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ei Yuu gripped his hand that was holding Yan Gen's moments ago, wanting to hold onto the remaining warmth that his satiny hand left. He looked around to look for his familiar figure but it was like looking for a needle in the midst of a haystack. "Lan-er...?" he sounded confused and afraid when he called Zhilan.

"Lan-er?!" He shouted his name this time. Desperate, he shouted his name again and again as he started dashing through the crowd, madly looking for him. Those people he rudely pushed around and bumped into cursed him many times under their breath, and when they're about to berate him, they will be faced with his back figure that was quickly disappearing among the crowd. Wei Yuu couldn't care less about them, his mind is too preoccupied with his cousin. His whole being is wholly dedicated to him at this moment, to see him, to hear his voice, to hold him, to smell the natural fragrant he emitted from his body, he wants nothing but to find him this instance. That brat. He'll definitely scold him once he found him. That is if he's lucky enough to find him.

Cold sweats formed on his back, there was a lump in his throat. His heart is beating furiously in anxiety. He was already looking for him for more than an hour now and have not seen a single trace of him. Nevertheless, he doesn't feel tired at all. He won't rest unless he find him. If he still didn't find him after half an hour, he'll have no choice but to call for the Wei clan's retainers to look for Yan Gen with him. Of course, he was the one most clear about the heavy punishment he'll receive if this made known.

Meanwhile, Yan Gen who was separated from him stood outside the shop where Wei Yuu buyed the veil hat he's wearing right now. The shop was a bit closer to the place where they've been standing a while ago when they spotted the dragon show dance.

It wasn't his intention to get separated by Wei Yuu, really. Yan Gen was too fascinated by the show that he forcefully take back his hand from his hold to clapped his hands in admiration. The show was at the center of the market way so there were many people going past there , in addition, the show attracted quiet a lot of attention so being pushed around at this crowded place is not uncommon. Although the street was wide, it was still jammed. Yan Gen was pushed around at the very back as many people walked past him, making him staggered backwards, he almost fell on his butt.

Yan Gen tried calling out Wei Yuu's name, and even reached his hand out to him but was pushed back by the crowd. Wei Yuu seems distracted by something. After that, Yan Gen tried walking up to him but to no avail. With his meager strength, it was impossible to get through the crowd. In just a blink of an eye, Wei Yuu was nowhere in sight.

Since it was impossible to search for him in this place, Yan Gen obediently stationed himself where Wei Yuu can easily spot him. However, Wei Yuu didn't go back to where they've been to. He searched ahead of the street.

Now watching this brightly lit place packed with people alone made Yan Gen a bit melancholic. Feeling lonely as he stood at the side of the street. Only when he's alone can he feel this way, his current situation was still slowly sinking into him. He died at such a young age and got transmigrated into this strange world as a girl. His life was controlled by others, has no rights to make a decisions of his own, has no one to lean on but himself. Yan Gen can already imagine how terrible his future days will be in this world. His past life was already comfortable enough and he didn't complain about anything. Why must he be in this situation?

A pair of mother and son walked past him, they were walking hand in hand. The mother looked down at her son who was looking everywhere, pointing here and there, a mild smile was plastered on her face.

It was then that something hit Yan Gen. In this past few days, he disregard that feeling of longing. He doesn't want to feel depressed just thinking about it. Now that he's alone, it has dawned on him. He has a family ah.

A family that he belongs originally. He has both parents who always nagged at him even when he's already in the University. He was an only child, both of his parents are already old since they had Yan Gen around their 40's. Yan Gen feels like his heart was being clenched while wondering how his parents are faring. Although they nagged him all the time until he feels like his ears will fall off, they're no that strict. They let him choose whatever course he's going to take in college as long as he's happy with it, they just worried about him not having a girlfriend all his life and being immersed in his computer without socializing much in real life.

There was one time when his mother confronted him about this girlfriend issue, saying that she will still accept him regardless of his chosen gender and will be there for him if there's anything, she also said that she'll be able to persuade his dad too. He's their only child, his dad will be able to accept him whatever he is.

At that time, Yan Gen doesn't know how to react with that. Did his mother just labeled him as gay? He doesn't know if he's feeling touched, annoyed, or angered at her statement. When did he showed an interest to his own comrades that are males? Yan Gen really wanted to show his comptuer files to her. See if she'll be able to label him as gay once he saw his collection of heterosexual porn videos, pictures of cute and sexy girls, and R18 games. He was oozing in manliness ah. How could his own mother labeled him as such?

Yan Gen chuckled at the memory. He missed home, he badly wants to go home now. He missed his parents, his bed, his computer, his friends, he missed a lot of things. Through his white heazy veil, his eyes became misty. The people passing by became blurry, it looks like a fast forward movie but to him, he remained still and unmoving. Just an onlooker, as if he wasn't part of this world.

This feeling of homesickness is really terrible. He missed walking on the street with streetlights, cars, and tall buildings around. For some reason, his eyes stung a bit.

A man's figure appeared before him, his huge shadow engulfed him "I finally found you!" That voice sounded breathless as he suddenly seized Yan Gen's veiled hat to confirm that it's really him. "Lan-er?" Although he's still catching his breath, his tone turned a few points gentler. Yan Gen looked up and saw Wei Yu's pretty face staring at him, his eyes were overflowing with tenderness, beads of sweat were slowly rolling down at the sides of his face.

"What's wrong?" his hands that was a bit calloused cupped his cheeks, wiping away his tears that are continuously falling, making Wei Yuu flustered. "I'm wrong. It was my fault. I'll keep an eye to you next time, definitely not letting you go. I'm sorry... I'm sorry..."

It was then that Yan Gen realized that he's crying. He's crying in front of a man for f*ck's sake. How shameful! Shameful!

However, Yan Gen's rational thoughts was swept away by his overflowing emotions. It doesn't matter if he's crying in front of a man or not, he needs to pour out these emotion or he'll burst. Perhaps it was because he's trapped inside the body of a young girl that he became so emotional.

Wei Yuu was fazed when Yan Gen cried even harder, crystal tears continuously fall out of his eyes without a sign of stopping. It was at this moment that he let go all of his stifled emotions in the past few months of being here. The sight of a stunning beauty crying wretchedly makes people very distressed. Wei Yuu asked again "What's wrong? Did someone bully you? Tell me..." the rest of his sentence got stucked in his mouth when Yan Gen threw himself at him and wailed like a child.

For a moment, Wei Yuu doesn't know what to do. His mind turned blank. The white veiled hat he's holding dropped on the ground. Slowly, he raised his hands and hugged him. Enveloping Yan Gen's small figure in his arms.

His left hand was holding on Yan Gen's slim waist, while his other hand was on his head. His fingers combing through his silky hair over and over again as he softly coax him carefully and patiently. "Darling, don't cry..." He tuck a loose strand of hair behind his ears and continued. "Tell me what's wrong..." Wei Yuu will beat the hell out of anyone if someone did really bully Yan Gen in this street.

"I-I miss my mom" Yan Gen answered with a bawl "So soon?" Wei Yuu was baffled at him. Perhaps his cousin wants to wander around in the street with Wei Furen. "I miss my computer. I want to play games and watch cute and sexy girls, I want to go home"

In front of Yan Gen's tears, Wei Yuu was beyond helpless. "Alright, I'll do whatever Lan-er says. We'll go home now. Don't cry..."