Three days later

This morning I arrived back in Los Angeles at 8 am. I got an uber to a hotel in the downtown area, and today I have to head over to the house I was living in with Troian when we were still together. We haven't talked much only to confirm the arrangements of when I'm to come over today and get my belongings from the house. Troian asked for one thing. The house. I let her have that. The dogs were hers. Therefore I wouldn't be at the house too long.

I'm lying awake in bed. Today Patrick is coming over around 11 am to get his things from the house. Lulu is still here staying with me and I invited Ashley, Shay, Sasha and Lucy along with Shea's assistant Shannon to have lunch at my house and to go swimming in my pool.

I stretch out my arms and yawn. My dog Charlie comes over to me and licks my face. He slept with me for a bit last night. I'm giving Charlie a tummy rub when I hear my phone go off. I reach over and grab it on my bedside table.

I live very close to Griffith Park and it is 8:30 am so I decide that I will go. I still have plenty of time to come back and get ready before Patrick comes over. "Charlie. Bella." I shout. My other dog Bella comes running into my room. "We're going to your favourite place!" I smile and laugh as Bella jumps up onto my bed and licks my face too.

I quickly throw on a bra, some clean underwear along with a tshirt and jean shorts. I make my way down my winding staircase with Charlie and Bella running happily behind me.

We make our way into the kitchen to find Lulu making breakfast. She looks up from breaking eggs into a bowl and smiles at me.

"You don't have to make me breakfast. You have done so much!" I tell her as I take a seat at my kitchen island.

"You said yourself my cooking is really good." She replies with a laugh.

"Ok you caught me." I wink and smile at her. "No but seriously. You have a husband and dog at home. Don't they miss you?"

"About that. I'm probaby heading home after the pool party. Justin misses me."

I tell Lulu I'm going to take the dogs out and will be back shortly. "Invite Shay, Lucy, Sasha and Ashley over for breakfast." Lulu shouts as I'm about to head out.

"Are you sure?" I reply.

"Yeah! It will be a fun girls day."

"Ok sounds good." I text the girls and invite them over for breakfast at my house and get a bunch of "yes" replies.

Ten minutes later

I am arriving at Griffith Park. I open the car door and Bella and Charlie run out excitedly wagging their tales. I spot Shay and run over to her.

We spend the next twenty minutes letting our dogs run around off leash. I'm having so much fun it almost helps me take my mind off of the fact that I'm going to be seeing Patrick today. My fiancé who cheated on me.

11:00 Am

I'm pulling into the driveway at Troian's house. There is a small moving truck parked in the driveway. I'm all of a sudden feeling nervous. Being here after everything that happened with us, feels awkward. Almost like I'm in a place I am not supposed to be in.

I park my black BMW in the driveway next to Troian's silver SUV and walk to the front door. I take a huge gulp and a deep breath as I prepare to knock. Three knocks and I feel as though maybe she won't answer. I'm about to walk away and I hear her voice.

"You can come in." I turn around to see Troian dressed in jeans shorts and a bikini top. She has her red framed heart sunglasses on. She takes them off and looks at me.

I enter the front foyer and look around me. I hear girls laughing. I look behind me and see Troian closing the front door.

"Take all the time you need. I want everything gone." She tells me.

I nod my head and make my way upstairs to the bedroom. When I enter I notice our bed has been made. I get flashbacks of when I would curl up and watch movies with Troian here. Sometimes we would even watch my show Suits. A photo on the bedside table catches my eye. It's a photo of us in Toronto last summer. It's dark out and the lights from the CN tower shine in the background. I'm smiling at the camera and Troian is kissing me on the cheek. I'm beaming.

I enter the closet finally and notice all of Troian's clothes first. Neatly organized and then I make my way to my side. I begin doing something I never thought I would be doing. Cleaning out my side of the closet because I am moving out of our house.

I lean against the door for a couple minutes composing myself before I'm ready to join my friends outside again. "Are you alright?" Sasha is coming toward me. I nod my head. "Yeah let's go back outside."

When we return I find Shay, Lucy, and Ashley in the pool. Lulu is lying down on a towel reading a celebrity gossip magazine and drinking an iced tea. She lowers her sunglasses to look at me.

"Is you know who here?" She asks. I nod my head. "Yeah he's here. I told him I want everything gone." "You go girl!" She replies in an excited tone. I laugh.

I look around and I see my dogs running around with Shay's dog Angel, Ashley's dogs Lila and Max and Lucy's dog Elvis. I get into the pool and instantly the slightly cool water feels great against my skin.

I'm enjoying relaxing in the pool when Ashley asks me a question I've been dreading.

"Troian, where did you and Keegan disappear to at my party?"

"I texted you. He gave me a ride home." I tell her hoping she will accept that answer.

"No before that."

"They were inside with your dogs talking." Shay cuts in. I give her a look that says I'm grateful and she returns it with a smile.

Ashely just nods. I'm not quite sure she believes me. Right now I don't care. I know all my friends and some of the cast know me and Keegan have always liked each other. Although I was obviously entitled to my privacy.

"Let's play Marco Polo." Lucy suggests changing the subject.

"Yeah!" We all shout in excitement. Ashley rolls her eyes.

"I haven't played that since I was at summer camp. When I was sixteen." She says laughing.

"Come on." I say nudging her arm. "It will be fun!"

We play Marco Polo for about twenty minutes before getting bored. Then we all just swim around, and finally I give in and go get floaters for all of us.

I get my swan floatie, Ashley sits inside a pink sprinkled donut floatie, Lucy is sitting ontop of a poo emoji, Lulu is inside a unicorn, Shay is inside a flamingo floatie and laughing her head off, her assistant Shannon is on another pizza slice, and Sasha is inside a yellow rubber duck.

As I look around at my friends with me I feel so happy and grateful to have them in my life. We all laugh at each other as we look at the floatie we all have. I almost forget in this moment how a little part of me feels depressed to have the man in the house I thought I was going to marry upstairs in our bedroom, which is now just my bedroom , emptying his things out of the closet and leaving for good. Unless we work together we are out of each other's lives.

I am beyond happy that I followed my heart the other night with Keegan. Everything with Patrick though was still fresh. Feelings and history wouldn't just go away.