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man who transmigrated into the body of a young girl would not feel so comfortable, when Yan Gen wants to pee, he momentarily forgot that he's no longer a man and so, he peed while standing, the result was that his pretty robe got wet by his urine. He wants to bury his self alive when his pretty maids find out even though he tried so hard to hide it. Hiding the robe in his room so tightly and waking up in the middle of the night just to wash his clothes that he has urinated.

Unfortunately for him, his maids were all light sleepers and they were all sleeping at the side chamber, a bit of noise from his room and they will all wake up, asking him what he needs. They were after all, trained for the sole purpose of serving their masters even in the middle of the night. If Yan Gen was still a man, he would definitely summon this two pretty maids of his to his chamber every night to have fun on his bed. Thinking about it now, he could only sighs and look at the sky.

Heavens ah heavens, what sinful crime did he committed in the past to be this way? What use it is to be reborn only to become a woman and not a man any longer, reborn in an ancient world where there is no Feminism and Gender equality to add with his already tragic life.

If he was reborn in another world where those two existed, naturally it would be in a modern world. Reborn as a woman there, he could still have a girlfriend, who cares if he is labeled a lesbian? So long as he has a beauty in his arms and a good job with pretty good salary for himself and for the beauty in his arms. Besides, he could still change his gender once he has a surgery.

Doesn't matter if he's called a transgender, he will fully support the rainbow colored flags and fight for their rights, as long as he becomes a man again, never mind his descendants that he couldn't produce any longer, he can adopt a few adorable children to carry his surname and call him dad.

He was so full of what ifs but there is actually no left options for him. He's already here, isn't he? He has to accept his tragic fate without a choice or else what can he do? Suicide? That's an impossible task for him, he's a coward in the first place, a man who is afraid of pain and even more afraid of death. He has already gone through it and the experience is not a very pleasant one.

Peeing his robe was not the only shameful thing that he did, the worst part is when he was going to bath and his pretty maids want to help him wash his body. He couldn't refute the first time, they were fast in their work but not to the point of being careless, they were so used in serving this goddess like beauty that he's possessing and in their presence, Yan Gen tried to cover his shameful private parts.

Ladies ah, don't do this to me, I don't have a meatstick any longer and my breasts are starting to grow. As a man, this is too embarrassing of an image to be seen.

Yan Gen thought that since he's now a girl and a dropped dead gorgeous at that, she couldn't feel any sensation from the opposite gender or is it the same gender? He was momentarily confused with that.

He has tried to touch himself, taking advantage of the body he's possessing without an ounce of shame yet he didn't feel aroused at all. He's done for, has his feelings became a girl one too, will his personality change because he's now a female?

Luckily for him when the pretty maids started to bath him and their hands were all over his body, he suddenly felt aroused, feeling excited but his excitement vanished just as soon as it came for when he thought of masturbating in the bathtub, he reached his hand down to his lower part that is being soaked under the water, intending to relieved himself and expecting a hard meat stick to grab but he didn't grabbed anything.

Where was his son that he's so proud of between his legs?! He was so proud of it because his was the biggest in their dorm (As for why he knew, his dorm mates once compared their birdies when they were watching a porno).

You can imagine them watching that while holding their madden birdies and a perverted idea popped out of their heads to compare who has the biggest of them all. As it turns out, Yan Gen has the biggest out of them all. Of course, as a man this was something to be proud of.

A pity that he doesn't have a girlfriend in his previous life and can't have one in this lifetime too. Such a very pitiful man who can only flirt with those characters in an Otome games and fantasize about a woman's body without really touching the real ones.

Yan Gen: They know that girlfriend part already so shut the hell up! Why must you bruised my ego repeatedly?!

Anyways, when he tried to do 'that', his excitement flew out of the window and although he's bathing in a warm water, it felt as though someone splashed him in cold water. As a result, he became disappointed and mad, so mad that his pretty maids trembled in fright when he shouted at them to get out. Beauties can be so frightening too when they're mad, they would look like they can spit fire at you.

Speaking of which, being a girl is really hard. He didn't realized this one until he became a girl himself. Ancient clothings are especially stressing, making one really uncomfortable, not to mention that he's a modern man who dressed comfortably in a shirt and a short pants. The clothing for men here in ancient times is still in the boundaries of comfort, women however have to dress layers of clothes, particularly the noblewomen.

In addition, his long hair. He has never gotten a hair this long that reached his butt and when he sits, it touches the floor, sometimes he would accidentally seat on it and it feels like all of his hair had been pulled out. A hair this long is really heavy, even more heavier when its gotten wet, he wants to cut it short but this is the ancient times where hair is forbidden to be cut, viewing it as a heritage from their ancestors and thus they don't have a right to cut it short. An updo hair is not allowed for he's still a maiden (is that even the right word to address him now?), he can only tied back the strand of his hairs at the both sides of his face while his hair at the back is left freely flowing.

His growing breasts are also really troublesome and when he loudly complained about it and asked for a cure in front of his pretty maids, stating that his breasts are aching especially when something brushed against it, and the ancient undergarment called dudou (ancient bra) are making it more painful, the maids merely laughed at his innocence and told him that it's just normal because she's still growing, naturally her body is developing and going through changes.

Yan Gen is sympathising with his now fellow women who have gone through sufferings and those who will go through it in the near future. Speaking of sufferings, the most painstaking part is when his first period came. It feels as though his intestines are being drenched and his legs became numbed too, he looks like a walking corpse because of how pale he looks, he spend the whole day curled up like a ball on his bed.

When he first saw the blood on his undergarment, he screamed in horror and his pretty maids barged in the bathroom in panic. He almost fainted in shock. Why is there so much blood coming between his legs? is that why his stomach is so painful? He's not injured down there, is he? however he doesn't remember being wounded by something. What is this?! He has never seen so much blood in his previous life aside from those movies and games. Yan Gen started to freak out and his maids have a hard time calming him down.

After knowing himself that it's just normal, he started to calm down. Didn't he learned of this in sixth level of grade school? The adolescent and puberty matters. Afterwards, shame flooded him when he realized how cowardly he acted. Forget it! Being a coward is a part of him so what? He has a right to be coward for he's a girl now, not a man. Hah! His thoughts were full of righteousness as he defends himself.

Yan Gen had buried himself under the blanket while clutching his stomach, mentally writing a letter.

Dear girls,

You have my utmost respect for enduring so many hardships through out the process of your womanhood. Period is something new to me, I never knew that cramps can be this bad. If cramps can be this painful, what more if I give birth? Oh no, don't be mistaken. I'am not planning to let a man enter my sacred place, my apologies for disappointing you.

I may not be a man physically but I'am still a man in heart and I'am not a fan of Yaoi, bl, or boys love, call it what you will. However, I don't criticize those who love it, so please don't throw your daggers at me, it's just not up to my taste. If anything it only makes me feel disgusted.

I, Yan Gen, is a man and will always be a man despite of my changed sex, I can only love a woman and will only love a woman and can't never love a man and will never love a man. This is my solemn vow.

Truly yours,

Yan Gen

As a junior of those who transmigrated before him, he's very ashamed of himself. His senpais (seniors) must be very disappointed in him. How could he become a woman?! It's okay if he became a weak androgynous beauty, at least he can still call himself a man! He doesn't have any special ability in the first place, unlike his awesome senpais who transmigrated that were assasins, soldiers, doctors, marines, etc... in their previous lives.

How could he be compare to them?He's just a pathetic human being on earth, a normal university student who barely passed his entrance exam. An average face with a lane figure. He's a man who loved RPG and Otome games, anime, manga/manhwa/webtoon, wuxia and xianxia novels to passed his remaining time on earth. Unexpectedly, he died earlier than expected at the age of 18 after entering his freshman year in the university.