gently placed the cold body on the bed and walked towards Han-na. "Mom give him to me." He said and took a crying Haneul in his own embrace. Then turning around he walked towards his husband and placed the baby on his chest.

Miraculously the cries stopped. The baby recognized his Appa immediately. But sadly a scene that was suppose to warm their hearts was ripping it instead. The innocent baby had lost his mother figure. He was not even involved in all this mess but had to face the repercussions.

"Please leave me alone everyone." Jungkook requested looking at the others present there. "Kook. He....he.." Han-na tried to speak but couldn't. His son looked lost and this was breaking her even more.

"I know mom. You all can go and pre....prepare for the fu...funeral. I just want to be with him for sometime. Just the three of u....us." Jungkook looked into his mother's eyes with utmost desperation. The lady nodded vigorously. She made everyone leave the room and then went outside as well.

Once everyone had left, Jungkook locked the door. He slowly walked towards the bed where his husband was sleeping peacefully with a small human lying on top of him. He slid down next to Taehyung and caressed his hair.

"I never deserved you. This world never deserved you." The ravenette whispered and then laid down beside his lover. He engulfed him in his buff arms and closed his eyes. The tears not ceasing.

Taking in a deep breath he placed a kiss on Taehyung's forehead.

A cherished one. The last one.