All night I stared at nothing. It took a long time for everything to sink in to me. What happened? I still couldn't believe it..

Naomi is a sweet, nice girl, but I don't like her in the same way and I don't really know how to tell her. She is one of the few friends I have and I don't want to hurt her at all. I felt a hand on my shoulder and was so startled that I spilled my coffee all over my hand. "Let me help you clean that up." I heard someone say laughing. I turned my head and saw that Nate has gone to the kitchen to get wipes. I was still in shock that I couldn't get a word out of my mouth.

When Nate came back from the kitchen he asked "Is everything okay? You look quite shocked." he laughed. Yes, how would that come? I wanted to say, but I held back and let him dry my hands. "you seem quite absent today, maybe something happened at school?" this time he looked really worried which totally broke my heart. "I - I'm ok... " I can't tell anyone about today. "Are you sure? It doesn't feel that way." he insisted. I nodded.

He came closer and hugged me. It felt so familiar and good, but at the same time it also felt like it was something that shouldn't be. But if Mom or Benjamin saw me like that, they'd probably think it's innocent, even if it isn't, but thankfully they don't know.

"You are so cute." he whispered suddenly in my ear. "Thank you." I felt myself blush. When he finally let go of me, we stared at each other for several minutes.

Suddenly I remembered that I haven't spoken to Max in a long time, I wonder how he is. Somehow I completely forgot about him because I'm so busy with Nate, and now Naomi too... "What is it?" Nate could see I was on to something, I was looking over everything except him. "I still have something to do." I said before I walked out of the room towards my bedroom. I want to be alone so I can talk to Max quietly.

I lay on the bed and thought up several conversations and questions before calling Max. I didn't want the conversation to get cringe so I wanted to be a little prepared. It took a very long time for Max to finally answer. "Hey." I said first. "Oh hey, that was a long time ago." I heard a voice say on the other end. He sounded happy but also a little disappointed. "yes, that's right. I'm sorry I didn't call for so long."

"It's okay. After all, I'm a bit busy with things I'm doing..." it felt like he wasn't telling me everything. "Did something happen?" I wanted to know. "Oh, no. By the way, I saw a few times that you were having a good time with Naomi. Is she your girlfriend?" the words came slowly to me. "Huh?" was all I could get out. "No, why?" "Ah, it doesn't matter then. Leave it." Why can't he say it? I sighed. "Okay then." I didn't feel like arguing.

I talked a little more about school and simple things and then ended the conversation. I was tired and didn't feel like doing anything anymore, what a day.